lower cases & capitals.

words written with emotions are like treasures to me.
reading back past years entires kinda reflect me how i was last time.
pretty much naive, very much like a kid who likes to create mess and get entangled in it.
to me all these posts weigh alot. somewhat priceless.
i love this place. so much memories, bitter or sweet.
so i`d leave this place untouched.
then perhaps one day if i ever return here, it`ll bring me back to my origins.

i dont know if i have readers but well i went the other way.
this blog will be stagnant, for some time.
for some very long time.

catch me here. :)
sorry the link is hard to see.
[ www.rainystars.co.nr]

cheers! :)
goodbye.

inBlack&Red`s time, due.

alright. maybe going ghost for awhile,
or maybe forever.
maybe just using my other blog,
or maybe would come back here.
maybe... i should just think about it.

when everything`s unclear.

may the Earth stood still.
perhaps for just one moment.
so i could savour this hidden smile.

the next phase of life.

the other day future-talked with my uncle.
well rarely meet him because he stayed on the other side of Singapore.
came the other day and brought my younger brother and I out for breakfast.

whenever he came, he would usually ask how I`m doing etc.
once a while meet so those are obvious questions.
im surprised his daughter is in University already.
NTU. she`s 19. JC route. oh yeah.

he always told me to keep on learning whenever i can.
if possible he wants me to go Uni after NS.
thats not the likely route i`d go. i just cant study books. i will waste time & money.
i rather work and go for some courses that offers skills.
to me skills and experiences are better than study certs.

then in his car before heading back home, he showed me his car license.
i had practically no idea what he is getting to until he showed me the list of vehicles he can drive.
i was surprised. he had license class 2B, 2A, 2, 3A, 3, 4 & 5 !
can you just imagine?! he can drive almost anything! ><

and then he took out another license card.
he could operate a forklift and a crane!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
add a taxi license to the list!
><

he was very proud of himself. i know it.
told me he worked hard to earn all this.
during his time, my mum's time too, their family live a hard life.
he is who he is today because of his relentless efforts.
& yes he is very much well-off.

joked he`s not the kind of person who could do business job.
he`s more to technical stuffs. can really tell that.
and those electrical wirings in houses, he have that certification to approve the wirings!
seriously, i was speechless to just know my uncle have all these in him.
all these years he never told me anything about this.
perhaps i`m all grown up now.

told me to never stop learning and striving to get what i want.
well i hope i really could achieve what i want.
pray i could repay back my parents and give them a good life.
the future is so uncertain. so very much uncertain.

well as for now, let me clear my National Service.
wait.
before that, i`m gonna sooooo enjoy my life before it.
& there are already many plans laid out. ohhh yeahhh!

:D

proud of notoriety?

whats with girls calling their friends 'bitches'?
its just plain retarded & degrading, even if your friends are okay with it.

the modern world give birth to more indecency.

new.

sun rise | sun set.

however you look at it, both portrays alot of possibilities.

helloooo~

stunt. :D

makes no difference to me

you can never be somebody else.
you are just you.

risk.

sometimes we are afraid to take a step forward
because it may ruin everything we have up till now.

stand up for what you believe.

And tonight we can truly say,
Together we're invincible

no, they`re not secrets.

when i was a kid...

i thought that planets are countries. Singapore was Earth, Australia is Jupiter and so on.

i behaved when watching Crimewatch because i thought the police hosts is able to see me.

i brought pen to write my name on green packets during Hari Raya because i dont want it to get mixed together with my sis's.

i took picture with my sis & little brother and the Powerpuff Girls at Downtown East... & my pant's zip was down.

i stole the 4-coloured pen from my religious teacher's table when in his house because thats the first time i saw it & i was fascinated by its mechanism.

i always have trouble controlling my bladder at night & there goes my mattress under the sunlight in the morning.


enough eh? i have no idea why im posting all these shameful things. its out of the blue, honestly. well... thats abit of my younger days.

hmm...

why cant we see bubble thoughts. :(
but then life would just be too perfect.

tick tock...

im gonna wakeup early tomorrow to finish the last 2 sketches.
send for approval.
do the linework.
hope that sketches approved.
do lineworks on them too.
see if Yvette needs some assistance once i`m done.
or vice versa.

i so hope by evening can be done.
hmm hmm.

