LOVELY!

well. the O levels is coming.

no im not taking Os.

its my crush.

my ex-crush.

the one who receive a rose on valentine's day '06 from me.

hmmm.

hmmm.

haha.

now i cannot stop thinking about her again.

cos i just chat wif her online.

its been more than half a year since we last chat i tink.

and i started it off.

talked about school.

then wish her good luck for the Os.

yeaa.

gosh.

its so sweeeeeeeeeeet.

even thru msn.

realliee...

God, i wish i will meet a girl like her in the future.

one in a million.

no joke.

~sigh~

sad i cant get you.

anyway you're way too good for me.

=(

so i just wish that you'll be happy & you'll find your other heart.

=)

yeaa.

guess thats all.

haven seen you for nearly 8 months now i tink.

i miss you lots!

love you`

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inBlack&Red

&LotsofLove,

` samarra .

CORRECTION!

CORRECTION TO LAST POST!
THE KILLERS OF NURIN JAZLIN IS ACTUALLY..
4 BASTARDS
&
A BITCH.
YEAA.
HELL TO THEM FOR THEIR UNFORGIVING ACTS!

NURIN'S KILLERS CAUGHT!

i loooooooovvvvveee it man.

i loooooooovvvvveee it!

those people responsible for NURIN'S DEATH have been CAUGHT!

its 3 bastards & a bitch.

SUFFER NOW, FCUKERS!

malaysia with help from the FBI crackdown thru evidences & found them!

YESSA!

now all i can hope is HELL for THEM!

JUSTICE WILL BE UPHOLD!

HALO 3 LAUCH PICS!

HALO 3 LAUNCH IN S'PORE!!!

okae trace this entry 3 days back.
tuesday 25th september 2007.
HALO 3 LAUNCH!
YEEAAHHH!
I'M A BELIEVER.
FINISH THE FIGHT!
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for those who dunno what HALO is, its okae.
just continue to read. haha.
so HALO 3 was launched in s'pore at Suntec Atrium at 12noon.
same goes for US cos it was launched at the same time.
its just that at US its midnight.
yea.
so me & ridhwan went there to FINISH THE FIGHT!
haha. others are schooling. =(
if more ppl, it will be damn way better.
so when we got there, we were abit late.
HALO 3 had been launched.
we saw Master Chief & Sergeant Major Johnson.
Master Chief looks really damn cool.
(pics will be updated after this entry.)
and that sergeant looks real fake.
yeaa. cos he's supposed to be darker & taller.
other than that, there's the UNSC personnel & BELIEVERS!
yeaahh! thats important.
BELIEVE! BELIEVE! BELIEVE!
me & ridhwan tested out the new halo 3 game.
it was EXTREMELY good.
must! MUST PLAY!
haha.
new weapons, new vehicles, new environment.
real nice furthermore with the XBOX 360.
GRAPHICS KICK ASS!
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okae. so ridhwan join the queue to buy the game.
i still played on with the game.
haha.
hooked.
when im gaming, i lose all senses to the real world.
dont even bother to discuss with me important stuffs or ask me questions.
my response will be like "ah?" "yes" "no" "what" "sorry".
hahaha. serious. no joke.
so when ridhwan finally got the game, we went to find a place to sit.
my back hurts so much.
of cos la. standing up to play game.
if only they provide chairs................
haha.
then people wont want to give up their seats for someone else who wanna try the game!
LOL. logical.
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ridhwan got a goodie bag when he bought the game.
there's a voucher for Tagger Bags, Halo 3 shirt & more.
its cool.
so we rot outside a nike shop.
haha. yea.
there are 5 drawings of lucky draw.
and the prizes are the LEGENDARY EDITION of the HALO 3 GAME.
tell me who dont want.
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sad ridhwan didnt get.
but he's still excited about his new game anyway.
yaa.
and we took some pics with Master Chief & Sergeant Johnson.
and played summore games.
and watched the online tournaments.
and thats it!
haha. went home after the final drawing for the last LEGENDARY EDITION.
guesss thats all ppl!
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inBlack&Red,
` samarra .

