happy new year :)

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so it is.
just like any other last moments of the year.
i would always reminisce the times i spent with the cherished ones.
they are the people who made 2007 a happy year for me.
to think back, sometimes its kind of sad to leave the year,
to think again, its kinda happy to have lived to another new year.
sometimes i feel that time is evil.
to have robbed me off of my special moments in life.
and sometimes too, i feel that time is good.
to have heal the invisible wounds & scars in the heart as it passes quickly.
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euphorias. damnations. i can never escape from them as they pass me by,
whether i like it, or not.
for me yesterday as i came back from the class outing,
(well actually i was planning to go for a countdown with some of my friends
but the plan was a failure)
i came home & just throw myself in one corner,
and began continue reading the HALO (the FLOOD) novel which i borrowed from ridhwan.
i dont give a damn about that one second that blew off 2007 & embraced 2008.
i really dont have the mood.
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so as the time was grasping for 0000 hrs, i cannot help but lay down the book,
and let my mind open up to memories of the year that is about to die off.
for dont know what fuck, i got emotional.
i bit my lips, and kneel down on my bed.
wishing to scream out loud if i could.
i was furious. and again, for dont know what fuck.
"this isn't the way 2007 ends. this should not be."
it was just a thought that got me thinking more what i have failed to complete for my life
in that current year.
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and without noticing the time, the new year was born.
i didnt care.
i look out the window and saw a star in the pitch black sky.
alone. that was what i thought it might have been.
so lonely off in the vast empty space.
but when i stared just to the left, i spotted another star.
i smiled.
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i wanted to laugh, but somehow i felt that it was just so inappropriate.
reason: in life, being alone is a total screwed up thing to ever be in.
and please, im not talking about having a bf or gf.
though my words relatively linked to that topic.
im talking about true friends.
about how they are there for you no matter what.
whether in deep shit, high fun, or just whatever.
losing them feels like losing a part of you.
and you tried hard to keep them.
just to be with them makes you happy.
love & trust bond you all together.
the willingness to sacrifice for the person somehow felt strong.
true friendship blossomed.
and betrayal... is the last thing you will ever. want. to think. of.
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thats all that just spurred out of me.
happy 2008 to all.
may you have a blissful & meaningful year ahead.
:)
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inBlack&Red
inSorrow&Happiness
my love is waiting to turn your tears to roses
` samarra .