some things are still meant to be the same

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yesterday was the last day of comDI module.

was damn nice to have finished the project off.

worked with the best group EVER!

tutored by the best lecturer EVER!

seriously comDI is really fun.

will miss it. dang!

anyway im enjoying myself now to my maximum capability.

because next week on till end of march, will be kind of a hell period.

there will be the P1 (the major end-year project fro year ones) & HCD (human-centred design).

ooo greatness! good luck to us all.

yeah. right so today was the release results for O levels.

i dunno why i also like somehow excited.

theres good news.. theres bad.

overall, thats life.

yepp.

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hmm i duno what to say already.

anyway chinese new year,

my family & 2 others will be having bbq pit at east coast!

woohooo.

camping overnight there.

great! sweet! damn! shiok!

im so looking forward to it.

need to do some shopping too before that.

to buy all the necessary equipments & fishing gears.

yay money fly... nono.

actually money burn. sounds better.

cos its really fast.

haha crap. im high again.

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"Okay i dont say but i still want to say. I really thought its funny to have that feeling, alright.

But! I really thought its something sensible. However it was taken account into that the line had been drawn & to cross it, I will have to risk everything I ever built: reputation, respect, truth, vows, and most excruciatingly painful, friendship. All will just have to give way for something totally uncertain & unpredictable, but is bound to brighten up & warmth this damp, cold life of mine.

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I have watched. I have learnt. The cruelty of this immortal feeling faced by those who have survived the haunting sense, unbearable to dismiss it without standing up & challenging the truth. For I, I will not easily succumb to this emotional force that warms the heart with such tender & comforting feel, only to infect it with a never-ending tragedy. Somehow, I will come to understand, that some things are forever changing, while others, are meant to be the same til' end."

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inBlack&Red

` samarra .

ONCE again,

with FEELING...

warmth of a saturday morning

damn its so shiokk to wake up late today.
haha.
been waking up early and sleeping late past week.
schoolwork have been quite a bulk but its kinda fun with friends.

yesterday, my project group (me, siyi, wei zhen & keli) went out early to the market opp our school.
actually got 2 more groupmates (xing er & siong).
but xing er got her CDS in the morn & Siong woke up late.
so only we 4 went marketing. haha.
we were working on the project that requires you to design something for the >60 people.
we decided to do on the trolley the aunties usually brings to the market.
actually its not the real deal of making a prototype.
just a normal project.
and so we decided to interview those using those trolleys.
it was a shock to see different variety.
super & wet market we ventured in, in the early morn of friday.
hunting for those using the trolleys and asking them questions about the trolley they are using.
the problems, the good.

it was a tiring thing but its sure fun.
talking to strangers, communicating in the market.
but of cos not all wanted to be questioned.
some shy, some ran off, and one particularly had hearing problems.
haha. damn fun.

when we had had enough information to back our project work, we went to school.
once we reach school, we were really freaking tired.
sleepy, fatigue.
still we continue on the project work for that day our tutor wants to see our prgress since the past 2 days.
the whole group there, pushing on to do the work.

later in the afternoon i left for Friday prayers after finish with arranging the research-ed pictures in Illustrator.

i came back near 1430 hrs.
ohh God i was seriously tired.
i nearly slept in the way back to school.
i haven had my lunch.
waa sian.
so got back, they briefed me what has happened while i was gone.
we finished up and head to class.

our turn, we present.. blabla.
Bina (tutor) said our presentation was clear & good.
Bina so good!
haha.
that tells us that we're moving in the right track & things are the way they are supposed to be.

after that, we dispersed.
i met up with siong, bryan, kenneth, alvin, samuel & yuki.
we go eat PRATA!!!
now thats nice to hear after my stomach grumbles.
finally im goin to lunch at 1630 hrs.
lol.
but siong & samuel wanna go home.
so we let them off this time. haha.
the rest headed to PRATA SHOP opp our school.

i ordered 2 kosong, 1 egg & tried BLACK SPIDER (rootbeer with strawberry ice-cream topped).
dammit its so goooooooooooood!
i was feeling so high.
other than me, bryan & alvin tried the drink also.
woohooo.
so greatt.
love it.
if only every friday we can do things like this.
just chill... yeahh.

after that we go back school play CS & DoTA.
haha. all the way til' night.
the we part off for home.
today (i mean yesterday, Friday) was great.
happy day! :)


inBlack&Red
` samarra .

