today i woke up like arnd 10 plus near 1100. siong called saying the job his friend had offered wants us in for an interview. so i agreed and get going. i was actually kinda tired dunno why. maybe becos i slept quite late yesterday. dun even remember what i was doing.
so anyway i took a long mrt ride to ang mo kio. becos the workplace is near there. the ride near an hour but its okay. i pass time listening music. a PSP would be better. haha. anyway when i reach amk station, i met up with siong. and wow. amk hub is so cool. cos i never been there before. yea. so cool the interchange. air con. all air con. zai! we took a feeder bus and head to a warehouse. met the manager of the company. its an old lady. oops :X what i mean is that she's a lady of age. yea.
wait, let me take in a contextual knowledge of mine into this matter. i learnt about LEADERSHIP & CHARACTER in school as an extra thing. so from what i've learnt managers are not leaders. hahaha! so she is just some person who takes charge of a monotonous work. not someone who takes lead in a situation. hmm. not to criticize la. im just using my knowledge for some purposes. haha. no point to learn & keep it inside right? yeah.
back back. so after that intervierw thing we went for lunch. i msg-ed cheryl to join for lunch. she lives near amk hub. but she have already eaten & is going out. so okae then. me & siong went for mac. haizz. $$$ fly. i think this is the ferst time in my entire life i eaten so much of fast food. but my weight is forever like that. sian-ed. yaa so after that we disperse. i wanna try taking the bus ride home. waa the heavy rain just make it more fun. i dunno y. it feels so shiok. i sat at the top of a double-decker bus. saw a few lightnings struck by in a distance. the trembling sounds of thunder. it feels so cool and again, i dunno y. oh btw im one of those people who just loves the rain. haha. feeling so emo just now in the bus. eeergh. cos i feel so alone. HAHA! ok. pls. im not those kind of emotional freaks. right.
so back at home. nthg much. played xbox again. and then. dinner. and then now. blogging. i just hope i get that job. so i can atleast spend some quality time making money. hehe. yeah. and i badly want to go fishing. i NEED to go fish. the fishes miss me! yahh! =.= so well. guess thats all. til next entry. haha.
inBlack&Red,
` samarra .
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
the immense stress over. the immense freedom comes.
so yesterday was like the ending of the 2nd block. the feeling of having it over was so shiok. for weeks i have been in a state of restless nights and increasing stress. now i feel so light. it feels just like the ending of O levels. damn holidays are here!!! a month. so im making sure i used the WHOLE of it for fun. im not sure if i can get any work.
okae anyway lets talk about the period of utter nightmares. its not that i want to but i just wanna say what i felt. so those were the days in the past week whereby me & my friends rushing to finish of our 3d model sculpture. me & kenneth started of late becos we slacked (not that much). but we came up with a number of designs for approval. last 2 nights i think, my friends came over to finish off their sculptures. for your info im one of the nearest who stay near school. so bryan, kai siong and kenneth come over to do. as usual, ken is the regular stay-over person so my parents like already know him so well as the guy who practises 'dead sleeping'. he's funny at times but when he is in a bad mood, he IS really one farker. haha. no offense but thats the truth. my sis says he is funny.
so that faithful night, we cheong-ed like hell. later into the night, bryan & siong left cos they cant stay over. ken stayed and brooded over his design. he barely started the night before the deadline. i tried to help him but he continuosly say that its okae and nevermind and that he dont give a shit. i was like a single light bulb in an enormous cave. a hope dampened. so i said nothing. the following morning (day of deadline), i woke up to find siong sitting at my house dining table. lol. he had told me he will come back in the morning with bryan to take his stuffs. i was sleeping on the couch and i bet this is the ferst time my friends see me sleep. ken was sleeping on another couch. bryan came later. and my living room floor was a mess. i was just too tired to wake up. however the presence of my friends that morning gave me the 'aura' (haha) to get going.