34 days left.
enjoying every bit i can now.
training starts next week, i hope.
gonna get busy with house shifting & painting.
crap. i just hope i have time for some enjoyment.

Sentosa Back to Back!

-
19 June 2010:

Advanced Birthday Celebration for Shamir!
he`s 21! :D cheers yo!
we surprised him at Sentosa Palawan Beach. :)
Batik Wear-On. Birthday Song in the 4 languages of Singapore.
it was greeeeeeaat! pictures in FB. haha.
had a great day but i left at night when they went to chill at Starbucks. haha.
Happy Birthday again Shamir! have a good one bro! :)

20 June 2010:

my first time i used the kitchen stove to cook food other than maggee & fried egg.
my first time i boiled hotdogs.
my first time to do scrambled eggs. (wasnt pretty sure whether its perfect... oh well)
my first time to do breakfast for the outing. :D
i kinda like it. doing breakfast. ^^
so bread, sliced hotdogs with scrambled eggs and cheese.
weeeeeeeeeeeee~ sandwiches!

okay. i`ll just keep it simple.
it was another awesome day at Sentosa!!!
yeah sour face?

:D


all in all, the best weekends, EVER!
-

flu bug get lost.

-
flu.
every single time i have a project to do, i fall sick.
its sickening.

2 sentosa trips this weekends! :D
hope would enjoy both! :)
-

National Service incoming finally, but with damn short notice.

-
posted to Tekong.
new school 4. damn.
i JUST received letter.
they taking me in on 29th july.
=.="

abit spoil mood.
but... what to do yea?
hmm hmm...
-

a reality with a different thought.

--
took from that FB group.
its truuuuuuueeee.
-

after consecutive days of macd...

-
simple evenings like these are great.
:D HAHA!

& my throat situation is at risk of a sore.
BARRLEEEEEEEY! save me.
-

pen & paper again!

-
i`m back to sketching. sort of PID life again.
just maybe... a little easier hmm.
hope it`ll be alright!
first client for product design in industry :D
finally can put in something i`ve learnt for the past 3 years. ^^
okay, i`m nervous a little. haha.

