Samsons -The Sweetest Memory (Kenangan Terindah) - Eng Sub

a very sweet song!
indonesian song actually.
got eng subs. go listen!!!
:)

Yellowcard - Only One

Broken, this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you, so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I'd let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I'd let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go, so dishonestly
Leave a note, for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I'd let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

//

classic eh this song.
brought back alot of memories.
haha XD

Long, but Great Day!

kind of a long day today.
but no, aint a drag.

morning went to school for APEL 2 (Applied Principles of Effective Living).
was presentation day.
everything was smooth sailing.
i think i talked crap abit. haha.

met up with Julian.
passed me cash to buy him Scratch Cards (Habbo Hotel Cards).
was like drug kinda dealing.
i met him, he shoved the money to me, and i left.
HAHA!

after that went gaming with Sam & Alvin.
abit sian actually because everybody left and the feeling is very weird.
like sudden loneliness.
erm.
okayy nevermind.

supposed to meet up with Regu to get Shamir`s birthday gift at 1500 at Changi.
getting him a fishing rod & reel so he can fish with us next time.
hahaa.
well like always, we don`t really meet up punctually.
met him at 1630 instead.

recce for rods & reel.
found a decent one that suits him.
haha.
bought it and went off to meet him at his place.
found out he just finished bathing his cats.
HAHA!

we then shoot of to Whitesands Mac.
did some planning of an operation.
CLASSIFIED!
hahaa.
when my lappy batt running low, we left & walk walk around.
damn bored.
waiting for Sheikh actually.
yeahh.
long time no see.

when we meet together all over again, its like we are who we are when we last part.
still abit crazy. LOL!
laugh non-stop, digging up memories of the past.
its damn shiok laa just to slack & talk about the old days.
hmm.. yeah.
miss alot of stuffs back in secondary school.
my friends, my classroom, the teachers.. yeah.

time is always moving.
thats something i don`t like.
but well, its life aint it.
without knowing it, years pass.
friends come & goes, friends stays...
yeahh.

went home, saw a girl very resembling to her.
it reminds me of the past.
its abit creepy.
like a sudden gush of moments with her flowing back into my mind.
but well to say again, its not LOVE.
its something way MORE beautiful than that.

hmm. yeah.
oh yaa!
finally spotted SHIMANO FIREBLOOD at Changi Village while recce-ing for Shamir`s gift.
damn they come in 3 sizes.
the smallest is selling at $450.
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!
damn ex laa.
but well, its VERY beautiful than in the picture itself.
SWEEEET!
i don`t even know if i EVER gonna get one.
haizz..
if i get my hands on it, i won`t use it!
i`d rather have it displayed in my room.
wooooooo!
okok. stop dreaming. wakakaa.

well yeah, i guess thats that for today.
hehe.
seeya!



black will paint over white,
& red will stain it.

` samarra .

what hurts the most ?

HAPPY 3

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Its Happy Birthday to our dear friends.
Li Juan, Ivy & Colin!
































another happy memory to be shared by all :)
best wishes to the three!


black will paint over white,
& red will stain it.
` samarra .

when hatred gave birth to love ...

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I AM NOT AFRAID TO WALK THIS WORLD ALONE!
but i AM afraid to walk this LIFE alone.
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cold was my soul,
untold was the pain.

HMM ... .. .

#1 If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
disasterous. LOL! XD

#2 If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
a perfect world. peace, love & happiness.

#3 What will your dream wedding be like?
lovely one, which will etch forever in my mind, my wife's & my parents.

#4 Are you hungry?
what`s with this question? random ahh! oh, no i`m not hungry.
but if there`s junks, i don`t mind biting in. just had late night dinner! (:

#5 What’s your ideal lover like?
like the first & second black rose.
( sweet, caring, true, . . blabla.. no need to type out la yaa.. almost everyone will say the same. )

#6 Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being LOVED!
"... to be loved, as to love with ALL MY HEART!"

#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
really love? as in true love? then i will.

#8 If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
LOL! GG-fied. erms, let it be ah. what can I do?

#9 Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
not unhappy. but rather, dissapointed. haizz..