World-first conscious brain surgery.

this is damn cool.
conscious while the doctors & nurses 'playing' with ur brain.
LOL.

clipped from news.yahoo.com Australian has 'world-first' conscious brain surgery SYDNEY (AFP) - An Australian man was conscious and spoke to his medical team during life-saving brain surgery in what doctors are claiming as a world-first procedure with cutting-edge technology. John James said it was a strange experience to hear the doctors and nurses talking to each other as he lay on the operating table with a 1.5-centimetre hole in his head. he was confident throughout surgery to remove an aneurysm from his brain, which threatened to burst and kill him. "The nurses looking after me, they were talking to me," the retired bus driver told "I could only see bits because I couldn't move my head at all." Doctors asked James to read the words and numbers on flashcards shown to him during the surgery so they knew they were not affecting his vision. Surgery was required but because the aneurysm was behind his right eye the operation could have blinded him, which is why the doctors wanted him awake during the procedure.

about yesterday 'outing'.

so this entry is abt yest.
me & kenneth went to Bugis Street.
he wanna search for this wrist band.
there are MANY wrsitbands there but seems that NONE pleases his eyes.
so after goin a couple o rounds around, squeezing thru the endless crowds that's always pushing in, we manage to exit.
so then we thought of goin to Sim Lim.
cos kenneth wanted to buy the game 'Sims 2 Deluxe'.
yeaa.
so we walk & walk.
and kenneth has been gulping his 2nd drink of the day.
im still parched! still gotta wait for 5 hours then can break fast!
but main thing is, im damn tired.
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so manage to get to Sim Lim.
browsed thru a few shops.
the only shops that interests me is the game shop!
mann.. if only i have the $$$.
so many gamess..... .... .... ..... .....
then got to the game shop where ken wanted to buy his game.
the 'Sims 2 Deluxe' is $61.90.
then he spotted a bundle pack.
consists of the 'Sims 2 Deluxe' and 2 other Sims games.
and it costs $99.
can see the tempt?
its 3 games with ken's game for 99.
while ken's game only is 61.90.
so might as well buy the bundle pack rite.
so ken went into deep thoughts.
and came out with no idea as to buy or not.
then i say he still got WoW to play at home.
this Sims game can wait wad.
so he guess im right.
cool! now i can be an advisor. haha!
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now the best part of the day.
to buy the Crumpler pouch at Paragon!
mann.. thats the main item i wanna buy. :))
so we went out and tried to figure out our way to an MRT sttn.
i dunno if theres any nearby.
so we kept on walking. i tink its like half an hour of going in circles, into the unknown.
somehow no MRT sttn anywhere.
cool.
take cab.
hahaa.
dumbers.
and so the cab tracked back to about half of our 'lost path' before driving on a new one to orchard.
sian, totally.
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Paragon!
yesssa.
my 3rd time here only.
haha.
we got to the Crumpler store.
whoaa. they got this new bag.
its damn cool.
of cos, the price is ALWAYS cool.
becos the material is VERY cool.
and managed to find the pouch.
ken asked the guy if there's black color but theres none.
ahh. dammit.
theres only near-black colour. its kinda dark brown.
as in reallie dark.
so ken got one. i wanted the same colour but dun haf..
waa damn sad.
lucky ken give me his dark brown pouch while he take the lighter brown one.
ahh ken. u're so gd man. i make sure i remember u for the rest of my life.
HAHAHA.
mann i love the shop.
im sure one day i gonna go back there again for sumthng else.
yesssaa.
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okae so after that we plan to get back to Bugis Junction.
cos i wanna get this voodoo doll.
the small2 type. keychain.
its damn cool ah.
so we managed to fins the shop but omg, one small one is 14 bucks.
i was like .... ... .. .... ...
i haf enuf money to buy ah but no thanks ah.
i tink i'll just go to TM or CS to buy.
they're much cheaper but of the same anyway.
siann.
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so.. after that went to library.
cos 3 days ago i recveive this post mail from NLB that i got fines that incurred in 2002!
LOL.
60 cents only.
but for as long as i can remember, i dun tink i have overdue fines.
so i just check my card aniway.
"YOU HAVE NO FINES" or watsoever.
bull.shit.
waste my time.
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afta tt, its like 1700 i tink.
2 more hour to break fast.
so i just thought of breaking fast at some place before heading off.
ken agreed to stay by til that time.
so we went to artfriend, popular.. just to take space and browse stuffs.
then we chilled at outside the Bras Basah Complex popular.
they got this wide area of nothing except some plants and chairs.
it was a nice place ah.
nice breeze. nice view.
so we sat there and rot laa while waiting for my break fast time.
it was damn sian ah.
my head feel damn light.
haha.
as if my brain is empty.
yeahh.
or mayb no brain. HAHA.
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so break fast time arrives, we drop by MacD.
and afta tt, HOME!
yeahh.. its a looooooong day man.
but its great ah.
so i guess thats all.
til next entry.
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inBlack&Red,
` samarra .

i. miss. her.

omg.

i miss her.

that girl.

i miss that girl.

nobody knows who.

hahaha.

i damn sad.

you know why?

cos i miss her.