i carried a shower heater around in my arms in Tampines Mall. @.@
saved by a popular plastic bag.
~~~

CS: "we put glue on the display set so its tight."
S: "so this is like cheating customer arh?"
CS: "..."

hopeless.
-

one fine night.

-
question my mind.
then,
liberate my mind.
-

in my life .

-
need anything to say to someone,
say it right now.

that someone may not be here tomorrow.
-

i loved you with a fire red, now its turning blue.

-

-
still a beautiful song.
-

touched my heart & soul.

-
words that sting, beautifully.
ouch.
:'(
takecare...
-

when everythin else fades...

-
i feel sorry. ><
be strong!
-

munch.

-
i got free famous amos!
sealed packaging with an advice note lei!
HAHAHA!

thanks arrrr! ^^

think i gonna stock up some milk in fridge.
but i can BET my little brother gonna "help" me finish it. =.="
-

O.O

-
the stars are blazing like rebel diamonds cut out of the sun.
-

very bad. very very bad.

-
i lost weight.
need to regain.
train.
maintain.

words, are always easy.

this one`s for NS.
so i must make it.
-

enough stalking already eh? HAHAHA!

-
will be looking forward to the next few events in my calendar! :D
-

Victorinox Swiss Card Lite!

-
-
stumble upon this yesterday!
pretty neat!
even if i get also i dont know what to do with it, yet.
hmm...

kablooey .

-
feeling damn horrible now.
aaaaaaaaahahaha.
-

no timeline.

-
going to sleep feeling empty, each day.
there`s really nothing much to think about.
no, there is ALOT to think about.
i`m just not doing it. sigh.

just checked NS portal. my letter should come between now and november.
so it better be now. asap. and please put me in the force.
now to think about it, being in police isn`t really bad.
when you do your duty, you deal with new situations, new scene, new people.
well lets just hope that would happen to me. make my life interesting.
haha. which kinda reminds me of navy. "be somebody". LOL!

been helping Sam a little here & there on his FYP.
texted me yesterday morn saying Marcus didnt approve of his idea, again.
& therefore he gets frustrated. sent "colourful" words in his messages to me.
LOL.
i can see he is really trying to make a good one out of FYP, just why can`t the lecturers
give some opinion? Instead of just rejecting and shut off. biaaaaaaaas?
pretty bad this time round for FYP-takers. well good luck bro.

been sleeping late as usual & have a hard time waking up in the morn.
8am. open eyes. snooze. sleep. check for sms. reply. sleep. ........................... 1pm.
thats about the max i could go. its really bad sleeping habit.
& i`ve been skipping breakfast due to this timing.
now nothing to chiong also stay up late. good one.

my phone is fully charged.
awesome.
sleep.
bye.
-

if we ever meet again .

-

-
the rushest video i ever made.
but all the memories in those pictures & videos stretch for a span of 3 years.
3 years, & time rushed past very fast.
i`ve been watching again & again.
bittersweet :(:
-

-
its been some time since i last cried.
-

starving now... i want pizza...

-
glad i could finish the graduation video just nice Bryan, Yong Woei & Roy could watch.
3 of them entering NS tomorrow. God, keep them safe.
my letter has yet to come.

& i learned how to FINISH my POPEYES meal.
i always get the 2 chicken, fries & biscuit set.
& from last time, i always can`t finish the biscuit because i leave it last.
now i know how.
fries,biscuits & then chicken.
CAN FINISH!


RANDOM!
-

between heaven & hell .

-
i was hoping the rain would last till tomorrow morning.
now i got nothing nice to sleep by.

i`m not sure what reminded me but i`m pretty much old.
a couple of decades and a year.
i`m not fulfilling yet what i NEED for my life.

i`m half serious, or maybe a little lesser.
still reckless, still following the flow.
do i need to find the turn in this straight road, or could i create one?

for sure, i don`t want to follow in people`s footsteps, no matter they are successful or not.
i want to create my own path. i want to make mistakes. i want to learn.
just, wondering when.
-

how do i stand up to this?

-
those words affect me. they are true.
but i really very much do not want to judge my friends that way.
-

why does my heart, feel so bad...

-

-

if everyday is like this then i`d prefer staying out .

-
if there`s such a thing when you could give your life to revive a dead, i wont hesitate.
i`ll freaking remove myself & revive my grandfather.

so my mum would stop nagging at me.
& hopefully my grandfather could bring all of our families back together.
-

that girl.

-

-

recall-ed.

-
i want to stay honest to how i feel now.
-

my immortal .

-

-

your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
-

not easy, but not difficult either...

-
it was never easy, never.
i did what i could to stay in line.

try putting yourself in the other`s person shoes
& feel what the person is feeling.

in anycase, i`m grateful, i appreciated.
considering whether i should tear down this place.
-

another of my reality .

-
too deep now to ever swim against the current.
-

hi.

-
suffering, isn`t a bad idea.
it peels my eyes.
-

'it' looks like me.

-
that ghost of me was standing outside my mum`s bedroom.
it didnt respond to my mum.

next time i`ll wash my face and feet first when i got home.
-

everything for that piece of paper.

-
congratulations to Muhammad Samir Bin Fadali.

i`ve graduated. PID. TP. 2010.
thanks to my family & friends who have helped me through this past 3 years.
forgive me i`ve ever been a letdown to you people.
i can write tons of things, but i prefer this would be enough.

& i thought i could settle it. i could not.
the fact of it dawned on me just now on my way home.
