dumbest man in the universe.

i probably leave this world still believing your words.
still believing you even after all the damage you have done.
i could be the most dumbest man in the universe.
perhaps i truly am.

regardless.

it hurts so much,
but i still do.

still missing you.

hear your songs on the radio and it never fails to crush this heart...

deeper into nothingness.

this is it.
this is the punishment i deserve.
this is what it feels like to be the one left stranded.
this is the path i seek.

a year older, booey.

Happy Birthday, Boo.

always.

seek in darkness.
left upon light.

dementors in the heart.

i see people in their darkest way possible.

that, will keep me on the edge.

been some time.

looked around and picked things up.
in such a place, she expected i'm getting those for you.
but close to the end, i placed everything back.
and she was in tears, wondering why.
i didn't feel the need to explain.
didn't even face her.
i just left.

rainy stars.

you're like stars on a rainy night.
i cannot see you, but i know you're there.

eyes shut wide open.

whispers in the dark.

frustration.

i still feel you in my heart...

torn into a million pieces.

its just 8 more days to your birthday,
but you have not fulfill what you said that day.

you told me you would not forget,
how long has it been since we last met.

perhaps that too was another lie you created,
the foolish me bought it and eventually waited.

my muse.

how much deception can you take?
how many lies will you create?

looking for you.

wherever i go, you're the ghost in the room.

dark corners.

a new world is needed where sufferers get their pain lifted,
and for the antagonists to bear that weight.

those who think a peaceful world is possible are people living in the comfort of their space,
turning a blind eye on all the dark corners of life.

super massive.

how long before you tell the truth?

like a black hole.

they say that i have changed.
what?

true that i do, but it does not cause hurt to others.
but you?

you changed.
and you ravaged my universe in the process.

just someone.

feeling useless again.
being too kind to people.
being too good to people.
at the end of the day i'm just someone.
how do you start to not care?

all is wrong.

the world needs a reset.
too many of those who are ignorant, selfish, greedy.
including those who caused pain and harm.
all these to fuel their desires.

running thoughts.

not a single moment of time my mind was not occupied.

numb breaking points.

every day and every night, my heartbeat desires to hear yours.
every moment in time, my mind explodes into millions of pieces.
this is how much you have made an impact in my life.
you were my universe and still are.
i no longer know how to carry on.

...

i still cry. wtf.

emotional baggage.

where is yours?