TGIF

THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY!!!
waaa. finally the weekends are here.
this one week have been a total frustration doing comDI (communicating design ideas).
me & my friends thought that the assignment was quite complex & difficult to do.
but in fact, it is simple.
i dunno why sometimes the brain just cant project the question in an easy way.

every single day go school damn freaking early to do research and do the assignment.
i can just go school at normal time but my comp at home is near-wreckage therefore school comp & internet are more zai!


go to school early, come back home late. standard operation procedure (SOP).
the evenings are usually spent on playing game. an act of de-stressing.

today 2nd day of open house.
open house still got lesson. in fact just consultation with tutor.
(Bina (tutor) said my assignment is good & told me im hardworking! woohooo.
not to show off laa. just that im happy that my sleepless nights do pay off.)
so many people.
with guides & student leaders cheering at the entrance of their school...
overwhelming battalion of secondary schol students streaming in through corridors...
and basically loud blaring music echoing thru the entire school.

i didnt check the open house that much anyway.
just notice while going to print documents which is near the cheering guides.

the cheering really brought back memories of camping for the first time in TP. FOC camp.
the most damn wonderful one. i really cant forget it. so memorable.
and plus the School of Desgin Radical Camp too. shiok...

what else to sayy.. oh damn right.
i was somehow happy & sad too today.
those who knew, knows.
things happen. what must happen, will happen.
haizxs...




inBlack&Red
` samarra .

happy birthday to me :)

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happy birthday to me !

im 19 ! :)

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haha. damn im so euphoric.

seriously, im so much happier than i am since months ago.

my heart gave a twist today.

it feels so different so suddenly.

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feels like a near-dying flower,

finally tasted a drop of water after a prolonged drought.

like the saying goes:

sometimes, its the small things that make a huge change/difference.

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as for me,

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to see you smile is truly enough to lift a lifetime's sorrow ;)

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for every tear you shed,

an angel will fall from heaven.

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<3

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inBlack&Red

` samarra .

thats it ...

after this day, my entries may be random and seldom.

because tmrw i will start school.

yepp. a notice. :) seeya around.

happy new year :)

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so it is.
just like any other last moments of the year.
i would always reminisce the times i spent with the cherished ones.
they are the people who made 2007 a happy year for me.
to think back, sometimes its kind of sad to leave the year,
to think again, its kinda happy to have lived to another new year.
sometimes i feel that time is evil.
to have robbed me off of my special moments in life.
and sometimes too, i feel that time is good.
to have heal the invisible wounds & scars in the heart as it passes quickly.
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euphorias. damnations. i can never escape from them as they pass me by,
whether i like it, or not.
for me yesterday as i came back from the class outing,
(well actually i was planning to go for a countdown with some of my friends
but the plan was a failure)
i came home & just throw myself in one corner,
and began continue reading the HALO (the FLOOD) novel which i borrowed from ridhwan.
i dont give a damn about that one second that blew off 2007 & embraced 2008.
i really dont have the mood.
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so as the time was grasping for 0000 hrs, i cannot help but lay down the book,
and let my mind open up to memories of the year that is about to die off.
for dont know what fuck, i got emotional.
i bit my lips, and kneel down on my bed.
wishing to scream out loud if i could.
i was furious. and again, for dont know what fuck.
"this isn't the way 2007 ends. this should not be."
it was just a thought that got me thinking more what i have failed to complete for my life
in that current year.
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and without noticing the time, the new year was born.
i didnt care.
i look out the window and saw a star in the pitch black sky.
alone. that was what i thought it might have been.
so lonely off in the vast empty space.
but when i stared just to the left, i spotted another star.
i smiled.
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i wanted to laugh, but somehow i felt that it was just so inappropriate.
reason: in life, being alone is a total screwed up thing to ever be in.
and please, im not talking about having a bf or gf.
though my words relatively linked to that topic.
im talking about true friends.
about how they are there for you no matter what.
whether in deep shit, high fun, or just whatever.
losing them feels like losing a part of you.
and you tried hard to keep them.
just to be with them makes you happy.
love & trust bond you all together.
the willingness to sacrifice for the person somehow felt strong.
true friendship blossomed.
and betrayal... is the last thing you will ever. want. to think. of.
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thats all that just spurred out of me.
happy 2008 to all.
may you have a blissful & meaningful year ahead.
:)
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inBlack&Red
inSorrow&Happiness
my love is waiting to turn your tears to roses
` samarra .

