having emotions means that we are still human .

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i got the sudden urge to write a book.
titled: the truth about Marcus and Faith.
it is interesting to learn about their character, attitude, doings, and way of life.
i know im just crapping.
im just saying how nice could it be if we could learn the truth about these kind of people.
to understand what had happened that caused them the way they are now.

is there really an incident that change their course of life?
change their character, attitude, actions, way of life?
`cause when we are born into this world, we are pure and innocent.
we ALL are.
NO ONE IS BORN EVIL OR BAD.
as we grow up, its the people and the surrounding that shapes us, and taint us.
if not influenced, we are the one who chose the way we want to be.
for the good or the bad, i guess its fate.

i desire to understand people.
as it could prevent conflicts and misunderstanding between parties.
i never really like fights and arguments.
`cause it just shows how immature one can be.
or how stubborn
or how damn egoistic one can be.
tsk.

in this 3 months of SIP, i honestly can say i opened more than before the door of my dark side.
what was that about?
anger, frustration, oppressed.
feelings for myself, for my friends.
you can hurt me real bad, i`ll get angry.
but you hurt my friends, i`ll go on a rage.

sometimes i feel like im losing control,
losing myself.
and there`s one point... i dont feel like myself.

i`ve never learn to hate.
i`ve only learn that as human beings, we ought to forgive each other.
even if the other party doesnt accept our forgiveness,
at least we`ve done it... & the rest is between him/her & God.

"the day when everyone can understand each other."

just when?

Reality: "Its just too much to ask for."