#10 Is being attached fun?
i don`t know. never tied to anyone. HAHA! XD

#11 How do you see yourself in ten years time?
awesome job, maybe learning more? have fiance?

#12 Who are currently the most important people to you?
FAMILY & FRIENDS!

#13 What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
a bugger. HAHA! XD no hard feelings Siong!
NO!!!
i will say, he`s that one rare kind of person that keeps your heart warm with
true friendship. (:
although we do get to max arguing. HAHA!

#14 Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
WHAT IS THIS!?!?
single & rich.. so much money.. no life partner.. so boring.. (unless those who become playboy!)
BUT NOT ME!
married but poor.. have life partner.. but hard to survive in life.. seeing a life partner to have
to struggle through life.. heartache. (rather not be in this situation.)

#15 What’s the first thing you do every morning?
recall my dreams, if i had any. i love dreams, sweet ones of course.

#16 Would you give all in a relationship?
without a doubt!

#17 If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
simultaneously? the heck..
erm, well.. let my heart pick the RIGHT her.

#19 What are your friends usually like?
just like me. simply young & 'wild'.

#20 What type of friends do you dislike?
hypocrites! those buggers with daggers hiding in the shadows of friendship.
honestly, these people ARE 'DIGUSTING' !!!

//

just a survey.
i got survey from ppl.
supposed to be passed on.
but it will always end here, in my blog.
HAHA!

yeahh. well.
thats all!
taking care peeps (:



black will paint over white,
& red will stain it.
` samarra .

joke of the century .

with a ravaged heart & tired soul .

huh. what?

today was the presentation day for Reversed Engineering.
okayy for people who dont know whats that,
it is reversing the process of installation.
okok, in simpler words, dismantle.

well whatever it is, had presentation today.
phew... me & bryan got it through.
cant say good.
cant say bad.
whats done is done.

hmm..
yeahh..
after that went for lunch.
and..
well..
the rest of the day is long...
and dry...

haizz..
one life gone.
tsk tsk.

gonna do my automata later.
haven start the model yet.
cos was busy doin the R.E. lately.
now that its over, can focus on the next.

well i realised one thing.
i do work faster when under stress.
i think so.
yeahh, GOOD stress.
hmm.. well whatever.

zzz...

this is my first time being moodless for anything.
nothing to say either.

ohh well..

its never been like this last time.
you are there.
life was great.

have i changed upon the birth of the black rose?
am i not the Samir i once used to be?
have i hurt anyone`s feelings?
have i failed to uphold my vow... ?

time proved to heal wounds.
but not all.

scars do remains.

friendship, took a downfall. :'(

i am in love?
heyy. that must be joke of the century.
HAH!



black will paint over white,
& red will stain it.
` samarra .

the truth

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"my eyes see nothing"
"my mouth speaks nothing"
"my ears hear nothing"
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nothing? NOTHING?
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am i blind?
am i mute?
am i deaf?
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have i been voided of all the feelings i once felt were true to me?
the truth. is it`s existence the death of all lies? of all deceptions?
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NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH
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am i running away from the truth?
or
am i standing there taking it at point blank?
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samir or samarra ?

the truth about this deception,
is its a lie.
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you will not understand.
you may never will.
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if i had believed that there is always a rainbow after a rain,
then why i grieved upon reminiscing every moments we once shared.
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i lived on with a shadow that hides all the wounds you ever scar me with.
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its the curse.
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The Curse of The Black Rose.
two corpses, in one grave.
i miss you.
real, badly.
black will paint over white,
& red will stain it.

` samarra .

half alive .

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half ALIVE .

you killed my other half,

with the definition of LOVE.

you`re the only one who could vanquish

this animal i have become.

believe.

because thats all thats left that i can do.

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black will paint over white,

& red will stain it.

` samarra .

rendezvous

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yesterday was a great day. met up back with the rest of the RSSN peeps.

and firdaus.

and ridhwan.

YEAH!

kind of a full-scale outing.

hahaa.

but before i get on with the outing.

lets talk abit about the day before.