Mr. Tan Retirement Party

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yesterday, 281207, was Mr. Tan retirement party.
okay he was our Design & Technology (D&T) teacher.
though he didnt teach my side of the class, he was always there whenver you need him.
for advise on materials and machines. or just to talk crap.
okaay actually he kinda talk loooong to someone whenever he/she made a mistake.
kinda a nag type thing. but he is funny.
most of the times, he knocked a hammer (okay no, its actually a mallet) down on the table and asked everybody in the workshop to gather round.
and then he will shout.. "WHO TAKE MY KEY?!?!"
well sometimes the key is actually just dangling by his belt.
L O L.
that is Mr. Tan.
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for me & my friends, sometimes we do make him panic. kinda joke.
theres once he asked us to get him food.
he gave us a 10 dollar bill, we left.
we came back without one of our friend (who was given the money & responsibility in buying him his food).
and the rest of us told Mr. Tan that the fella had run away with his money.
its just a simple stupid joke laa.
he then give the shocked face & responded.
"ahh? thats my only 10 dollar?
and he continued giving the shocked face.
lol. we are like damn basket ahh.
then the 'missing' fella came back with the food & his change.
HAHA.
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okok. so yesterday me, Ridhwan, Shamir & Fa'iz rendezvoused at Mr. Prata.
an indian coffeeshop near our school. secondary school. previous school. dunman. haha.
when i came, the rest were there already. drinking. i mean not alcohol laa. normal drinks.
i came. just stone there. all stoned.
then finally one call made a difference.
a call made from Hari. waa long time never see that fella.
everyone was surprised that he was coming for the party too.
he met up with us and we chit chat abit before leaving for the party.
we reached school and theres quite a number of people there already.
alumnis, teachers, current students. blabla.
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all was waiting for the arrival of Mr. Tan.
met Ms. Kwek first. a couple of old friends. yepp.
when Mr. Tan arrived in a car, everybody filed up to the sides to create a path for him to walk.
principal, vice-principal, teachers, students.. everyone just applauded.
Mr. Tan was seen smiling. surprised by the no. of people who came to his retirement party.
he spotted Hari. his 'favourite' student who went to play volleyball with his key. haha.
and so Hari shook hand with Mr. Tan.
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we then proceed to Design Nexus. a place where artefacts are displayed, ideas & projects sprawled all over the walls. some wise words here & there.
its kind of a cosy place. during our graduating year, we spent most of our time there doing our folios.
yepp. memories.
but for that particular day, the place and the area around it are decorated for Mr. Tan.
candle lights lit up the darkness. but of cos certain lamps are switched on.
we were ushered to seat down cos theres gonna be some talk before dinner begins.
me & the usual peeps sat out in the open while the rest sat indoors.
declined to sit indoors.
"we outdoor ah! :)"
the talk begun. blabla...
just when the talk finish, dinner started. rain starts to pelt down.
we took back our 'outdoor' description and bugged in to get the food.
a buffet. great food laa. seriously better than at our prom. sheesh.
we took our food and settled them in the Nexus.
more of our friends then came.
but theres still a disappointing number who didnt turn up.
well they sure have something up.
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we ate finish and snap some pictures of ourselves.
after dinner, a few more speeches abt Mr. Tan.
then the man himself deliver a speech too.
kinda sad we aint gona see him again in dunman.
yeahh.. he is one hell of a great teacher.
we took some pictures with him before bading farewell.
and with much food left, ta pao-ing (i duno how to spell correctly) is highly recommended.
LOL.
but before we went off, we drop by the construction site in our school.
we feel like doing something stupid.
we decided to go on top the excavator & take a picture.
but we had difficulty trying to get a good pic.
cos who is going to take the photo for us.
anyway we dunno how deep is the trouble if we are going to get caught.
just when we were trying with the camera, the sch janitor walked pass infront of us.
he didnt notice us.
we decided to hide.
Hari hushed us. "shh shh". and then he kicked a metal rod. *clank*
Hari u're damn good. haha.
anyway we didnt get into trouble.
Shamir & Ridhwan got the uncle to help us snap a picture or two.
yepp. we managed to get the pictures. thanks to the uncle.
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then walking to the gate, we decided to climb the school field fence.
all tried. okaay its damn pain for the fingers.
bloody hell ahh. if not can take picture again. haha.
so we left for home.
hmm guess thats all.
pictures go look in my friendster ah.
i dont like uploading here. ;)
okaayy.
tmrw going fishing with the pasir ris guys.
shamir, regu & hari.
hahaa.
rigght. seeya!
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` samarra .

ROOM SHIFT.

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thats it.

im going to switch rooms with my sis.

basically the purpose was to enable my lil bro sleep with me.

and that is becos he is growing up and of cos you dont expect a growing kid sleeping with his mummy.

oh wait. i didnt explain the vital part.

my sis room is much more bigger than mine.

so that is the main thing why my lil bro can sleep with me.

which also means sharing a room.

and which, i dont like.

especially, with my lil brother.

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first of all this morning.

woke up early to the shifting noises of furniture dragged out from my sis's room to the hall.

we are going to paint my sis room to my colour.

if possible i want red but my mum is against it for some reasons.

so no choice pick green. spring green. kinda lime-ish.

anyway this room gonna receive sunlight. not the heat laa. the light.

better than my previous room that is dark.

dark & damp. as described by my lovely mother everytime she sees my room messy.

now i get a refreshing room! woohooo.

