Wednesday, June 29, 2016
Saturday, June 25, 2016
out & cold.
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helpless.
depressed, angry, disappointed, melancholic, tired.
so much shit in thoughts i cannot think of anything.
only lying on the floor of my room.
thinking perhaps all these are just nightmares.
and i would wake up.
or my heart stops and i go to a better place.
so much shit in thoughts i cannot think of anything.
only lying on the floor of my room.
thinking perhaps all these are just nightmares.
and i would wake up.
or my heart stops and i go to a better place.
Friday, June 24, 2016
Wednesday, June 22, 2016
prisoner with no parole.
she'll answer him like he is the one.
his arms outstretched.
but when she's done, he'll be torn apart.
his arms outstretched.
but when she's done, he'll be torn apart.
deep & meaningless.
staring into space and wondering why.
what is this that i have to bear with all my heart?
what is this that i have to bear with all my heart?
Tuesday, June 21, 2016
keep counting.
there is no shame.
erosions of self-respect & dignity.
all but seen with blind eyes.
for vessel of earthly needs.
erosions of self-respect & dignity.
all but seen with blind eyes.
for vessel of earthly needs.
Monday, June 20, 2016
Sunday, June 19, 2016
and not because of anything else.
"boo, if we ever separate let it be because we fight".
these were the words from your mouth.
these were the words from your mouth.
in my head, over and over again.
you kept saying how you loved me for trusting you wholeheartedly.
see now the damage you have done to me without the slightest bit of regret.
see now the damage i have done to myself for believing in you.
see now the damage you have done to me without the slightest bit of regret.
see now the damage i have done to myself for believing in you.
Saturday, June 18, 2016
Friday, June 17, 2016
Thursday, June 16, 2016
Wednesday, June 15, 2016
tonight.
i thought we are going to fight together.
go through the pain together.
go through the joy together.
i thought we are going to make it.
i thought we can truly say,
together we're invincible.
go through the pain together.
go through the joy together.
i thought we are going to make it.
i thought we can truly say,
together we're invincible.
Tuesday, June 14, 2016
Monday, June 13, 2016
throw the dice.
i'm just part of the plan.
you did not care about the execution.
only on the outcome.
you did not care about the execution.
only on the outcome.
Sunday, June 12, 2016
100 100 100 100.
when you are living in a dark universe, even the brightest light barely touch the surface.
left to wither and die in the icy core of your heart.
left to wither and die in the icy core of your heart.
a schrödinger's cat.
in a state of neither alive nor dead.
that is what you put me through.
and you are capable of that.
because your feelings are more important.
right?
that is what you put me through.
and you are capable of that.
because your feelings are more important.
right?
Saturday, June 11, 2016
the undeserving.
humans can never achieve peace.
that is a given.
it needs to be forced upon them.
without them knowing.
or unless necessary evil exist.
an external force.
one that has no end.
in the hope people can work together.
true peace is a far cry.
a made up one is good enough.
to end all suffering.
all the bloodshed, the anger.
and the heartbroken.
but perhaps before all this.
a judgement should be passed.
instant karma to those who have wronged.
to those who lied, deceived, hurt.
they should know the pain they caused.
to another human being.
someone with feelings just like them.
what's more one who truly loved and cared.
their heart should bleed the same.
their soul should break the same.
after all is done, let there be peace.
an eternal one.
that is a given.
it needs to be forced upon them.
without them knowing.
or unless necessary evil exist.
an external force.
one that has no end.
in the hope people can work together.
true peace is a far cry.
a made up one is good enough.
to end all suffering.
all the bloodshed, the anger.
and the heartbroken.
but perhaps before all this.
a judgement should be passed.
instant karma to those who have wronged.
to those who lied, deceived, hurt.
they should know the pain they caused.
to another human being.
someone with feelings just like them.
what's more one who truly loved and cared.
their heart should bleed the same.
their soul should break the same.
after all is done, let there be peace.
an eternal one.
Friday, June 10, 2016
strange & fuzzy.
i remembered our taiwan trip together.
it was a lovely trip, just us together.
all these memories.
why? :(
it was a lovely trip, just us together.
all these memories.
why? :(
Thursday, June 09, 2016
Wednesday, June 08, 2016
Tuesday, June 07, 2016
bus rides.
i always liked how you would stand together with me even if there is still an empty seat.
we would only sit if there are seats for both of us.
we would only sit if there are seats for both of us.
Sunday, June 05, 2016
toy.
you played with us.
& when you are done or found a better one,
you chuck us aside.
did you forget we have feelings?
perhaps you do not.
you only care about your own.
after all, humans are natural at being selfish.
& when you are done or found a better one,
you chuck us aside.
did you forget we have feelings?
perhaps you do not.
you only care about your own.
after all, humans are natural at being selfish.
now let the wind take my soul.
i sit here and wait.
not knowing what i am waiting for.
but it feels like the only thing i would do.
not knowing what i am waiting for.
but it feels like the only thing i would do.
Saturday, June 04, 2016
Friday, June 03, 2016
just as deep.
i wonder if you truly ever loved me at all.
or is it you just needed that companionship.
the sudden change begs for this one hell of a thought.
starting to lose sleep again.
or is it you just needed that companionship.
the sudden change begs for this one hell of a thought.
starting to lose sleep again.
the trade.
would you give up your happiness so others can be happy?
are you capable of such an exchange?
think... think... THINK!
are you capable of such an exchange?
think... think... THINK!
Wednesday, June 01, 2016
dark corners.
all i see now are troubles.
no matter where the sun shines.
no matter the rainbows & butterflies.
i only see troubles.
no matter where the sun shines.
no matter the rainbows & butterflies.
i only see troubles.
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