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Regu rang me up while i`m ouside with my other friends.

told me tomorrow fishing at 0700 at pasir ris park.

i was like ... ... .

because tomorrow itself too, me, him & some others are gonna watch movie the evening.

and we`ll be meeting up first in late afternoon to update our still-raw fishing organisation.

in any case i just say yes to the fishing trip.

at night the bugger go changi to get pon pon.

"time is no issue"

his words not mine ah.

hahaa.

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tomorrow at dawn (saturday).

it was raining when i woke up.

firdaus had msg-ed me & regu about the morning tide which is uber low!

0.2m!

what the heck are we gonna fish for?

mudskippers? total LOL.

so it was called off while i`m back to sleep.

i mean if they had carried on, i wouldn`t have known.

haha!

bloody bugger go plan fishing trip then never check weather, tide.

hahaha.. Regu if you read this, chill ah. XD

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so we just gathered up at late afternoon to finish off our organisation update.

and i didn`t know Najib is coming too!

another bugger long time no see.

hahaa.

an irritant but is the best.

yeahh. when he came, its like: "yeah. the best outing it will be!"

wooo.

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so we head to that new place at pasir ris park.

what is it called? Ehub or something like that.

so we walk walk. look look.

actually alot of stuffs happen in between.

but later my entry too long nobody wants to read.

i think by now nobody also bothers to read.

HAHAHA!

shiok sendiri.

okok.

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actually intitial movie to watch was Narnia: Prince Caspian.

but then changed to kungfu PANDA.

and sure its no regret!!!

one hell of a funny movie.

can`t stop laughing.

haha!

was great. everybody enjoyed.

blablabla.

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then ridhwan & firdaus left early because they got something on.

the rest of us, the RSSN, went to chill out at Mac.

talk joke crap.

Shamir will be enlisted into NS in December!

he damn happy about it.

well, its just him.

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so... yeah.

after that part ways & i head back home.

FULL STOP.

yeah. thats about it.

this is too long already.

no pictures taken during the outing.

well now you can see the difference between guys & girls day out together.

haha!

alrights. taking care!

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black will paint over white,

& red will stain it.

` samarra .

some random tagged quiz

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Survey Instructions:
Remove one question from above & replace it with your own.
Tag eight people, list them down at th end of the post.
Notify them in their chatbox that they've been tagged.


1) How is life now?
Can`t say happy. can`t say sad. so how do i say?

2) What do you hope for now?
An improved GPA! (:

3) What is the last thing you do/say if tomorrow is the end of the world?
Ask for forgiveness from all those i`ve wronged.

4) Do you hate your friends sometimes?
I`m not trying to be a freaking caring person here but i must say i can never hate a friend.
Worst to worst, it`ll be a 'hi-bye' kind.

5)What kind of guy/girl is your dream boyfriend/girlfriend. List an example.
Err...............................
Understanding, trustworthy, sweet.
But first & foremost, i must make sure i possess such things that i want of her too.

6) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Without a doubt.

7) If you are able to time travel, will you travel back to the past or the future?
I don`t want to remember the past nor would i want to know my future.
I`m stubborn?

8) What's your desired age of marriage?
Errrhhh. *scratches head* like i`ve said before. hopefully not so long after 30.

9) Are you happy with your life now?
Yess. Noo. Can i just say it`s balanced?
Oh how i wish i`m so freaking happy every freaking day of my freaking life.
=.= heck.
But if life is perfect, its like.."whats the point of living?".
Am i right?

10) What if your crush asked you out?
Crush ah? joke eh? heh. go out lo. then crush her! HAHA! nola. joking. hehe.

11) What will you do when you have a crush that knows you have a crush on him/her?
I thought i`m the stalker? HAHA! Actually i don`t know how to answer.
Thats why i talk rubbish. HAHAHA! =.=''

12) What feelings do you hate the most?
Like i`ve said before: used, & WASTED! (eff - yoou - see -kayy) !!!

13) What will you do if you fall in love with a guy/girl?
I`m not gonna expect to see the 3rd Black Rose born.