i finished bathing and ken is still drooling. nobody can get him up. surprisingly he woke up after our many attempts. and ONE thing. he had not had a single part of his model done. so i thought that after i finish mine in school. and so that WAS what i thought. afta he washed up (barely) and after abit of cleaning up (my mum says she will settle the mess), we went out with all our stuffs and hailed a cab to school. to say, our school is less than a couple o km from my house but well... with so many stuffs to carry, boarding a bus will just be a bonus to blockage. in school again we cheong-ed. later we had lunch and it rained. ken gave up on his model and went off somewhere. i called him, he said he's in the library. i dunno wad to say. i said earlier that i will help him when i finish wif my model but it seems that my model is not also done. i actually assembled it in the display room itself. i just hoped that mine can get a decent grade. the initial design is so different from the outcome. but well, you know, things change.
after that, we had our peer marking and some stupid sucky survey. honestly i think that this module is the most fun & interesting. the ONLY thing that it sucks in is the limited time. that make the whole thing sucks in a way. well. i really felt bad for ken cos i cant help him. he didnt blame me either cos he really dont want to do any shit. so after all those, i came down to the workshop back with ivy and siyi to clear up our left-over stuffs. on the last day of every block, things are everywhere, borrowed, lent. so our stuffs some are gone but we found new stuffs. haha. standard. later i went to DoTA with the rest of the guys and bade farewell to the 2 girls. its time to have some serious DoTA!!! haha. FUN FUN FUN. oh and i had a fast dinner with sam at mac. sad siong cant join. he was home right after the peer marking.
all of us felt so good that another block has ended. a nightmare is gone, for the time being. im here now a happy person, i think. life is still long (but if God speaks short, and short it will be). so while we live, love the ones we love. care for them while they are still breathing. for all the mistakes that i had made in life, i just cant forgave myself in doing them though certainly they are forgiven. i will miss you my friends. i shall now say goodbye. til then, see you.
i never want to fall again, to fall in love.
a life in Black&Red.
` samarra .
okae anyway lets talk about the period of utter nightmares. its not that i want to but i just wanna say what i felt. so those were the days in the past week whereby me & my friends rushing to finish of our 3d model sculpture. me & kenneth started of late becos we slacked (not that much). but we came up with a number of designs for approval. last 2 nights i think, my friends came over to finish off their sculptures. for your info im one of the nearest who stay near school. so bryan, kai siong and kenneth come over to do. as usual, ken is the regular stay-over person so my parents like already know him so well as the guy who practises 'dead sleeping'. he's funny at times but when he is in a bad mood, he IS really one farker. haha. no offense but thats the truth. my sis says he is funny.
so that faithful night, we cheong-ed like hell. later into the night, bryan & siong left cos they cant stay over. ken stayed and brooded over his design. he barely started the night before the deadline. i tried to help him but he continuosly say that its okae and nevermind and that he dont give a shit. i was like a single light bulb in an enormous cave. a hope dampened. so i said nothing. the following morning (day of deadline), i woke up to find siong sitting at my house dining table. lol. he had told me he will come back in the morning with bryan to take his stuffs. i was sleeping on the couch and i bet this is the ferst time my friends see me sleep. ken was sleeping on another couch. bryan came later. and my living room floor was a mess. i was just too tired to wake up. however the presence of my friends that morning gave me the 'aura' (haha) to get going.
i finished bathing and ken is still drooling. nobody can get him up. surprisingly he woke up after our many attempts. and ONE thing. he had not had a single part of his model done. so i thought that after i finish mine in school. and so that WAS what i thought. afta he washed up (barely) and after abit of cleaning up (my mum says she will settle the mess), we went out with all our stuffs and hailed a cab to school. to say, our school is less than a couple o km from my house but well... with so many stuffs to carry, boarding a bus will just be a bonus to blockage. in school again we cheong-ed. later we had lunch and it rained. ken gave up on his model and went off somewhere. i called him, he said he's in the library. i dunno wad to say. i said earlier that i will help him when i finish wif my model but it seems that my model is not also done. i actually assembled it in the display room itself. i just hoped that mine can get a decent grade. the initial design is so different from the outcome. but well, you know, things change.
