some things are still meant to be the same

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yesterday was the last day of comDI module.

was damn nice to have finished the project off.

worked with the best group EVER!

tutored by the best lecturer EVER!

seriously comDI is really fun.

will miss it. dang!

anyway im enjoying myself now to my maximum capability.

because next week on till end of march, will be kind of a hell period.

there will be the P1 (the major end-year project fro year ones) & HCD (human-centred design).

ooo greatness! good luck to us all.

yeah. right so today was the release results for O levels.

i dunno why i also like somehow excited.

theres good news.. theres bad.

overall, thats life.

yepp.

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hmm i duno what to say already.

anyway chinese new year,

my family & 2 others will be having bbq pit at east coast!

woohooo.

camping overnight there.

great! sweet! damn! shiok!

im so looking forward to it.

need to do some shopping too before that.

to buy all the necessary equipments & fishing gears.

yay money fly... nono.

actually money burn. sounds better.

cos its really fast.

haha crap. im high again.

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"Okay i dont say but i still want to say. I really thought its funny to have that feeling, alright.

But! I really thought its something sensible. However it was taken account into that the line had been drawn & to cross it, I will have to risk everything I ever built: reputation, respect, truth, vows, and most excruciatingly painful, friendship. All will just have to give way for something totally uncertain & unpredictable, but is bound to brighten up & warmth this damp, cold life of mine.

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I have watched. I have learnt. The cruelty of this immortal feeling faced by those who have survived the haunting sense, unbearable to dismiss it without standing up & challenging the truth. For I, I will not easily succumb to this emotional force that warms the heart with such tender & comforting feel, only to infect it with a never-ending tragedy. Somehow, I will come to understand, that some things are forever changing, while others, are meant to be the same til' end."

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inBlack&Red

` samarra .

ONCE again,

with FEELING...

warmth of a saturday morning

damn its so shiokk to wake up late today.
haha.
been waking up early and sleeping late past week.
schoolwork have been quite a bulk but its kinda fun with friends.

yesterday, my project group (me, siyi, wei zhen & keli) went out early to the market opp our school.
actually got 2 more groupmates (xing er & siong).
but xing er got her CDS in the morn & Siong woke up late.
so only we 4 went marketing. haha.
we were working on the project that requires you to design something for the >60 people.
we decided to do on the trolley the aunties usually brings to the market.
actually its not the real deal of making a prototype.
just a normal project.
and so we decided to interview those using those trolleys.
it was a shock to see different variety.
super & wet market we ventured in, in the early morn of friday.
hunting for those using the trolleys and asking them questions about the trolley they are using.
the problems, the good.

it was a tiring thing but its sure fun.
talking to strangers, communicating in the market.
but of cos not all wanted to be questioned.
some shy, some ran off, and one particularly had hearing problems.
haha. damn fun.

when we had had enough information to back our project work, we went to school.
once we reach school, we were really freaking tired.
sleepy, fatigue.
still we continue on the project work for that day our tutor wants to see our prgress since the past 2 days.
the whole group there, pushing on to do the work.

later in the afternoon i left for Friday prayers after finish with arranging the research-ed pictures in Illustrator.

i came back near 1430 hrs.
ohh God i was seriously tired.
i nearly slept in the way back to school.
i haven had my lunch.
waa sian.
so got back, they briefed me what has happened while i was gone.
we finished up and head to class.

our turn, we present.. blabla.
Bina (tutor) said our presentation was clear & good.
Bina so good!
haha.
that tells us that we're moving in the right track & things are the way they are supposed to be.

after that, we dispersed.
i met up with siong, bryan, kenneth, alvin, samuel & yuki.
we go eat PRATA!!!
now thats nice to hear after my stomach grumbles.
finally im goin to lunch at 1630 hrs.
lol.
but siong & samuel wanna go home.
so we let them off this time. haha.
the rest headed to PRATA SHOP opp our school.

i ordered 2 kosong, 1 egg & tried BLACK SPIDER (rootbeer with strawberry ice-cream topped).
dammit its so goooooooooooood!
i was feeling so high.
other than me, bryan & alvin tried the drink also.
woohooo.
so greatt.
love it.
if only every friday we can do things like this.
just chill... yeahh.

after that we go back school play CS & DoTA.
haha. all the way til' night.
the we part off for home.
today (i mean yesterday, Friday) was great.
happy day! :)


inBlack&Red
` samarra .

