rewind, play, check, rewind.

I would rather take loud and open hits,
then ones which are discreet.

Because now my mind keep wondering when the poison had already started flowing in.
Now, the last few times we've met becomes more like a stage play.

You already knew the script, while I'm the fool enjoying the scene.

sleepy as hell.

might start talking to myself again.

change.

From a girl who always want to spend time with me, to one who always have other events to attend to. Don't even know whether to be angry or sad. You broke my heart, and now killing my soul. I really wonder what is happening to you now.

endless fall.

Heartstrings bursting.
This is madness.

swallowing me hole.

Time will heal.
But right now every minute, every second, I am thinking about you.
Thinking about how we got together.
How we shared our joy.
Laughter.
Sadness.
Ups.
Downs.

Your sweet smile.
Beautiful eyes.
Cheeky laughter.
Warm hugs.

Is this how people feel such loss?

Its madness.

What makes us human,
makes me feel like I don't want to be one.

such pain.

The world is cruel.

the return.

I am back.
Back here.
Depressed.
Alone.
Helpless.
How long am i going to stay here?
I am back to where I was.
Perhaps much worse.
Much, much worse.

lower cases & capitals.

words written with emotions are like treasures to me.
reading back past years entires kinda reflect me how i was last time.
pretty much naive, very much like a kid who likes to create mess and get entangled in it.
to me all these posts weigh alot. somewhat priceless.
i love this place. so much memories, bitter or sweet.
so i`d leave this place untouched.
then perhaps one day if i ever return here, it`ll bring me back to my origins.

i dont know if i have readers but well i went the other way.
this blog will be stagnant, for some time.
for some very long time.

catch me here. :)
sorry the link is hard to see.
[ www.rainystars.co.nr]

cheers! :)
goodbye.

inBlack&Red`s time, due.

alright. maybe going ghost for awhile,
or maybe forever.
maybe just using my other blog,
or maybe would come back here.
maybe... i should just think about it.

when everything`s unclear.

may the Earth stood still.
perhaps for just one moment.
so i could savour this hidden smile.