as much as i want to forget it, i also still want to remember it.
for it was a beautiful disaster i ever created.

i could just kill myself smiling.



tomorrow, the sun will rise.
tomorrow, is a new day.
-

one of my favourite scene! :D

SHREK-ed with a bunch. :)
-

-

the chords will continue.

-
the last serenade, no.
-

she`s so sweet with her get back stare .

-

-

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH THISS SONNNGGGGG ROCKKKKKKKS! :D
-

... or random circumstance.

-
it was when our emotions clash,
that i can feel that i`m alive.

do our hearts need to scar,
for us to have each other in mind.

at the most stupid things.
-

& I fell apart, but got back up again

-
No warning sign, no alibi
We faded faster than the speed of light
Took our chance, crashed and burned
No we'll never ever learn
-

stop being so ego & thinking you`re damn right all the time.

-
what would you do when you did your best to help your friend,
and they ignore you?

friends give advices that is best for their friends.
most of times, the advices are bitter and hard to accept.

but if you remain stubborn,
then what can i do?

i would just be adding oil to the fire right?
so i would just watch you destroy yourself?

never, not in my lifetime.
i`m just stubborn too, to let you go & drown in your problems.
-

life is like a box of chocolates... RUN FORREST RUN!

-
the other day i finally felt that i`ve grown old.
(we all are aging every moment anyway)
looking at all the youngsters having fun time.
it wasn`t so bad. i had a great life so far.

just hoping it gets better.
-

money & all the stuck up things that goes with it.

-
funny.
funny how we, in this modern world, are craving for things that aren`t important at all.
craving for things that we already have, but we just want better and more.
craving for unnecessary things.
new phones, new shoes, new bags, new shirts, new gadgets... etc.

funny.
because in another part of the world, human beings just like us
are craving for simple things like food, water & shelter.
just those.

i`m not saying we should stop spending money.
i`m saying we should be grateful with what we already have.

not to mention to spare time with your love ones.
don`t keep on earning and live a pleasurable life.
if you think that money is life, then you may one day come to regret
what you would really lost from your heart.
it aint money. its love.

God, why the unfair world?
:(

-

rainy day.

-
just watched UP.
pretty touching story.
:)
-

honest to God i'll break your heart, tear you to pieces & rip you apart.

-
disturbing lyrics... haha!

"Skinned her alive, ripped her apart
Scattered her ashes, buried her heart"
-
thats [30 Seconds to Mars`s Night of the Hunter Flood Remix]
-

Search - Isabella

-

-

Isabella.

-
i was listening back to some malay rock songs.
the screams kinda get to me for SEARCH.

ahhhhh nice. shall have a good sleep. :)
-

circles, really.

there are things in life you can`t pretend to not know .

-
why did it ever happened?
now its getting back, stuck in my head.

i don`t want to play with the roots anymore.
-

laughter is the best medicine.

-
haha.. i`m still unwell
but,

thank you ! :)
-

recovering .

fast fast. i dont have much time.

heavy head, burning throat

sick sick sick. wo bu xi huan. :(

:)

-

-

movies spree.

-
How To Train Your Dragon yesterday.

Valkyrie today.
-
great movies. great time. watched online.
haha.
-

still not yawning .

-
been dead bored these days. been helping sis with her school project on Racial Harmony.
yeah i eventually got myself into the library to go and borrow books. that, is unlike me.
i don`t really read non-fiction books, whats more with history.
and i borrowed this book "Nadra Tragedy" and only read 2 pages so far since last 3-4 days?
whats more saddening is those 2 pages are just names of people that`ll be mentioned in the book.
=.="

its not hard to read a book for me. its just that the starting is always difficult but once indulged,
then there goes. i`ll read and read until finish.
still remember that time i read "Harry Potter & The Order of The Phoenix".
766 pages. done in 2 days. okay well... fiction mah. haha.
not to mention i was kinda Harry Potter fan. O.O
~

the weather has not been going easy on dear Earth. or maybe more specifically, Singapore.
those rainy days seems to be over. i miss them.
i remember that time it rained heavily. me & cousin ran out to bustop with our company's cardboard. =D rainy days no more. sad.
now sometimes i wont be wearing a shirt at home. freaaaaaaking waaarm!
LOL. now that i remember, the living room's wall fan kinda dismantled itself early morning.
best part, it was still spinning when it reverse engineered. haha.
i didnt bother checking out cos was dead tired.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yes, i miss school life.
humans can never be grateful with what they have.
see when we`re in school, we wanna get out. now that we`re out, we wanna go back in.
okay thats me. i know some would say the same, some won`t.
working life & school life. which is better?
i still prefer doing work WITH friends no matter how difficult. life`s just great that way. :)

a schoolmate ended her life last Wednesday. Melissa Toh. She`s everywhere on the net.
didnt really know her but she`s from TP design school hmm.
still young. so much life ahead of her. suicide should never be an option.
not to mention suicide is frowned upon by most religion. nevertheless, R.I.P.
hope you`ve found your safe haven. :)

look at that. its 3.27am. i`m supposed to be in bed. i was craving for it just now.
end up writing proper full sentences in my blog. how rare.
my national service letter has yet to come. & its just another waiting game.
