#19.

as i was pulling out the lighter from my bag's pocket, i could not help but to take out my ring. or rather my part of our couple ring. it has been sitting in there since the day we parted. well not exactly. the time when we met for a movie just a week later, i still wore it.

when i met up with you i eyed on your finger to see if you still wore yours. but you didn't. so i removed it quickly into my pant's pocket. at that moment i felt stupid and greatly heartbroken. i am not sure why but i kept thinking that we could come back together. at that point of time the secrets were still kept hidden. i was very happy that day mainly because we were going to watch a movie together. it was a disaster for me.

it is hard to not be a couple when you already once were. after that day my heart sank into the dark abyss. i hurt myself for even thinking there could be a chance for us. i paid the price. and i still am.