too much to say .

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i`ll let memories of 2009 flash past in my mind.
some of which i would embrace.
some of which i wish i could forget.
some of which i wish could repeat.
some of which i hope could stop.

its been a great year.
despite hurt, anger, frustration.
sad to say, but honestly, its really significant. :(
i`m glad somehow i can still live life as it is.
one life.

time to lay back.

btw, in advance, Happy New Year!
Happy 2010! :)
Hope this new year, will be a better year ahead.
for everyone.
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one .

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Pray to your god, open your heart
Whatever you do, don't be afraid of the dark

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a birth of a song, a death of a dream

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Its the moment of truth and the moment to lie
The moment to live and the moment to die
The moment to fight, the moment to fight
To fight, to fight, to fight

No I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day, maybe we'll meet again


30 Seconds To Mars -This Is War|Closer To The Edge
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the sick cycle carousel .

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hey hey,
i stepped down from the carousel already.

so whats next?
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mess of me .

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There ain´t no drug
No drug to make me well
It´s not enough
I´m breaking up
The sickness is myself


wicked song by SWITCHFOOT - Mess Of Me :)
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Mai`s 20th BBQ :)

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had a great evening celebrating.
more pictures up on fb.
finally got to meet the long-time-no-see faces.
awesome =D

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joy.

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Mai`s 20th.
had a great evening.
met up with long-time-no-see faces.
will update soon.
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hold your breath half to death .

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the best defense, is a good offense.
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for fun laughter peace & joy .

the disgusted & hated :)

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guess what i found in my phone? =D
that someone who _______ _______ __ ___.
& so is his _______, _____ __.

would you like to buy a vowel? XD

true ?

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"I rather spend time with people that gives a damn..." - Wilson Poh.

and i always thought its not the way.
now, i`m beginning to realise... actually it is.

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can i just laugh about it ?

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thanks, you, you and you.
i`m better.
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don`t care ?

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the closer you get to something, the harder it is to see it.

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save you .

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i didn`t tell you of my intention.
didn`t manage to.
sometimes, doing the right thing can be painful.
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if not for the 3 limits .

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how does it feel ?

oh by the way, i wish i could kill you :)

o starlight

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far away from the memories
of the people who care if i live or die

i don`t know if its worth it anymore.

the insignificance .

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stalemate.
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could i, would i ?

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its not that i did not learn my lesson.
its because i still have faith in and do believe...
but yet...
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fir`s coming back soon, & it can only mean one thing. =D

sleepy day .

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slept at the beach in the morn.
whole body feels soggy...
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Flow - Sign

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English Translation:

I realize the screaming pain
Hearing loud in my brain
But I'm going straight ahead, with this scar

Go ahead and forget, go ahead and stop feeling
(I) covered up (my) wounded heart

It's fine if (I) get hurt, cause (I) don't feel pain anymore
Even while dragging those feet along

(I) lost sight
of myself
the sound rose
and fell

Before (I) knew it, it was just the sound of the wind...

*Chorus
That comes to tell (me), follow the scar(s)
Before (you're) crushed by the world
Do you remember? The sky of tears

That pain protected you
That pain is always protecting you
*End Chorus

More than a strength that doesn't cause wounds, a kindness that can't wound
Some part of that voice seems sad

Like undoing buttons, heart and body seperated
take grasp of (your) heart one more time

*Repeat Chorus

(I've) found it, that crying voice
No doubt, that's right, it was my own
All of it was for this moment...

(I'm) sure from the beginning, (you/I) always knew
(That I) wouldn't ever let go of myself again
You noticed, a SIGN (signal) to you
That pain protected you

(I've) come to tell you, follow the scar(s)
If (you) do, there's nothing more to fear...
Don't forget okay? The reason for smiling

That pain protected you
That pain protected you
That pain is always protecting you

:(

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~sigh~
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interim .

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its over, not.
i need to return on tuesday with an improved idea 3D model.
nevertheless, still can relax.
and i very much enjoy hugging my bolster again.

there`s gotta be more to life, yeah?
:)
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all the same .

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"...and i`ll take you for who you are
if you take me for everything..."

read me .

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i don`t know why i`m even worried for.
but its not like i can`t care less.

pain, its subtle.
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altruism .

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and of course,
many more.

in this modern world, its good to know,
there are still people who care for others.

:)
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lets work to the grave !

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weekends no longer have to be called weekends if we have to do work that day.
and holidays... should they even be called holidays still?

i still remember primary school.
November and December.
the 2 best months of the year,
aside from June.

good old days.
ouhh yeahh.
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