we`ve got a problem here. my stomach`s asking for food. @.@
alright time to sleep. oh, i`m trying to grow a beard.
its not easy. pfft. off~
-

been digging for remixes .

-

-

walk in the orchid of mines .

-
restrictions are not limitations.
-

i was supposed to be reading my book .

-

-
haha. i remembered in Year 1 i listened to a couple of Jay Chou`s song.
can`t really remember who go make me listen.
-

i knew its coming. so i let it be.

-
terminated my Changi Cargo job due to a stupid reason.
no regrets.

i`m still a freelance designer in Emerge Creatives. ^^
i`m still employed. haha!
-

some things, hardly change .

-
keeping quiet doesn`t mean don`t care.
keeping quiet doesn`t mean consent.
keeping quiet doesn`t mean ignorance.
keeping quiet doesn`t mean defiance.
keeping quiet doesn`t mean anti-social.

some people talk big. mouth, full of thrash.
want to talk, talk properly.

cut down on profanities. it makes you sound worthless.
i don`t judge, i`m not God. i`m a mortal.

i desire to slowly end this.
problem is, i`m only human.

"talk good, or none at all."
-

where you step next now becomes a very big issue .

-
history leads me back to the same path.
just a different goal.


oh yes. now the design project is about to start.
& im still working my other job.

sleepless nights i guess? suffer, i asked for it. LOL.
-

a different Sunday .

-
yesterday dinner.

& then movie.



KICK-ASS! ^^
-

two-timer.

-
what happens you`re working for one boss, and another called you up for work? ^^

thank God its freelance.


"Mr Yap, tomorrow i got school meeting for graduation, i needa take off."

:)
-

makan & friends .

-
dinner @ jalan kayu with Regu, Shamir, Fifi and Jib.

after which passed by and looked at the matilda's house from far.
kinda give the creeps. hair can stand staring at it at night. lol.

then go another place that was said to be haunted.
some resort dont know what. ulu2.

after which dropped by punggol jetty.

and then home!

just a few hours of meetup, but great evening. ^^
-

say goodbye to my heart tonight .

-

-

audio .

-

-
"aku memang pencinta wanita
namun ku bukan buaya yang setia pada seribu gadis"
-
-
indon song. i rarely listen to malay songs.
to think back...

first i was indulged in reggae.
then kinda mesmerised by malay songs.
followed by a period of love songs. (LOL don`t laugh)
then listened to metal. but not really into those thrashing one.
finally up till now, songs with more meaning. mainly rock.
oh well rock is always my taste.

techno & all those trance not really preferred.
-
hmm hmm...
okay i admit this is a random post =D

heartbeat .

-
to feel pain,
to know we`re still alive.

we`re still humans.
we`re bound to make mistakes.
-

now the path`s too wide, too diverse ...

-
primary school 6 years, not much of a feeling because keep changing classes.
secondary school 5 years, starting to bond with true friends - on the road to maturing.
polytechnic 3 years, too fast because just when we`re about to know our friends better & get close,
we`re graduating.
-
i kept thinking about this at work.
bad bad bad.
-

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

-
soon as time passes,

our social group gets smaller.
our friends & us, drift away from each other, but not on purpose.

the only people you`ll most probably have would be your colleagues.
(for guys there`ll be your NS comrades first)

and after that when you start thinking of marriage, it`ll be a whole new level.
(yaa there`ll be the period of time of boy/girl-friending first)

then, you`ll spend most times with your family.
and then you have your in-laws too.

friends will be far.
yes they`ll be in your heart.
but you won`t be seeing them as often, as when during your school times.

will our jokes get cold?
i pray not.

cheers to good friends.
i`ll miss you people.
-

joy of my life .

what is your heart made of ?

--
the words on the helmet are - "biar miskin asal kaya hati".
(be it poor as long as have a good heart)

he`s a construction worker in Indonesia.
working in a risky profession.
-

there`s more than just thanking or blaming yourself .

-
life has been written for us.
-

sealed .

-
tomorrow start work.
ahh yes.
trading freedom for money.
-
o m g.

confused .

-
errrrrrrrrrrrrrr......?
-

i was careless, serious.

-
i got lost today, really.
-

before its too late .

-
touching back on what i`ve lost touch.
or my path will definitely stray.
-

ehhhh !

-
now that my lil brother kinda grown up.
he got new topic to talk with my dad - soccer.
i never talked of any topic with my dad before..................................................................
because i don`t follow soccer.

i should just be a girl.

=.="
=.="
=.="
=.="
=.="


JOKING! haha. nights.
-

make it life or death .

-
Everybody wants the glory
But you better remember
The fight is to the end
-

crazy about this !

-

EMBED-Amazing Rube Goldberg - Watch more free videos
-

twist .

-
prepare for the artillery.
-

the rasmus .

-

October & April
-

amaranth .

-
trust me,
there are alot of butterflies i want to change.
i`m going to plan my mistakes, my disasters.

i want to go throught this again.
with a different start, mid, and end.

maybe i could have prevented chaos.
no, i could avoid.

life`s a one way road.
i`m looking back now at a bumpy stretch.

i`m accepting it. its my life.


"Shamir, i should have heed your advice."
-
,

dance with the devil .

-
because the best for people is at most times bitter...
and some people don`t like that.

they prefer the bad candy.
-

easter .

-
mummies exhibition was quite a disappointment.



LOL SAMIR!



this throb on my temple better quiten down soon.
-

what`s your worth ?

-