TGIF

THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY!!!
waaa. finally the weekends are here.
this one week have been a total frustration doing comDI (communicating design ideas).
me & my friends thought that the assignment was quite complex & difficult to do.
but in fact, it is simple.
i dunno why sometimes the brain just cant project the question in an easy way.

every single day go school damn freaking early to do research and do the assignment.
i can just go school at normal time but my comp at home is near-wreckage therefore school comp & internet are more zai!


go to school early, come back home late. standard operation procedure (SOP).
the evenings are usually spent on playing game. an act of de-stressing.

today 2nd day of open house.
open house still got lesson. in fact just consultation with tutor.
(Bina (tutor) said my assignment is good & told me im hardworking! woohooo.
not to show off laa. just that im happy that my sleepless nights do pay off.)
so many people.
with guides & student leaders cheering at the entrance of their school...
overwhelming battalion of secondary schol students streaming in through corridors...
and basically loud blaring music echoing thru the entire school.

i didnt check the open house that much anyway.
just notice while going to print documents which is near the cheering guides.

the cheering really brought back memories of camping for the first time in TP. FOC camp.
the most damn wonderful one. i really cant forget it. so memorable.
and plus the School of Desgin Radical Camp too. shiok...

what else to sayy.. oh damn right.
i was somehow happy & sad too today.
those who knew, knows.
things happen. what must happen, will happen.
haizxs...




inBlack&Red
` samarra .

happy birthday to me :)

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happy birthday to me !

im 19 ! :)

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haha. damn im so euphoric.

seriously, im so much happier than i am since months ago.

my heart gave a twist today.

it feels so different so suddenly.

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feels like a near-dying flower,

finally tasted a drop of water after a prolonged drought.

like the saying goes:

sometimes, its the small things that make a huge change/difference.

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as for me,

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to see you smile is truly enough to lift a lifetime's sorrow ;)

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for every tear you shed,

an angel will fall from heaven.

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inBlack&Red

` samarra .

thats it ...

after this day, my entries may be random and seldom.

because tmrw i will start school.

yepp. a notice. :) seeya around.

happy new year :)

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so it is.
just like any other last moments of the year.
i would always reminisce the times i spent with the cherished ones.
they are the people who made 2007 a happy year for me.
to think back, sometimes its kind of sad to leave the year,
to think again, its kinda happy to have lived to another new year.
sometimes i feel that time is evil.
to have robbed me off of my special moments in life.
and sometimes too, i feel that time is good.
to have heal the invisible wounds & scars in the heart as it passes quickly.
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euphorias. damnations. i can never escape from them as they pass me by,
whether i like it, or not.
for me yesterday as i came back from the class outing,
(well actually i was planning to go for a countdown with some of my friends
but the plan was a failure)
i came home & just throw myself in one corner,
and began continue reading the HALO (the FLOOD) novel which i borrowed from ridhwan.
i dont give a damn about that one second that blew off 2007 & embraced 2008.
i really dont have the mood.
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so as the time was grasping for 0000 hrs, i cannot help but lay down the book,
and let my mind open up to memories of the year that is about to die off.
for dont know what fuck, i got emotional.
i bit my lips, and kneel down on my bed.
wishing to scream out loud if i could.
i was furious. and again, for dont know what fuck.
"this isn't the way 2007 ends. this should not be."
it was just a thought that got me thinking more what i have failed to complete for my life
in that current year.
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and without noticing the time, the new year was born.
i didnt care.
i look out the window and saw a star in the pitch black sky.
alone. that was what i thought it might have been.
so lonely off in the vast empty space.
but when i stared just to the left, i spotted another star.
i smiled.
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i wanted to laugh, but somehow i felt that it was just so inappropriate.
reason: in life, being alone is a total screwed up thing to ever be in.
and please, im not talking about having a bf or gf.
though my words relatively linked to that topic.
im talking about true friends.
about how they are there for you no matter what.
whether in deep shit, high fun, or just whatever.
losing them feels like losing a part of you.
and you tried hard to keep them.
just to be with them makes you happy.
love & trust bond you all together.
the willingness to sacrifice for the person somehow felt strong.
true friendship blossomed.
and betrayal... is the last thing you will ever. want. to think. of.
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thats all that just spurred out of me.
happy 2008 to all.
may you have a blissful & meaningful year ahead.
:)
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inBlack&Red
inSorrow&Happiness
my love is waiting to turn your tears to roses
` samarra .