the TIME that still REMAINS, i`ll use to REDEFINE me

for you i shall say not
i am to deny this feeling.
it is totally killing me,
from the inside, out.

i am afraid,
that i`d do more harm than good.
but i still don't know why.
i`ve the feeling that its stupid.

i`m freaking confused!
damn i don`t know why this must be happening now.
i really can`t deter it.
neither can i fully accept it.

should i deny or should i not?!
because 'time' is short.
and i may end up, messing another's life.
i may end up, scarring again my own heart.

to the one, if i could say this, i would.
i want to tell you that you had touched my life for only a while.
but you're the type of girl my heart yearns for.
however i know that i`m not prepared.
and that in this case, it`s also impossible.
yet i want to tell you how deep my affections are for you.
however i still see that friendship is still something more precious.
for love is blind, but friendship closes eyes.

the bond you shared with us is one where trust can be put on the line.
know that your presence always fill up my lungs with oxygen.
so if you leave, i will have to struggle on.
yet still, i have to witness the 2nd black rose born in my life.
to let go of a beautiful start.
a beautiful friendship that has just begun to blossom.
so many wonderful moments yet to happen.
so many things to discover together.

yet again, it is not us who decide the path in your life.
friends part ways, yes.
friends come & go, yes.
true friends are just the same, except for the fact,
that they leave beautiful memories behind for us to embrace.
for us to remember.
the days we had together. the moments we shared. happiness & sorrow.
i will miss this all.
i will miss you.
we will miss you.

i can`t say, "please stayy.."
i can`t say, "don`t leave.."
all i can say is not goodbye.
what i can say is that i hope we'll meet in the future.
i hope we will.
may God protect you & bless you :)

i shall never seek so much
to be consoled as to console,
to be understood as to understand,
or to be loved as to love with all my heart...
WITH ALL MY HEART.

inBlack&Red
inSoul&Heart
` samarra .