they say carve your own path of life,
& not follow in people`s footsteps.

so would i?
-

time

-
too slow for those who wait
too swift for those who fear
too long for those who grieve
too short for those who rejoice
but
for those who love
time is eternity.
-

blanks .

-
its nice to just talk.
&
wander.
-

an end will give birth to a beginning .

-
Denial.
Anger.
Barganing.
Depression.
Acceptance.

(5 stages of Grief)



I don't remember one moment I tried to forget.
-

waking up late these days ...

-
yesterday had lunch at Sakura.
the Halal Thai Chinese restaurant.
Yong Woei, Kai Siong, Weihon, Liling, Shumin, Cihui, Peishi & Yvette.

90% of whats on the table... never eat before.
not malay kind of dish. i did eat anyway.
all foreign taste to my tongue, haha.
thanks Weihon for the transporting of products all around.


today foosball-ed again.
fun, forever. ^^
dinner-ed with Yong Woei & Weihon near my place here.
i need to plan what to do. plan.
staring at the wooden pieces wont do magic. lol.
-

really, designers don`t need beds .

--

this is dumb... nono this is smart!

-

y g o l o h c y s p

-

between boudaries .

-

along this line,
is where the mind and heart cannot sync.

-

are your hands faster than your eye ?

-
sesom foosball maniac.
keep on thrashing.
Selarang Camp train you for foosball. haha.

great.
-

nothing cuts .

-
there was this calm water.
&
there was this small drop of water.
-

no hope, no love, no glory

-

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"no happy ending..."

came on my mp3 on shuffle mode just now.
for dont know how many months it didnt pop up!

next trip .

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2nd week of April.

& Regu! no such thing as 24/7 standby! =.=
but again thanks for the fins. haha!
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meow next door .

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my neighbour`s furry cat. damn adorable!
came to me & my brother. ^^
got another one, white fur.
but never seen out of house. haha.

I WANT A CAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT!
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the split second mistake .

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its been some time since i last fall from my bike.
the falling part is thrilling.
the fallen part is =.=.

i got up in less than a second!
was at the junction mind you!
maximum paiseh.
hahahaha.
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there`s more to life .

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our life should be more meaningful.
its short, so make the best out of it.

Lutfi Aman Is your life all about relationship status iphones itouch blackberries alcohol clubs parties rumours gossips conforming fashion trends?

you got a point there, dude.
cheers to life.
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staying true .

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when i hurt a good friend, i feel hurt too.
i was taught that a good friend is as worthy as my life.
that is why i keep on protecting a sincere friendship to whatever extent it can be.

like i`ve mentioned before here.

and i know i can`t sleep well.
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fly, butter fly

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was creating something else, but drifted to this.
need some improvement but i like it.

queen of the night .

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nightblooming cereus blooms in one or two nights in a single year.
they stay open until early morning, and then will close till next year!
awesome moonflower.
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Face Down

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus | MySpace Music Videos
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shifted to temporary place .

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& the people who bought my previous house would actually only come in early April.
i thought they gonna come in today. =.=
well apparently shifting early is for a good cause.
later late2, more messed up.

so now i have no internet until late next week. =.=
now i`m online thanks to this fella who didnt secure his network with a passkey. haha.
whole house filled with boxes.
some still packed, some unpacked, some not meant to unpack until shifting to the other house.

btw our marble coffee table top shattered into half while the movers were unloading our stuffs from their lorry. was my mum`s favourite furniture. she was sad & angry at the same time. paid the movers half of what they should get. the movers bring back the table`s top back to their boss. so far no news yet. if everythin`s okay then my mum would pay full. anyway the cost of that table itself is double of the fee we should pay them for moving. sad case.

damn tiring helping with the shiftings.
anyway was assisting Sam through the night yesterday chiong his P3.
damn lol.
i doze off alot of times. alot.

"eh not easy to wake you up, you know"
LOL.

just now morning like circus clown i carry his chair as he ride his bike to school.
we caught much attention from people while on the way.
and Sam just keep laughing at me because i give that =.= face.
sucky. haha.

not feeling rather well now.
pretty heaty in the inside.
need to bloat more water. @.@

now i`m further away from school.
and im no longer the nearest. haha!
can no longer walk to school. it`ll take a loooooong time.
okay well anyway school`s pretty much over. hmm hmm.

dont know what to do now.
mum`s doing the laundry and cooking.
my sis looking out the window.
brother asleep on the couch. (when he sleep, he looks more innocent.) LOL!
