The Night... Is Still Young

i was about to claim that i`m feeling rather down & sad.
ABOUT TO, but not yet.
i feel that i should be happy for my well being now.
thinking of those people less fortunate and capable than me,
i believe that i should not be sad.
instead i should be greatful to God to let me live this life.

well i can EVER say i`m not sad or even pretend i`m fine.
but whats the point to it when deep down my heart keeps getting scarred?
maybe because i keep the feelings to myself too much?
too much that i took the brunt of pain in exchange to keep someone else happy?
damn why is this happening?
zzz.

i was once PRAISED for being strong to get through tough times.
heh, being strong eh?
when in actuality i`m suffering deep inside.
now let me say this.
those who pretends to be strong on the outside when the inside is crumbling,
is in fact the most weak, and fragile.
now well, i learnt my lesson didn`t i?
no, i`m still figuring out why.

i still lack resolve.
maybe, just maybe,
i am afraid to deliver it.
because the last time i did that.
i not only scarred my own heart,
but another`s too.




most people wants to be the sun that brightens up your day,
but i`d rather be the moon that shines down on you in your darkest hour.




black will paint over white,
& red will stain it.
` samarra .

don`t waste my time

awakened&emotionalawakened&emotionalawakened&emotionalawakened&emotionalawakened&emotionalawakened&emotional

i don`t have much time left.
if its the end, then let it be.
i have no desire to stop it.

i am now far more susceptible to my other side.
its blood gets excited when the heart feels the pain.

awakened&emotionalawakened&emotionalawakened&emotionalawakened&emotionalawakened&emotionalawakened&emotional


black will paint over white,
& red will stain it.
` samarra .

Attack - 30 Seconds to Mars

I won't suffer, be broken, get tired, or wasted
Surrender to nothing, or give up what I
Started and stopped it, from end to beginning
A new day is coming, and I am finally free

Run away, run away, I'll attack
Run away, run away, go chase yourself
Run away, run away, now I'll attack
I'll attack, I'll aa-WHOOOAAAAAAAAA

I would have kept you, forever, but we had to sever
It ended for both of us, faster than a
Kill off this thinking, it's starting to sink in
I'm losing control now, and without you I can finally see

Run away, run away, I'll attack
Run away, run away, go chase yourself
Run away, run away, now I'll attack
I'll attack, I'll aa-WHOOOAAAAAAAAA

Your promises, they look like lies
Your honesty, like a back that hides a knife (knife)
I promise you (promise you)
I promise you (promise you)
And I am finally free

Run away, run away, I'll attack
Run away, run away, go chase yourself
Run away, run away, now I'll attack
I'll attack, I'll attack, I will attack

Run away, I'll attack, I will attack
Run away, I'll attack, I will attack

Run away (Run away), I'll attack (I'll attack)
I'll aa-WHOOOAAAAAAAAA

Your promises
(promises, promises)
I promise you
(promise you)
I promise you
(promise you, promise you)

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the effects to the video is freaking nice.
yeah?

Killswitch Engage - The End of Heartache

unexpected day

today is one of the most best days i`ve seen so far.
quite an unexpected one too.
yeah simply a great start of the holidays for me. XD

first thing in the morning when i came online,
got a message from Syarul saying something about break fasting with PID malays.
with the year ones malays in particular.
her message was like from 4am. lol.
i online-d like at 10? then i replied her.
she say the year ones invite her to break fast at lavender today,
and asked if they had invited me.
no they didnt cos i think i never gave the year ones my number.
well except for a few.
so then she contacted one of the year one and say if the year 3s and me can go along too.
green light, but i am not certain.

