the immense stress over. the immense freedom comes.

so yesterday was like the ending of the 2nd block. the feeling of having it over was so shiok. for weeks i have been in a state of restless nights and increasing stress. now i feel so light. it feels just like the ending of O levels. damn holidays are here!!! a month. so im making sure i used the WHOLE of it for fun. im not sure if i can get any work.

okae anyway lets talk about the period of utter nightmares. its not that i want to but i just wanna say what i felt. so those were the days in the past week whereby me & my friends rushing to finish of our 3d model sculpture. me & kenneth started of late becos we slacked (not that much). but we came up with a number of designs for approval. last 2 nights i think, my friends came over to finish off their sculptures. for your info im one of the nearest who stay near school. so bryan, kai siong and kenneth come over to do. as usual, ken is the regular stay-over person so my parents like already know him so well as the guy who practises 'dead sleeping'. he's funny at times but when he is in a bad mood, he IS really one farker. haha. no offense but thats the truth. my sis says he is funny.

so that faithful night, we cheong-ed like hell. later into the night, bryan & siong left cos they cant stay over. ken stayed and brooded over his design. he barely started the night before the deadline. i tried to help him but he continuosly say that its okae and nevermind and that he dont give a shit. i was like a single light bulb in an enormous cave. a hope dampened. so i said nothing. the following morning (day of deadline), i woke up to find siong sitting at my house dining table. lol. he had told me he will come back in the morning with bryan to take his stuffs. i was sleeping on the couch and i bet this is the ferst time my friends see me sleep. ken was sleeping on another couch. bryan came later. and my living room floor was a mess. i was just too tired to wake up. however the presence of my friends that morning gave me the 'aura' (haha) to get going.

i finished bathing and ken is still drooling. nobody can get him up. surprisingly he woke up after our many attempts. and ONE thing. he had not had a single part of his model done. so i thought that after i finish mine in school. and so that WAS what i thought. afta he washed up (barely) and after abit of cleaning up (my mum says she will settle the mess), we went out with all our stuffs and hailed a cab to school. to say, our school is less than a couple o km from my house but well... with so many stuffs to carry, boarding a bus will just be a bonus to blockage. in school again we cheong-ed. later we had lunch and it rained. ken gave up on his model and went off somewhere. i called him, he said he's in the library. i dunno wad to say. i said earlier that i will help him when i finish wif my model but it seems that my model is not also done. i actually assembled it in the display room itself. i just hoped that mine can get a decent grade. the initial design is so different from the outcome. but well, you know, things change.

after that, we had our peer marking and some stupid sucky survey. honestly i think that this module is the most fun & interesting. the ONLY thing that it sucks in is the limited time. that make the whole thing sucks in a way. well. i really felt bad for ken cos i cant help him. he didnt blame me either cos he really dont want to do any shit. so after all those, i came down to the workshop back with ivy and siyi to clear up our left-over stuffs. on the last day of every block, things are everywhere, borrowed, lent. so our stuffs some are gone but we found new stuffs. haha. standard. later i went to DoTA with the rest of the guys and bade farewell to the 2 girls. its time to have some serious DoTA!!! haha. FUN FUN FUN. oh and i had a fast dinner with sam at mac. sad siong cant join. he was home right after the peer marking.

all of us felt so good that another block has ended. a nightmare is gone, for the time being. im here now a happy person, i think. life is still long (but if God speaks short, and short it will be). so while we live, love the ones we love. care for them while they are still breathing. for all the mistakes that i had made in life, i just cant forgave myself in doing them though certainly they are forgiven. i will miss you my friends. i shall now say goodbye. til then, see you.

i never want to fall again, to fall in love.
a life in Black&Red.
` samarra .