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love doesnt need a reason :)

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inBlack&Red,

` samarra .

i need help with this blog!

HELP! I NEED HELP WITH THIS BLOG!!!

i dunno how to do that damn archiving thinggy.

HEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!

Malaysia's Most Horrifying Crime!

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CURSE THE MURDERER!!!
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bloody hell heartless.
kill a girl who is so fragile.
May God punish the murderer with a punishment equal to the pain the girl felt.
May Justice be uphold.
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peace,
` samarra .

clipped from asia.news.yahoo.com Malaysia sickened by "girl in sports bag" case KUALA LUMPUR (Reuters) - Malaysians have reacted with outrage and revulsion to the country's most horrifying crime in years -- the murder of an 8-year-old girl who had been tortured, sexually abused and then dumped in a sports bag. Malaysian dailies and Internet blogs have been filled with anger and disbelief after the girl's naked body was stuffed in the bag and left outside a shophouse near the capital on Monday, fuelling talk that she was the victim of a serial sex offender. At first, no one came forward to claim the dead girl's body, police identified the victim from DNA tests as a missing girl, Nurin Jazlin Jazimin reported missing on Aug. 20 after she went alone to a night market in Kuala Lumpur last seen being dragged into a white van by a man. Nurin's father refused to accept the DNA result on Thursday He and his wife had earlier told dead girl did not look like their daughter

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today is the 8th day of fasting.

kinda bored at home.

i miss school.

yeahh.

bcos at school, u've got friends.

talk2 and u can forget about the screw goin loose in your stomach, seriously.

damn i miss my friends.

its been nearly a week now into school break.

and there'll be another week.

siann...

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the days are looonnggggg & dryy.

eh but just now in the afternoon, the wind was damn strong.

very nice.

i opened my room's window annnnnddd... WHOOOSSSHHHHHH!

nice, cooling wind.

thought sometimes food & laundry smell does swept by. haha.

reminds me of the days spent at the beaches where i'll usually go fishing.

damn. i miss fishing too.

nevermind. afta fasting month, & maybe skip a couple o weeks of hari raya, i gonna hit the beach.

to FISH!

mann.. THE FISHES MISS ME!!! LOL.

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but lets not go that far yet la eh.

im now at home.

listening to music. "mercenary - redefine me."

just finished terawih.

thinking of what to do.

im so so so... dunno la.

just wish school come back fast.

haha.

anyway i goin out wif my friend this weekend.

goin shopping. that sounds so 'girlish or ladylike'.

haha. i dont care. all i know i gonna go on a shopping spree!

buying a Crumpler side bag.

and some other few stuffs which i still dunno yet.

random laa.

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hmm. thats it la for now.

i wanna go search for games.

hahaha. passing the nite....

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MERCENARY - REDEFINE ME lyrics

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Feel this illusive dream that's growing

Flowing into view

Take this immense participationIs it really you?

Fall back, my secret window

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Feel free to let me lose

My mind, my mind

Twisting I feel abandoned

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Look back to set me free

To purify, to purify

It makes me want to scream, to fall out of this dream,

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It makes me want to find the things I thought you wanted

It makes you want to try to leave it all behind

The time that still remains I'll use to redefine me

Find me...

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Now all that's left with me this feeling

Am I all alone?

Stretching I cannot see you clearly

Am I losing you?

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To speak I'll try to save you

Feel free to let me find

My innerline, my innerline

Have you simply lost the answer

Will you take the hand I give?

To redefine, to redefine

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This illusive cry

I AM

Your secret window

I AM

All that's left with you

I AM

Redefinition

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I am losing you

Fading in, you're fading out

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I'll redefine my dreams in the hours that remain

I'll try to understand, to redefine myself.

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inBlack&Red,

` samarra .

JTHM

bored. just digging out about JTHM. a comic thinggy. kinda cool. this one thats standing out is one of the characters. his name is SQUEE. haha. im just being random at posting this. so... if u feeling random too, just look around.

clipped from www.sccs.swarthmore.edu

monday bluess..

hihi.

well.. i dunno wad to talk about.

cos if you can see, its alredy 3 consecutive days i posted entries to my blog.

and its rare.