Siong then sms me asking if i can lend my laptop to Hakim, a year one.
he need to do the technical drafting and he dont have a comp.
so yeah i agreed to help.
and then siong also want m.office 07 from me.
so overall i gotta meet them both at pasir ris library.

when on my way to meet them, Najib called me.
bugger.. haha.
called me to ask me wanna go watch movie Phobia that evening.
hahaa.. i was shocked.
like so sudden la.
summore i needa lend my lappy to Hakim and stay with him.
in the end i agreed to watch movie.
together with Najib, Regu and Farhi.
coolness! long time never go out with them.
thanks to freaking heavy school assignment
hahaa.

so i decided to lend my laptop to Hakim to do at home.
then Siong just take the software from him then.
so then i needa go Ehub to meet Najib they all.
i took a wrong bus from interchange.
and ended up walking there. =.="
if only i walked from the start.. zzz.. only 1 bustop anyway..

met them.
bought tickets.
and decided to go off somewhere first.
Regu drove us to Changi.
and i dont know who got the urge to go to OCH.
Old Changi Hospital.
damn. haha. gotta see some pictures!




















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yeahh. so after that we catch our movie.
and that is a local film by raintrees production:
MONEY NO ENOUGH 2!



honestly its a great movie.
for a family.
everyone should go watch.
it is comical but also, very touching.
i was quite on the verge of tears.
damn you guys must go watch! (:

okay laa. end off now.
seeya! ^^


black will paint over white,
& red will stain it.
` samarra .

it WAS something...

to PID peeps, i will post the pictures and video of the last day of 1st semester up asap.
in the meantime im rather busy furthermore with the upcoming hari raya.
yeahhh. so have patience (: thx.



well what i want to talk about this girl.
i wont name her because many knew her.
okay she is one girl i dont expect her to be.

we talked at one point of time.
it was about friendships.
i was honestly amazed by the level of maturity she displayed about that topic.
really, i was astounded.

we got into hot topics like backstabbers, hypocrites, liars and etc.
and she currently is tied by friendship with one of those people.
at some points of time she really get frustrated for having to suffer from the negative one.
but she didnt leave the person.
i asked her why.
and she answered that all humans were not born evil or bad.
something must have cause them to behave in such a way.
she said she forgive those torment she have taken on from that person.
i cant believe her.

she is simply a unique girl.
because girls nowadays, not to say all, but majority,
they tend to hate and despise those that throw negatives at them.
in fact, politics exist among girls.
and its disgusting, seriously.
backstabbing is super everyday.
yepp.
but this girl is like wow.
different.
as a matter of fact, she hope that one day, the negative one will come to realize that all the while her doings are wrong, and will turn over a new leaf.

well what else can i say.
a guy who can get this girl is seriously a lucky guy.
this is SOMETHING you CANNOT find everyday.
its RARE!

and well to the girl, thanks for opening up my mind. (:

Shooting Star

great song.
reminds me and my friends,
when we talk about our dreams,
long before where we are now.

kinda bring back memories. :')

FOR WHOM THE BELL TOLLS...

its wind chime okay not bell. LOL!

must enjoy and have time for others despite heavy assignments. =D

coooool huh.. bells on our foreheads.. tsk tsk.

and my hair is like... GG-fication. HAHA! XD

pic 'STOLEN' from http://lollip0pavenue-x.blogspot.com
(thanks wei zhen!!!)



black will paint over white,
& red will stain it.
` samarra .

Free Palestine

the palestinians are yet to be freed.
endless resistance.
i pray one day they will be free again,
to walk down the streets smiling,
and knowing they are free to practise their religion, culture, and tradition.

why can`t muslim, christian, and jew live side by side in peace and harmony?

*i`m not trying to portray anything by posting this video.

A MONTH OF BLESSING

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Ramadan or Ramadhan (Arabic: رمضان) is the ninth month of the Islamic calendar.

The word Ramadan is derived from the word ramd "to burn".

Fasting in the month of Ramadan is one of the five pillars of Islam.

The month is spent by Muslims fasting during the daylight hours from dawn to sunset.

The name came from the time before the Islamic calendar, when the month of Ramadan fell in the summer.

Fasting during this month is often thought to figuratively burn away all sins.

Muslims believe that the Qur'an was sent down to the earth during this month.

Furthermore, Muhammad told his followers that the gates of Heaven would be open all the month and the gates of Hell would be closed.

The first day of the next month is spent in celebrations and is observed as the ‘Festival of Breaking Fast’ or `Eid-ul Fitr.

- totally excerpted from Wikipedia.. the FREE! dictionary. heh.

my words to all those Muslims out there, Happy Fasting :)

this month will be a blessing to us all.