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okok. so after shower, breakfast, we started painting.

at first fun ahh. ok to me its fun.

but after a few runs on the wall, i begin to get tired.

basically the arm laa.

the painting job drifted into the afternoon.

my dad went out to get one more bucket of paint. tin? bucket?

nevermind.

i took a rest. LOL. watched TV.

my sis was goin on strong helping with the paint.

really. she did ALOT more than me.

hmm...

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alright so when my dad got back, we dine in for lunch.

yepp.

mee soto & soto. rice. some gravy. dunno laa suddenly today alot of food.

ohh no. not celebrating christmas. haha!

wth.

okaaay.

so after the lunch we resumed back to painting.

goin to finish real soon.

later my aunt called my mum.

she's coming over!

woohooo. the whole family.

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they came quite fast.

along with them is whole loads of food & junks.

haha. picnic basket.

i tink they brought rojak.

cos later at dinner, rojak appeared out of my family menu for the day.

ohh yaa. they stayed till dinner.

by then, the paint had dried & we are starting to shift the furnitures.

my uncle helped out.

lucky got assistance.

if not i think we gonna take a long time.

THANKS UNK !!!

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well now as i enter this entry for my blog, im sitting in a new room.

breathing different air. seeing different views.

ohh later i gonna sleep in my same old bed but in a different room.

lol. im so freaking happy dunno why.

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i hope i will love it here.

and hope my sis love my previous dark room also.

haha.

okaay. guess thats all.

seeya!

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inBlack&Red
` samarra .

christmas eve.

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today... i mean yesterday. monday 24 dec.

me, ridhwan, najib & shamir went out for a movie.

we were to meet up at harbourfront mrt station.

1600 hrs.

the plan was to watch at vivo city.

ohh the movie title we haven decide yet.

i met up with ridhwan first.

that is at kembangan.

he had to settle something first.

by that its already 1600.

or plus plus. haha.

but we DON'T believe we are late.

because timings are always set early so late comers can make it in time.

yaa. haha.

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on towards harbourfront.

lotsa people. totally.

christmas eve whaat.

saw shamir at the top.

no sign of jib.

i sneaked up behind him and do what i always do.

'slit' the throat from behind.

in Halo 3 its ASSASSINATE.

oh well i dunno how to spell.

looks like too many 'S's there.

nevermind.

anyway his reaction today was almost nothing.

cos he was sick. kind of.

haha. red eyes. shagged.

we thought of getting the movie tickets first.

so we left the station for GV Vivo.

along th way jib called in & said he is in vivo already.

good!

anyway we met him at GV.

outside area.

the place was damn packed.

skimmed thru the TV & all the tickets left that is available was night ones.

sianned out. totally.

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we knew its christmas eve.

but somehow we came to watch movie in a 'hot' place (Vivo) like this.

haha. crap.

then the two started the bullshit arguing.

ohh its jib & shamir.

as usual.

not serious argument.

its jib's argument.

its meant to be serious.

but to laugh at, at the end.

haha. damn funny to see them like that.

so we decided to go to Great World City instead.

took 65 from outside Vivo.

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damn Great World City is really great.

cos not much people yet.

anyway the place is kinda ulu ulu.

yeahh. abit of isolated.

ohh tickets are still hell lot available.

many booked for the night ones.

so we decided to watch 'I AM LEGEND'.

the one starring Will Smith. yepp.

thats also after much discussion by the two councils.

haha! riiight.

we still got an hour left.

so we went to eat at mac first.

after which we decided not to buy popcorns & drinks for the movie.

anyway its really a waste of money to buy movie junks.

i mean, food.

serious! okok.

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so on for the movie.

the movie was kinda slow at the beginning.

but after mid, its kinda great.

somewhat like 28 days/weeks later & Resident EvilS! (the no.2, apocalypse & extinction.)

yepp. a pinch of funny moments. Will Smith right.

the ending part is kinda sad. kind OF.

anway watch the movie & u will noe.

great movie for me. not the greatest. but great. yaa.

not for family ahh. i mean the kids wont know a thing about wads happening.

alright. hmm.

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after the movie, jib part off first.

he goin to orchard meet his friend.

the rest followed ridhwan.

he buying shoes for Futsal.

damn long time never play soccer.

i mean for me ever since i stepped into poly.

same for shamir. my 'bro'.

the one with the H.

so after that we took bus back to somewhere.

i mean a place near dhoby ghaut i tink.

damn did i even spell the station name correctly?

dhoby ghaut. ghout. =.=

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so from there took train back home.

yeahh. thats it. thats all.

but this friday & sat.

AND new year's eve there will be more outings!!!

wooohoooooo.

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okay laa.

goodnight to you all.

MERRY XMAS to all those celebrating.

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inBlack&Red

` samarra .