dad`s outside, buying dinner later.
me... blogging. haha.

there`s a few more stuffs left back in our previous house.
my HP lappy still there.. my bike.. err.. i dont know what else.
gonna take them someday before april.
*yawn*

btw i slept alot just now. haha.
to the extend i`m still tired now. zzz.

nothing much to do now...
sian sian.
maybe should go Teo`s house play his PS3.
LITTLE BIG PLANET!
actually played on my cousin`s 360 before.
i love that game. damn adorable the characters. haha.
like voodoo doll. ^^
customizable!



:)
okay i think enough for today`s post.
i don`t know when was the last time i entered a long post like this.
haha.
anyway looking forward to the next cycling trip.
longer, wider space route. =D
wanna join in? heh.

shall go watch Heroes. ^^
ciaos!
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clearing up .

misunderstanding is a bond's worst enemy.

yes. im at fault too.
& i apologize for ranting with assumptions.

re-create ?

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shifted some stuffs over to temporary house.
not a bad place to stay in for 4 months.
and the place im really shifting is just next to the temporary place, how convenient. haha.

more importantly, that whole area is where i grew up as a child.
feeling nostalgic.
i saw the minimart i always go to go get sweets and toys.
i saw the coffeeshop that i never went before though i lived there last time.
i saw the kindergarten me & my sis attended.

somehow i feel excited to live back in the place i grew up.
but when i got home after shifting the boxes & stuffs,
i still feel that my current home is still the best.

wednesday last day i`ll be in this house.
pretty much memories.
good & bad.

oh well.
feeling a little ...
hmm hmm.

anyway, looking forward to tomorrow's night cycling.
hope it`ll be a great one.
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i won`t leave & let you fall behind .

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i realised we need both fantasy & reality in our lives.

one keeps us going on, one keeps us stay on track.

lately, i`ve been feeling that i`m straying away, losing myself a little more each day.
or perhaps, its the other way round.
4th.

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quiet, very quiet.

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tears don`t fall.
they crash.
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crap .

and my head goes throbbing on...
zzz...

i can see it in your eyes .

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i keep holding onto you
but i can`t bring you back to life
sing the anthem of the angels
and say the last goodbye
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breakingbenjamin - anthemoftheangels

random topic .

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"yeah, some girls light make up can already.
some overkill then dont look like themselves."

haha. no need laar...
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dear agony,

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amazing song.
a must listen from BB.


"somewhere far beyond this world,
i feel nothing anymore."
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and as i was packing up my room, i discover many historical items...

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cycling through Changi Beach Park. more photos up at fb.


LOL.


haha. entry list for Os. cool~


my first D&T model. Sec 3. Candle Holder. haha.


first gen Game Boy! dad bought it for my good results.
primary sch time. ^^


happy 21st to me. left: PID friends. right: sec sch friends.


20th birthday card for me from the gang of six. haha.


okay i forgot which teacher wrote this. ><


from Ivy, Sec 5, last few days in school. haha.


Camp Radical. Adik got alot of comments about this.
irritating her =.=
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TTL .

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before anything, let me say first,
only the tune win me. haha.

finally got time to post up.

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final photo not with me yet. ^^

the stars are hidden on a rainy night .

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you know its there, always there.
just that you can`t see it.

i chose to believe.
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*yawns*

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surprisingly, i quite expected this would happen.
sad? i`m trying not to think of it.

do whatever it takes.
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see this .

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finally, i am growing tired of all this.
finally, i am beginning to see what i couldn`t.
finally, i am taking my first step for the last.

not by choice but ...

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because if we were strangers,
it is easier to say goodbye.
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a million little pieces .

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what can i say here?
hmm.

bye.
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reverberating footsteps .

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Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said.

That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

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Relient K - Who I Am Hates Who I`ve Been

the ink`s running dry on this brush .

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each breath is getting slower.
but i`m still not thinking.

why?
God knows.
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3rd Day of CNY .

