both eyes closed.

i was a very cautious person.
there were always safety nets in everything i am about to do or would be doing.
while i know things doesn't always go as planned, i made sure its as less risky as possible.
more often that not i tend to overpack myself.
not just for me but others too.
i am well prep-ed.

but when i started to be with you, i stopped.
i knew the risks.
i knew the tough road.
you knew it too.
our love was magical.
i no longer thought of fixing that safety net.
i just want to jump with you.
into whatever.
anywhere, anyhow.
i no longer look behind me.
i never doubted us.
never doubted you.
never doubted our love.
we were going to make it.
together.

we held each other's hands.
stood at the edge.
close our eyes.
and jump.

except that i'm the only one who did.
you were still up on the edge with one eye open.
and me.
i fell.
alone.
into the abyss.
and there was no safety net there to catch me.