14) What are you looking forward to in the coming weeks?
Automata toy!!! actually thats all i`m interested in. hehe.
anyway, thats schoolwork okay. (:

15) The most important thing in your life.
FAMILY!!! & FRIENDS!!! :D

16) Who do you hope to always be there for you?
God. To hear my prayers & guide me in life.

17) Do you find life meaningless?
Eh don`t say like that leii. Cannot be.
You are born for a reason.
Life HAS a meaning.
You just have to go & FIND it. (:

18) Where you think u can find true love?
Outside my house.
HAHAHA! kk. FTW.
Actually, i don`t know.
So i don`t want to know.
wakaka. XD

19) Do you believe that there's 'True Love'?
YES! & i do believe in it.
Do you?

20) What's your greatest wish?
To repay my parents`. How to say uh? I mean, for nurturing me, giving me education..
So in future, takecare of them.. etc.
Well, you get the picture.

21) What will you change if you can turn back time?
Can i like destroy all weapons on this planet?
I freaking hate WARS!


Eight people are supposed to be tagged by me to follow-up this quiz too.
But its freaking 3:52 AM now & i`m freaking tired.
Whoever want to post this, just copy laa ya?
Self-volunteer. Thank you very much.

My mum had just barged into the room & scare the shit outta me.
& scolded me for staying up so late on the comp.
Sorry but thats just my wonderful wonderful loving mum.
So i`ll be that very wonderful wonderful loving son of hers
and finish this up quickly & go to bed.


O-KAY! *low tone*
HAHAHA! (flinstone's group! hear me right! XD)

kk. signing off ...

free supper ?! NOOOOOO!!!

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so after a heavy gaming of CS,
me, Kenneth, Royston, Terence, Yeong Wei, Jason, Zhiming, Terry, Sanroye & last but not least, Cheryl went to eat supper at the prata shop opp our school.
it was damn late. my mum had dinner for me already but still went out with them to eat.
because i damn hungry. HAHA!
anyway i didnt let my mum down okay!
told her to leave some for me so i can taste them when i get back.

okok. so actually before going to prata shop, they had actually wanted to go to Bedok Block 85 to eat. i dunno where seyy. forgive me though i`m a resident of Bedok, i don`t freaking know where`s the place. HAHA!
anyway i don`t kinda like eating so far when it`s alredy getting late.
i was persuaded but still i just want to eat near school there.
Kenneth wanted to accompany me because he don`t mind.
so we parted off with the rest at the busstop.

but who knows they followed us suit.
hahaa. so cool! like sticky duct tape.
we all go together!!! XD
haha!
so we went to that prata shop & ordered our stuffs.
eateateat.
long story short,
i need to go off because its getting late.
like 11++.
if i stay any longer, i gonna get a sermon when i get home.
so i quickly bade farewell to them & left.

i was feeling damn full & at the same time hurrying up to the bustop.
i don`t want to miss the last bus!
if not take taxi. waa no $$.
walk, can.
but hell no. its freaking creepy down that stretch from Tampines Safra to my house.
though just about 3 busstops away, i`m not risking it.
hehe. heard 'wonderful' stories there.
got one where this 'thing' sits at the busstop.
HAHA! ftw.
okok. so i was deeply in thoughts when suddenly i realise something is wrong.
nono! nobody stalked me or anythin like that.

I FORGOT TO PAY FOR MY PRATA MEAL!!!

waaa sibei screwed up.
i just realised that i had just walked off like that!
damn! freaking paiseh.
i called up Cheryl.
she was like.. yalaa you.. just walk off..
and of course: hahahahaaa...
so i told her to just ask somebody to help me pay first.
okok. hung up.

and so now i am at home.
went online.
asked cheryl who had helped me paid.
& she said.. "Samir you had a free meal!"
i was like WHAT!?!?!
and she say that the uncle never count me because i wasn`t present there!
like i hadn't been there in the first place.
zzz...
i was feeling rather guilty ehh.
because i`m not used to eating meals then just walk off.
:X

nevermind, tmrw i donate some cash at mosque when going for friday prayers.
at least i will feel better.
NO! i don`t want to go back to the prata shop & tell them i had eaten a free lunch from them.
i gonna freaking feel paiseh like maximum!
T.T
here's a couple of picture when we ate together.
i just realised this is my first time eating supper together with this bunch.
or rather i can say, first time eating together! HAHA! XD

credits to CherylHee for snapping of photos!

full story will be at http://www.pidylife.blogspot.com/
heh. (:
yeah! its a wonderful day!!!

i feel much happier now.
and oh, please, i`m not emo.
get that fact right! kkk.
XD

black will paint over white,
& red will stain it.
` samarra .

is it that hard to let it go ?

