Monday, September 07, 2009

thoughts, after some really long time .

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humans have eyes to see.
but we fail to see the truth.
we close one eye on the wrongdoings.
we desire to see only the nicest of things.
we only wish to see what is pleasant to us,
or what we believe is true.

why can`t we open our eyes to the real world?
why can`t we see the real struggle of life?
some people just think highly of themselves.
they only wish to see good things in themselves.
selfish, and ignorant.

why not see through eyes of other people?
people in pain, poverty, struggle...
or simply, your own classmate whom you regard as a weirdo.
have you ever seen through his eyes and see what he has gone through, or is going through?
just assuming he is weird and neglecting his existence.
what is that?
that, is human nature for some of us who just fail to see things as a whole. - its a painful reality.

what are our hearts for?

is it so that hard to learn to love?

is it so that hard to accept another who is different from you?

when i was a little kid.
i watched rather alot of documentary shows on TV. (but im not deprived of cartoons mind you.)
at such tender age, as i watch those people in need, my heart aches, honestly.
the filming of children in near-dying conditions caught the most of my attention.

i even remembered one of my super marvellous kid`s dream of building a long water pipe into the country experiencing drought.
it was a really ridiculous thought though.

i wanted to join MercyRelief or such organisation which offers humanitarian aid.
but i dont seem to have time to engage in such activities.
quite sad actually.
its like one of my dream.
perhaps one day i would be able to fulfill it.
God`s will.

of course, start small.
being caring to the people around you is a start.
it is always better to give than to receive.
understanding people, listening to their hearts.
lending a helping hand, sharing bittersweet.

im not really a wonderful person.
im not really that great.
im just another human being.
i have negative feelings too.
always learning to supress them.

im just someone who doesnt want to see others in pain.
`cause it would hurt me, if i know & dont do anything about it.

sometimes when i care for a person too much,
and it just hurts me more,
i had thoughts of "why do i have feelings & emotions? it hurts."
i feel like numbing my feelings.
but to think again.
that would make me heartless since i wish not to feel.
humans, HAVE hearts, and DO care. (thats what i wish, and hope is true.)
some are just too proud to let it show.
love exists, in many different ways.
we just have to open our heart and feel its existence. (:



"you can close your eyes from the things you don`t want to see,
but you can`t close your heart from the things you don`t want to feel."


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honestly, this is what happens when i sit down and stare blank.
didnt know i can scratch out this long post `cause i`m tired and sleepy.
oh well.
(:

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