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FYP, can you like just... commit suicide?

screw the documentations!
my model got problems here & there.
realising my 3D missing a lot of details.

i never wished to be the best.
i just dont want to disappoint my parents.
i just want to walk away with that piece of paper in hand.

and not look back.

as a matter of fact, i would.
because i will miss my friends.

some negativeness in my mind now, but guess i`ll just skip `em.

i need to rest soon.
its not just me, its my laptop too.

hunger.
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Happy Chinese New Year !

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to all Chinese people of the world.

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this blinding light .

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stretch out your hands.

in school on a sunday, believe it .

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major part cleared.
hope the tailor does a good job.

i reached the end of my attention span to work.
drifting away now...
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money flies again .

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my fyp just got expensive by $170 today.
pvc leather & webbing.

pain.
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baking knife & PU foam . (edited)

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thanks Wei Zhen.
thanks Sing Mei.
thanks Cheris.
thanks Jia Yuan.
thanks Yu Feng.
thanks Wan Kee.
thanks Wei Ling.
thanks Zoot.
thanks Adik.

:)

tomorrow, or never.
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don`t .

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don`t cover my mouth,
i want to say what my heart says.

will i close this door behind me?

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secrets away .

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have you ever felt so angry & disappointed,
but at the same time commiserating,

for someone that you cared,
who made a grave mistake.

i say this feeling,
kills.



Samir is entering workshop late tomorrow because he will oversleep,
which is bad.
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to save a life,

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how far would you go
how much would you risk
how hard would you fight

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don`t forget .

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great music video.
so beautifully sad.
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:(

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i stared at this blank space for 5 minutes,
not knowing what to write.
and now still i dont know what to write.

too much thoughts now.
my brain is wazzy woozy.

should i eat ice cream?
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lower cases & capitals .

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some painful words we can`t put in mouth,
we ink them on paper?

music evokes my emotion.
on progressive rock now.
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intensive .

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don`t mention.
just keep it quiet.
thinking about the things you can`t change,
is just a dread.

if peter pan could fly while thinking of happy thoughts,
how about us?

& the night is pretty, again.
just that this time, with an annoying companion.
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senses fail .

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so follow me into the sun.
and i will bleed, the poisons dry.

do you see?
the life I lead?
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where`s the Cumulonimbus ?

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your heart.
for what purpose does it beat?
my soul`s getting weary,
from something unseen.

pfft. if the weather is not enough,
guess who i saw today!
in that ghostbuster van... O.O

no, im not excited.
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its a thousand to one, & a million to two.

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sometimes, i just don`t know what i`m doing.
my thoughts are vague now.

the night is pretty.
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you`ll be in my heart .

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a song by Phil Collins,
for movie Tarzan.

love it! nostalgic!
makes me happy & sad at the same time...
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splatters of stain.

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i despise people who are insensitive towards others` feelings.
take a shovel, dig the ground six feet deep & go get comfortable inside.

i have no reason to not like you, but you hurt my friend`s feelings.
so yeah.

does being good get you neglected, and being bad get you acknowledged?
like the saying the bad guys gets the girls? pfft.

humans are afraid of laws, but not of their creator.
and there`s a difference between fear, & respect.

if people keep telling themselves the world`s gonna end, why are they continuing sinning?
is it because there`s the mentality that there`s always tomorrow for repent?
but what if tomorrow never comes?

we`re occupied with our busy lives, sometimes we miss those little lovely moments with our love ones.

the invention of money was a grave mistake humanity made.

why is there even a need for a first place?
it creates opponents which in turn creates challenges which in turn creates victories & defeats.
and to some at the end, they create revenge & jealousy.



i didnt intend to write this post.
even if i did i thought i could stop at the first sentence.
bleah.
too long.
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