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There comes a time in life
when you have to let go off
all the pointless drama
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&
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the people who create it
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surround yourself
with people who make you laugh
so hard that you forget
the bad and focus solely
on the good.
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After all, life is too short
to be anything but happy.
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the night those tears fall,
i wished i had not met you
to have feel this pain.
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black will paint over white,
& red will stain it.
` samarra .

realizing the end of my broken heart

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reminders of you.
they keep haunting me.
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show me how it ends, its alriight.
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black will paint over white
& red will stain it.
` samarra .

PID Induction Project

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well last friday had that final day for induction project.
meaning all scooters to go for the race!
yeahh.
well my group was ready for that day.
well actually after looking at the tracks, we dont feel okay.
hahaha.
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problem number one - wheels too small.
problem number two - w/o ball bearings, wheel have a hard time rotating.
problem number three - handle kinda fragile (difficulty in steering)
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tsk tsk.
so many problems.
but heyy!
main thing is that we all enjoyed what we do!
like for the past week or so.
meet new friends - the freshies.
yeahh.
all with so different kind of personalities.
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well as for my group there is Gaen, Jason, Qihong, Danial & Azri.
and the juniors guiding them in this project are me myself, Chloe & Samuel.
yeahhaa. some of them.. well... kinda.. disappeared.
hahaa.
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the pictures will tell.
for sure you know who yourself are.
those who put in alot of effort in doing these scooter.
yepp2. its a great pleasure guiding you all.
fun peeps to be with. woooo.
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and yeah, i do mix around with other freshies too.
significant ones will be from Kai Siong's group.
in particular, they are Abby & Hakim.
hahaha.
omg.
lol.
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most of the times my group went to eat with them.
and for myself i slacked with them a few times.
hahaha.
the 'Like Mad' group, O-KAY! *in low tone*.
hahahahahahaa.
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omg.
what is this.
im laughing on my own. XD
HAHAHAHAHA!
okay nvm. oh. wrongly said.
its O-KAY *in low tone*
LOL.
yeahh.
only us us know what is this all about.
jokes i cannot take it.
hahaha. too heavy.
i laugh like mad everytime i hear that.... O-KAY. *in low tone* from abby's voice.
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HAHAHAHA!
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ZOMG!
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kk. shh. peace peace. ^^
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okayy below are pics. let them talk can?
i lazy to type captions. heh.
ahh nvm. i just type laa. hahahaa. O-KAY?! *in low tone*
LOL!
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some of my grp members.
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hahaa. wait! LOL!
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forgive my unexplained expression. ^^
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cool yo! design on the platform of my group`s scooter!
yeahhh!
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steady to display, not race. erms. hahaa!
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mini harley!! wooooo.
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ZAI! XD
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Me, Samuel, Qihong, Jason, Gaen & Chloe.
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after race! yeahh!!! all happy though we lose. :)
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damn now induction is over.
right after that day, i like dont have obligation in life.
actually it applies to me, and i think some others too, after a block ends.
yeah. busy busy busy.
then suddenly, nothing to do.
LOL!
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well in any case, all beginnings have an ending.
T.T
don`t remind me.
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i hope i will continue meeting up with my freshies & Abby & Hakim.
hope all of us can go out for some movie or something like that.
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i need to distract myself from these past melancholic blablabla.
and ya! this time, its the kind i really had wanted to see.
i`m very afraid.
i`m not losing myself again.
it will be more than just a disaster, if i ever fall for it.
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BLA!
enough of rubbish.
okayy peeps!
seeya`all.
taking care!
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black will paint over white,
& red will stain it.
` samarra .