DON't LOOK BACK!
the past.
should we ever reminisce the past.
do they bring any good?
those filled with euphorias will.
but, what about those filled with dark histories?
it just feels like im now walking past a tunnel.
a tunnel so dark.
only lit by candles by the sides.
on either sides of the walls, are my memories.
either by writings, objects or photos.
as i walk past them, i remember exactly what happened on those days.
either a birthday party? a prom nite? a mishap? an accident? a valentine's day? or a disaster?
i picked up something from memories of 2006.
somewhere in the early months.
at first i thought it was a stick.
as i rubbed my fingers along it, something pricked my finger.
i brought it near a candle light.
it was a rose.
it's thorns had my finger bleeding.
the rose is still as beautiful as ever.
like preserved for the next thousand years.
it's scent is still strong.
just like a boy's love for a girl.
on that day, 14 february '06.
valentine's day.
that day the boy knew.
its gonna be the last time he ever gonna give the girl a gift personally.
bcos that year he will graduate.
and move on with life.
leaving his crush, behind.
he was quite sad that day.
in the early tuesday morning.
accompanied by is close friends.
who knew he might act out something stupid when that beautiful girl comes round the corridor.
the boy was now filled with nervousness & happiness at the same time.
his feelings mixed inside him.
squirming around his body, making him shook a little.
time for assembly is about to start.
and still no sign of the girl.
"patience."
thats what he told to himself.
and much later, he saw the girl.
she was coming round the corner of the corridor.
he can see her clearly.
he intercepted her right outside the back door of the school's gym.
she was kinda shocked when the boy called out her name.
their eyes met for a while.
the boy was feeling great.
he felt quite happy.
especially when looking into the girl's eye.
those eyes are not of the usual type.
its the most beautiful he had seen. (and still does).
then the boy wish her a happy valentine's day.
and handed over a rose & a bag of gift.
the girl smiled & said something.
something soft.
it was so unclear.
becos the boy is not listening to what she is saying.
he was hypnotized by those mesmerizing eyes.
long it may have been but no.
all that happened in less than minute.
it was fast.
yet the feeling seems to last til now.
fresh in the boy's mind.
they then part off.
the boy knew he never stood a chance in getting her.
but he just couldn't hide his feelings.
now, about more than a year on.
the boy still loves her.
but this time.
this time he can hide his feelings.
no more of showing it.
as being friends is all she can offer to the boy.
however, their terms as friends is what is call as 'fair-weathered' friends.
sad.
the boy had gotten used to feel it.
no longer feel those urge of pain to tell her that he loves her.
he had told her countless times.
she should know.
love you girl :)
wish you happiness in your life.
God bless.
.
inBlack&Red,
the boy.
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