VERY rare indeed for me to find time to go blog.

haha.

okae, nvm.

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so today actually i woke up as usual.

and no.

no skool today but i woke up early so can do work in school.

i just cant concentrate at home.

so i woke up, bathe and dressed up.

then since its still early, 0800, i switch on my comp and play music watch videos.

and what a surprise.

it rained.

-.-

it was heavy.

it was a draggin rain.

i usually walked to school cos its near.

so i waited for the rain to subside abit.

waited...NO.

waited...NO.

waited...NO.

the rain just wont stop.

just wont subside.

im getting tired of it.

heck care.

put on my cap and walked out.

took a bus.

haiizz.. monday morning rain.

to me its a bad start for the day.

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so in school then.

i was the ONLY 1st year there.

Ivy came in late.

the rest of my friends, i hear no news from them.

anyway its monday so DES school got no classes for that day.

later. much much later Ivy came.

settled down. talk2 abit.

and not much much later, she wanted to go lunch.

okae. lunch. alright.

haha.

we walked down to the designer's pad and what a surprise!

not a soul there.

okae in other words, stalls all closed.

siann..

so we headed to mensa, a canteen quite nearby and what a surprise!

too many souls eating there.

i was like whhattttheheelllll.

-.-

"Ivy, lets eat outside then."

agreed.

waa its totally shit man gotta walk ouuuuuutt ooffffff sschhhhooooolll.

haiz. crap.

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so we had lunch at a coffeeshop.

came back.

Shawn came.

he's from the other class.

rarely gotta talk to him.

so we talk2.

and our work is like on the table, waiting for nothing.

haha.

then Kenneth came.

and what else do we do?

talk2 again.

hahaha.

in my class i reckon only me & Kenneth listen to metal songs.

i found out Shawn listens to metal too.

Cradle of Filth..Dragonforce..Metallica.. and more laa.

i browsed thru his hp music library actually.

haha.

caught a glimpse of a few only cos i dont bother to scroll & find anymore.

cos we were all so indulged in conversation.

then Kenneth said, "wanna DOTA?".

hahaha.

no need to say, i confirm agree one.

Ivy wanted to play. thought twice. then "its okae, i'll just stay here."

Shawn didnt want also.

so its just up to me & Kenneth.

lol.

we hit the CAD lab.

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START!

Kenneth chosed TINKER.

i chosed my all-time fave PUGNA.

okae heres the thing.

i found out over the weekends that dagon is powerful in the hands of Intel Heroes such as Pugna.

i about to try it today okae.

so i bought a few stuffs that is required of dagon & chiong!

i farm, Ken farm.

then he attacked me.

hahaha.

here comes the funny & stupid part.

i attacked him.

he got his hit points reduced. not that much.

and he complained. lol.

he said i got lotsa stuffs in my inventory.

so whaattt! so whhaatt Kenneth!!!

u can get items too!

u went farm just now. confirm got lotssa gold wad.

(FYI, he's quite a gd player. more experienced than me. im just a month into DOTA.)

tensed, bored, i dunno what has gotten into him, he left the game.

-.-

so i was like playin alone. like a stupid guy.

nvm. i bought dagon & wasted them on his crits.

just wanna test out.

whoa tell u its damn cool.

DAGON ROCKS!!

lol.

so afta that, just end the game.

and went back to the studio do my work.

siann..

k just lets fast forward the day.

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and so Bryan, Ivy, Kenneth & I in the school library.

doin our work.

haha. Bryan got stressed & played DOTA on his laptop.

Kenneth, on the new World of Warcraft on his laptop.

Ivy hardworking. chiong on the drill assignment.

I was quite ahead of them. did my drill alredy. just need detailing.

so i watched Ken play.

then watched Bryan.

haha.

im so pathetic.

siann.. hope i can buy laptop next year.

then later Ivy left ferst.

was at 1800.

later. much much later, then 3 of us left.

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had dinner in KFC.

LOL.

yeaa.. guess thats all for today.

so now im gonna do nuthin afta this entry.

just rot infront of my comp.

i NEED DOTA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wahahaha.

despo NO.

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okae la.

til next entry.

bye.

.

\m/

inBlack&Red,

` samarra .

the past...

