its been a month since i entered an entry. i was busy with schoolworks. its getting me stressed up and i think i start to lack in looking after my health. there was once an assignment is needed to be handed in in a short period of time. i had no choice but to burn the midnight oil to complete it. i spammed coffee all the way. and i tink becos of the coffee, it lowers down my metabolism rate even lower since my secondary school friends saw me the other day and noticed that i had became more skinnier. it was an insult. yes. but its true. i dont mind.
i tink after this freaking module ends that is next week, i tink i gona go to the beach and relax and just have fun while the holidays last. becos wenever school is on, suffering is inevitable. but of cos there are many ways to release the stress abit while in school. for me i usually just disturb my friends and annoy them to the extend that they wont even bother about you later on. yea i know thats screwed. haha. i had the pleasure doing that. another de-stressing method for me is to listen to music. well actually, it just help to soothes my mind for awhile when i got stuck up with some particular thing in my assignment. the last one is DOTA. well the addictive game. me n my friends usually called on the game when we are stress. but sometimes we are just playing on not to de-stress but jut for fun! and a week ago, friday, was the most fun day. that is we played dota for like 6 hours. my eyes burn, really. it was hell of a night. just sit there in front of the comp and click click click. to think of it, i tink i regretted playing that long cos now i gotta submit a digital rendering assignment by friday. and i barely traced out the product out on the illustrator. well thats life. regret is always in our lives.
so well now i am blogging. waiting for the trial download of the adobe illustrator CS3 to load finish. and omg it take about 1h 40min for my comp to download it. that is totally screwed up alredy. gotta wait long long. furthermore tmrw still need to submit a 3d model of planes. planes as in paper strips not that flying vehicle thinggy. i bought the colored papers but haven do yet becos i dont haf satay sticks or wire to make the planes stand later on the mounting board. tts damn fcked up. i should have brought back some wires from the studio. so that at least i can do the thing at home and not waste time like now waiting for the illustrator to atleast download finish so that i can continue abit with my work on the digital rendering. damn. i damn stressed. everyday is a terrible one. i tink im missing a motivation in life. last time i have the motivation which boost my energy thruout difficult times. of cos that past motivation is a person and that though she does not care much about me, i made her as a motivation in my life. many things i accomplished is thanks to her though she did nothing to assist or help me in any way. now that the motivation is gone. in search of a new one is never desperate. that is why i have to find a motivation that stays and particularly materialistic. so that losing it is totally impossible. okae til this point, i dun really understand what im trying to say cos my heart has taken over. if u understand then its good laa k. words from the heart are sometimes messy. okae crap. FULL STOP!
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` samarra .
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