always missing you.

why did you take me on the most unforgettable journey...
then leave me behind in the most painful memory...?

never fading.

after all this time?

always.

stars & memories.

the empty night sky.
only nothingness to the eyes.
but plenty to the heart.

cold grounds.

dear booey...

what am i feeling right now? :(

white lie.

its still a lie.

bide time.

justice does not always shine under the light.
often times it creeps from the shadows.

necessary judgement.

you have to see everyone differently.
you have to imagine the devils that reside within.

tipping the balance.

there is darkness in my heart.
and it begs to stay.

eternal happiness.

the only way humans can be truly happy is having a perfect little world to themselves.
one for each. sharing won't do.

end times.

i remember how you were always afraid of the end of the world.
especially one where it ends with a zombie apocalypse.
once you asked what if you got bitten.
i told you i would stay with you.
i will.

till i die?

"Because you've been given a highly attuned sense of empathy. Fucking blessing and burden at the same time".

Fuckthisshit.

it was everything.

To love is nothing.
To be loved is something.
But to love and to be loved by the one you love,
That is everything.

:(

time is poison.

there is only pain left.

pain and more pain.

how do i heal?

time will tell.

but in reality,

time is poison.

as moments pass,

death creeps in.

slowly but surely,

deep into the heart.

failing concept of life.

this is the wrong way.

it will always be as long emotions are involved.

as long humans live.

whats between believe and hope?

people are nice until they are not.
words are enough to destroy worlds.

~

:'(

unwanted nights.

that lonely feeling after an evening movie ended.
just walking out and wandering under the night sky.
thinking about the times when we were together.
and how could all of it just disappear.
why does it have to be like this?
i still don't understand.

washed off.

how can people say there is hope with so much ease.
thats an easy way out.
its a picture you paint on a canvas with no certainty it will stay.

a night to remember.

cold days reminds me of us in Taiwan's mountain.

it was cold and dark.

but we huddled together and keep each other warm.

then we went to see the stars.

it was a beautiful night.

your hands in mine.

remember how we awkwardly tried to hold hands?
i didn't know how to hold them.
you too.

but we eventually did for many years to come.

we held together on walks.
pulled each other up from falls.
gripped tight watching scary scenes.
orbit one another on ice skating rinks.
and the list goes on.

oh booey, i miss you too much.
:'(