DON't LOOK BACK!

the past.

should we ever reminisce the past.

do they bring any good?

those filled with euphorias will.

but, what about those filled with dark histories?

it just feels like im now walking past a tunnel.

a tunnel so dark.

only lit by candles by the sides.

on either sides of the walls, are my memories.

either by writings, objects or photos.

as i walk past them, i remember exactly what happened on those days.

either a birthday party? a prom nite? a mishap? an accident? a valentine's day? or a disaster?

i picked up something from memories of 2006.

somewhere in the early months.

at first i thought it was a stick.

as i rubbed my fingers along it, something pricked my finger.

i brought it near a candle light.

it was a rose.

it's thorns had my finger bleeding.

the rose is still as beautiful as ever.

like preserved for the next thousand years.

it's scent is still strong.

just like a boy's love for a girl.

on that day, 14 february '06.

valentine's day.

that day the boy knew.

its gonna be the last time he ever gonna give the girl a gift personally.

bcos that year he will graduate.

and move on with life.

leaving his crush, behind.

he was quite sad that day.

in the early tuesday morning.

accompanied by is close friends.

who knew he might act out something stupid when that beautiful girl comes round the corridor.

the boy was now filled with nervousness & happiness at the same time.

his feelings mixed inside him.

squirming around his body, making him shook a little.

time for assembly is about to start.

and still no sign of the girl.

"patience."

thats what he told to himself.

and much later, he saw the girl.

she was coming round the corner of the corridor.

he can see her clearly.

he intercepted her right outside the back door of the school's gym.

she was kinda shocked when the boy called out her name.

their eyes met for a while.

the boy was feeling great.

he felt quite happy.

especially when looking into the girl's eye.

those eyes are not of the usual type.

its the most beautiful he had seen. (and still does).

then the boy wish her a happy valentine's day.

and handed over a rose & a bag of gift.

the girl smiled & said something.

something soft.

it was so unclear.

becos the boy is not listening to what she is saying.

he was hypnotized by those mesmerizing eyes.

long it may have been but no.

all that happened in less than minute.

it was fast.

yet the feeling seems to last til now.

fresh in the boy's mind.

they then part off.

the boy knew he never stood a chance in getting her.

but he just couldn't hide his feelings.

now, about more than a year on.

the boy still loves her.

but this time.

this time he can hide his feelings.

no more of showing it.

as being friends is all she can offer to the boy.

however, their terms as friends is what is call as 'fair-weathered' friends.

sad.

the boy had gotten used to feel it.

no longer feel those urge of pain to tell her that he loves her.

he had told her countless times.

she should know.

love you girl :)

wish you happiness in your life.

God bless.

.

inBlack&Red,

the boy.

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YO YO!!
ehmm.
in review to last post, about love.
argh hell no.
im withdrawing myself from falling into it.
cos she already met her match.
haha.
suckersss.
nvm.
im not sad.
im happy.
happy for her laa.
forcing get u to nowhere.

okae. so im still schooling.
all the other schools: biz, engine,IT & AS are having their hols.
cos they like finish their exams a couple o weeks ago.
as for my school, DESIGN, no exams. & hardly, no holidays too.
-.-
screww man.. screw... screw the DESIGN SYSTEMMM!!!
lol.

anyway while doin my work, i find time for DOTA!
LOL.
im new so i was like so ....................
hahaha.
so i usually stayed late in school with my friends.
wen we had had enuf of doin work, we whack the comp labs!
wooohoooo!
haha.
suckerss..

what else to say ah...
ohh yah.
2 weeks ago teachers' day.
so me & my friends met up & went back to our former school.
it was destruction.
know why?
cos our school undergoing PRIME.
dunno la some upgrading works.
and the school hall is DOWN!
NO MORE.
sad mann..
it holds lotsa memories.
from the greatest such as graduation day..O level results..O level exams...to the sucky ones like assembly times!
haha.
treasured those sucky times anyway.
cos i'll get to see my crush. :)
those were the sweet times man..
haizz.. justt the feeling of being in love is great.
^^,

okay aniwae.
so after that teachers day,
went to sentosa to celebrate Najib's birthday.
he turned 18 that day.
yeahh..
so it was all fun though the rain celebrated together with us at the PALAWAN BEACH.
haha.
after that we separated for home.

nothing much.
im just here.
waiting to just feel love...someday.



inBlack&Red,
` samarra .