SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

woooooohhhoooooooooo!

fasting month is OVER!

yeaahh.

now its time to celebrate our perseverance during Ramadan.

the hunger, the thirst, the fatigue, the commitment.

yeahh.

so my family & i celebrated the usualy way.

oh ya. we rented a car.

every year standard laa must rent.

so today went to cover most of my mum's side.

the elders laa.

tmrw then my dad's.

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wow i cant get enuf of the food man.

its once a year you get those wonderful, scrumptious, delightful food!

drinks no need to say ah.

its always the F&N drinks.

at certain house i just drank plain water.

cos 7 house you dont expect to drink 7 glasses of those carbonated drinks rite.

stomach gonna blow.

seriously.

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so then met with my cousins, near & far.

the children, the uncles, the aunties, the babies, the grandmother.

yeaa.

as always fun ah.

plus the bonus: GREEN PACKETS!

LOL.

save ahh.. ^^,

BUT!

those are not the important thing in this festive season.

the important thing is to seek forgiveness frm ppl & forgive ppl.

its to forget all abt the mistakes of the past.

and look ahead, striving for a better future along with good & healthy relationships.

yeaahh.

:)

tink thats all about HARI RAYA.

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anyway i feel freaking sian about my schoolwork.

i tink i slacked.

God knows.

anyway these weekends suppose to be the time for me to chiong my school assignments.

but then its HARI RAYA!

so i was like.. wth ah.

baskett ah.

wad a nice combo.

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but dont worry man.

monday is going to suffer me.

i gonna chiong hardcore on monday!

HECKCARE!

haha.

its time to reveal my otherside..

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inBlack&Red,

` samarra .

Monday Blues

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yo wasseeepppppp.

haha.

lol. my new hair.

not much of a hair though.

quite a number of ppl look at me in the way

like "what the ....".

hahaha.

cos in poly u dont expect much ppl wanna cut hair this short.

hmm so.

yaa.

there was a Director Comm Session this morning at 0900.

my class (most of them).

gathered & met up at the school bustop.

so it was 0920+ when the last person expected turned up.

we were late yeah.

either way, we tried to budge in but to no avail.

we gotta wait for the next session at 1100.

all went for lunch.

i just sat there & stoned.

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and the guys all went up to dota.

haha.

fast one.

we dont want to miss the 1100 session.

thought it might pissed Moses off.

(Moses is the Des Sch Diretor anyway).

at 1045 we abandoned the CAD Lab.

paused Dota.

locked the damn comps.

and went to the auditorium where the session was.

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the girls were just ahead of us.

we managed to gathered up in the entrance of the audi.

talk2 crap.

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about an hour & a half later the session finished.

we were all kinda droopy.

it was raining.

cool man.

shiiooook.

some left some stayed to do rendering.

the guys who went for dota earlier resumed their game.

but of cos.

the game had end becos the game only paused for like 2mins.

LOL.

so everythin gone.

we started a new game.

i tink we played like around a couple more games.

then sam & me joined siong at the studio.

he is rendering.

i panicked.

LOL.

cos my hmwrk is nowhere near done.

hmm.

so thats about it before we left.

haha.

bye!

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inBlack&Red,

` samarra .

A Wasted Weekend

so today is the last weekend in the fasting month.

5 more days and its over.

then HARI RAYA!!!

YEEAAAHHHHH!

well to think of it, im happy.

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but to think again, i dont think so.

well im no satisfied with my progress in the new term.

i mean we're learning about marker rendering & materials.

its not that its boring.

okae la to be honest the materials module is boring.

but well, its essential for any product designer.

the marker rendering is fun but well....its damn ex.

one marker is like 5 bucks.

and i have to have abt 7 of those.

so money do burn in this current module.

burn burn burn.

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okae thats about my complaint.

well the weekends....

hmm.

i didnt make out anythin good out of this current weekend.

i didnt do any school work.

i tried but just cant.

cos the festive mood is there.

haha.

well actually i only help wash my window & change my own curtains.

lol.

anythin than that is sleep.

i've been sleeping for quite alot of time in the day

everytime i wake up i thought its morning.

freaking funny.

wait my mum wake me up, i open my eyes, glance hard at the watch,

and look outside the window.

then my mum will say' "you think it's morning?".

hahaha. funny funny.

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so the weekends are kinda long & dry.

but not for just now.

it rained in the afternoon.

was kinda cooling.

wind was strong.

lovely.

and i just watched the news just now.

theres a water spout again.

same place East Coast.

haha. cool eh.

they've been appearing for quite lotsa times this year.

last time those water spouts appear is in last June.

nicee.

hmm.

so now im outta words.

ohh ya!

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I CUT MY HAIR DAMN SHORT!

LOL.

first time damn short.

GI no.4.

my head now is feeling damn light.

hahaha.

i love the feeling wen I brush my hands thru my hair & feel my short hair.

HAHA!

macam grass.

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well i guess thats about it.

takecare peeps.

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inBlack&Red,

` samarra .

ROT AT HOME

here i am.

declaring myself bored.

BORED!

great man.

im still feeling damn freaking sad to the damn core of my heart.

yestd discovery was the worst.

not the worst, i mean the saddest.

i dunno how to say man.

so i better dont say.

school is alredy getting tough.

the future still uncertain.

and then this painful discovery.

fcuk man.

FCUK!

my life is now far beyond damaged.

its RAVAGED!

dont try to understand me.

NEVER TRY!

i cant control myself man yestd.

freaking bull.shit.

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i want to thank SEEBONG & TIBET for calming me down.

im greatful i have u guys around man.

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i dunno why i cared so much!

MAYBE I CARED TOO MUCH!!!

cared too much for the 2 girls whom i know dont give fcukcare about me.

why i care for them?

its not that i WANT them.

i just dont want them to fall to the wrong side in society.

life's just too great man.

TOO GREAT!

what's my next move?

only GOD knows..

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inBlack&Red,

` samarra .

i've listened to the heaviest metal songs.

MEGADETH.

i had listened to them lately.

just a couple o songs from them from the new album: 'United Abominations'.

for me the 'Washington Is Next!' is the best song.

i've yet to listen to the rest.

yeaa it was heavy.

Megadeth has so far been labelled the best heavy metal band.

i tink its kinda cool.

but im not into their songs yet.

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last time i use to listen to slow songs.

those english love songs.

cos at that time i fell in love with my crush.

so i was FEELING the love FEELING.

and then malay love songs.

and somehow english rock.

then she made me turn to metal.

'MADE ME'.

cos i was damn frustrated of not getting her.

so i listened to metal.

metal.

metal.

metal.

i didnt care abt my ears.

all i know metal songs somehow brings me calm.

those double pedalling, SCREAMING!!!

i thought i destroyed my life.

but i dun tink so.

cos metal doesnt really turn me into a freako.

i mean i still do joke, laugh.

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ask my friends.

im a joker.

i love my friends.

i pray to God to protect them from harm.

and so, I will.

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inBlack&Red,

` samarra .

A DAMAGED LIFE

i felt like a paratrooper jumping in the heart of a battlefield without any parachutes on.

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i felt like a red rose smacked right in the scorching heat of the sahara desert.

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i felt like a racing car which is leading but the engine broke down in the last lap.

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i felt like a sniper who loses his scope and sidearm when enemy charges at a distance.

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i felt like a nuclear bomb that drops into the enemy base and didnt explode.

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i felt like a ravaged country left abandoned and isolated from the world.

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i felt like a calendar that countdowns to the end of time.

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its not what i felt.

its what im feeling.

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all is lost.

and you, will NEVER understand.

thanks.

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inBlack&Red,

` samarra .