bang bang.

you shot me down.

breaking down.

its the brightest when it was distracted.
its the darkest during all others.

ugly monsters.

people are no longer people.
they are just monsters waiting to crawl out from within.
selfish, greedy, ugly.
they give you a smile for one moment and the next they eat you.
if they befriend you, its because you are their stepping stone.
they need you to achieve more for themselves.
you are a fool to believe.
but you will, eventually.
once you realise, it is over.
there is no time for you to react.
even if you can, you wouldn't know what to do.
you wouldn't expect it anyway.
its a shock.
so don't trust people.
they can fail you.
and they will.

:(

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are grey
You never know, dear, how much i love you
Please don't take my sunshine away

may all your souls burn.

"to know what is right and choose to ignore it is the act of a coward."
one day all of you will taste the searing pain just the same.
i hope you smile.

FUCCCCCKKKKK!

when you have someone who loves you so deeply but you throw that away.
just because you felt that you grew up.
you forgot how much we've been through and how far we've come, together.
those are the precious moments i will never give away.
but you did.
why would you care.
as long you get what you wanted, it feels alright.
it feels okay.
fuck this shit.
you don't care at all.
fuckfuckfuck!

only an empty vessel.

no matter how many deaths i die, i will never forget.

suffering exists.

humans tend to forget those they hurt in their pursuit of happiness.

no shit.

how can love heals when it is just another possibility of being a fucking menace?

it does not help.

waking up to a world without you.

do you really love me?

burn, let it all burn.

hesitant.

i can no longer use those words.
they felt... sacred.
no more.

i had believed in magic.

that room no longer has a door nor windows.
not that it matters, its dark inside out.
its filled with many things but feels empty.
only dust be its companion as it blankets all.
i still sit here, breathing but soulless.
living in dead moments.
it has been long since the magic died.

pulling gravity.

days when i'm in green, we always talked at night.
your voice was the most comforting to listen after a hard day.
it gave me assurance i could make it through another.
but now it is the voice that breaks me, haunts me.
no matter where or when i will eventually hear it.
sometimes i feel warmth, putting a little smile in my heart.
sometimes cold and i'd wrap myself in my own arms.
worst of times bring me to a shiver, wake me from sleep.
painful as these may seem but they are still incomparable.

no half measures.

looked at everyone just the same.
potential deceivers, carrying ill intent.

inevitable disease.

half of the world's problem is people lying to each other.
selfish kinds who only think for themselves.

slowly killing from the inside.

silence like a cancer grows.

frozen in time.

still felt the warmth.
but not enough to tide the cold.

do you believe in the Devil?

it walks among us.

met.

it happened again.
the heart got restless.
breathing went out of control.
stupid, real stupid.

feed.

hello darkness, my old friend.
i've come to talk with you again.

dream forever.

dreamt again.
you were wearing our ring.
holding my hands.
smiling just like before.
i wish not to wake up.

in my universe.

i had truly believed in the magic.
& for that, i paid the heaviest price and still am.
the world does not end with a bang.
it ends in a whisper.
one that echoes through forever.

all is hell.

the most evil of demons reside in those who wear innocent masks.

saviour or savage?

i wore my heart on my sleeve. you played with it. toyed with my feelings. and flee the crime scene.

bleed, but don't die.

may all who partake in this one day receive their absolute share of my iron maiden.

complex beings.

the reality of life is that it is a depressing process that you have no control of.

planned tragedy.

look me in the eye.
& tell me its the truth.

patiently waiting.

its way past mid year.
and my life is still stuck in 2015.
sigh.

your smile :(

dreamt of you again.
sigh.

undying.

no matter how many deaths i die, i will never forget.

innocent love.

plugged in external hard drive to find old photos of classmates.
ended up looking at our photos.
died inside.
:(

inextinguishable.

the fire still burns.
every second, every minute, every hour, every day, every week,
since that day.
and it will continue burning through eternity.

which?

so, tell me where shall i go?
to the left, where nothing's right?
or to the right, where nothing's left?

not a moment goes by.

painful.
i kept waking up to the same thing.