after that, we had our peer marking and some stupid sucky survey. honestly i think that this module is the most fun & interesting. the ONLY thing that it sucks in is the limited time. that make the whole thing sucks in a way. well. i really felt bad for ken cos i cant help him. he didnt blame me either cos he really dont want to do any shit. so after all those, i came down to the workshop back with ivy and siyi to clear up our left-over stuffs. on the last day of every block, things are everywhere, borrowed, lent. so our stuffs some are gone but we found new stuffs. haha. standard. later i went to DoTA with the rest of the guys and bade farewell to the 2 girls. its time to have some serious DoTA!!! haha. FUN FUN FUN. oh and i had a fast dinner with sam at mac. sad siong cant join. he was home right after the peer marking.
all of us felt so good that another block has ended. a nightmare is gone, for the time being. im here now a happy person, i think. life is still long (but if God speaks short, and short it will be). so while we live, love the ones we love. care for them while they are still breathing. for all the mistakes that i had made in life, i just cant forgave myself in doing them though certainly they are forgiven. i will miss you my friends. i shall now say goodbye. til then, see you.
i never want to fall again, to fall in love.
a life in Black&Red.
` samarra .
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
CORRECTION FOR PREVIOUS ENTRY
o there was a mistake in the previous entry. about the coffee thing that i said i spammed all the way to burn the midnight oil. actually it increases my metabolism rate even higher and thats why eating large amounts of food makes no difference in my physical size. o damn. nvm. im just greatful that im alive and that i am capable of surviving on my own. praise to God i am alive.
Back After A Month
its been a month since i entered an entry. i was busy with schoolworks. its getting me stressed up and i think i start to lack in looking after my health. there was once an assignment is needed to be handed in in a short period of time. i had no choice but to burn the midnight oil to complete it. i spammed coffee all the way. and i tink becos of the coffee, it lowers down my metabolism rate even lower since my secondary school friends saw me the other day and noticed that i had became more skinnier. it was an insult. yes. but its true. i dont mind.
i tink after this freaking module ends that is next week, i tink i gona go to the beach and relax and just have fun while the holidays last. becos wenever school is on, suffering is inevitable. but of cos there are many ways to release the stress abit while in school. for me i usually just disturb my friends and annoy them to the extend that they wont even bother about you later on. yea i know thats screwed. haha. i had the pleasure doing that. another de-stressing method for me is to listen to music. well actually, it just help to soothes my mind for awhile when i got stuck up with some particular thing in my assignment. the last one is DOTA. well the addictive game. me n my friends usually called on the game when we are stress. but sometimes we are just playing on not to de-stress but jut for fun! and a week ago, friday, was the most fun day. that is we played dota for like 6 hours. my eyes burn, really. it was hell of a night. just sit there in front of the comp and click click click. to think of it, i tink i regretted playing that long cos now i gotta submit a digital rendering assignment by friday. and i barely traced out the product out on the illustrator. well thats life. regret is always in our lives.
so well now i am blogging. waiting for the trial download of the adobe illustrator CS3 to load finish. and omg it take about 1h 40min for my comp to download it. that is totally screwed up alredy. gotta wait long long. furthermore tmrw still need to submit a 3d model of planes. planes as in paper strips not that flying vehicle thinggy. i bought the colored papers but haven do yet becos i dont haf satay sticks or wire to make the planes stand later on the mounting board. tts damn fcked up. i should have brought back some wires from the studio. so that at least i can do the thing at home and not waste time like now waiting for the illustrator to atleast download finish so that i can continue abit with my work on the digital rendering. damn. i damn stressed. everyday is a terrible one. i tink im missing a motivation in life. last time i have the motivation which boost my energy thruout difficult times. of cos that past motivation is a person and that though she does not care much about me, i made her as a motivation in my life. many things i accomplished is thanks to her though she did nothing to assist or help me in any way. now that the motivation is gone. in search of a new one is never desperate. that is why i have to find a motivation that stays and particularly materialistic. so that losing it is totally impossible. okae til this point, i dun really understand what im trying to say cos my heart has taken over. if u understand then its good laa k. words from the heart are sometimes messy. okae crap. FULL STOP!
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` samarra .
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