ths video was taken last week i guess. when i went fishing with firdaus. was disappointed to see a couple of buoyancy thinggy with nets underneath, on both sides of the bridge. sad in a case whereby there are slim chances of biggies passing in in to the river. i dont even know why the green thing is there for. heard its to block out rubish and litters in the river buit im not that certain. for sure i will find out the cause. like firdaus said that day, "what is this.. blasphamy.. this sin". alrite that was so freaking funny of him. yeaah but i kinda agreed. you noe its a hindrance and disappointment to anglers. so im just putting this up to just show ppl, specifically anglers, about this bad treatment. haha. right..
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Sunday, December 09, 2007
unexpected FUN
friday evening right after prayers, me, kamarul, firdaus and ridhwan met. it was raining like usually. ridhwan part off first cos he still got school on. the rest went off to Shop n Save. firdaus wanted to get a peanut butter and i wanna get the gatsby rubber for my hair. ^^ so we went but there's no peanut butter there that suits fifi's criteria and there's no gatsby rubber for me there too. we decided to go watson to get my objective done. but well there were gatsby rubbers there but dont have the pink one. the pink is the spiky edge generally for short hair. fifi then decided to head off first. so left me & kamarul. i requested we go to TM or CS to find my stuff but we passed by a shop that sells so i just get it. he then 'dragged' me into going to the library to find his book. i followed. on the way my cousin called.
he said i can come over to his house for a stay over. no point declining that offer. know why? he got an xbox360 ELITE VERSION! plus HALO3 and NEED FOR SPEED PRO STREET! yeahh! so i called my mum for permission. anyway the next day my cousin and his dad plus my family minus my dad will go fishing. i cant wait to get to my cousin's house. this will the first time i will come to his house looking at the 360. wooohooo. waa sounds like i own it like that.
so i quickly got home, changed, eat lunch before setting off for Bukit Timah. oh yaa he live like so opposite of me. so im in the mrt to bukit batok from tampines. one end of s'pore to another. very long trip. very boring. very fatigue. at bukit batok, he came down with his dad in the car and fetch me to his home. first thing go there, played HALO 3! haha. and i was so amazed. with NEW TV. wow. PLASMA. i couldnt say more. played co-op campaign. and then live. WOW. the experience of playing live with other players in the world is soo damn cool. of course we dont win all the time. im not that pro. but i do KILL! haha. BEAT DOWN, ASSASSINATION, ENDED KILL JOY. waa. i wished i can have 360 and halo3. so we played like from the evening until 4-30am of saturday! LOL. oh btw there's an hour dinner outside in betwen. yeahh. i really enjoyed it.
morning wake up..................................WE PLAYED AGAIN! LIVE!
hahaha.
oh by the way we wake up at arnd 12pm.
play play then my uncle came in to say pack up and get going cos we're goin fishing with my family. so we bathed, changed and waited for my uncle to finish doing his stuff. oh btw we haven had breakfast. we are just going to have lunch at my house. my uncle is going to pick up my family before goin off for fishing.
at my house, we had quite a heavy lunch. then we all bring the fishing gears to my uncle's car. all set, we headed for tampines to pick up my other cousin who also wanted to fish with us. when we want to pick him up, we were all surprised that his younger bro also want to follow. so inside the car, it will be abit packed. MPV. 8 people of varying sizes. just squeeze in. haha. can laa. so we then headed to changi village to get some fishing stuffs plus the baits. the wormys. haha.
we shot off to a place near changi cargo. we scanned the place before fishing. RECCE! the place nice, peaceful, we settled down. minutes later, many lines already in the water. there are high chances of getting fishes there. but the thing is the fishes are like eating abit then swim off. hit and run. get the scenario? yaa. educated fishes. but we do caught some random fishes. smallies but still okay. later we explored the rocks area and found out alot of oysters. my cousin was the pro. he good at searching and ripping it off from the rocks. haha. night falls, we had dinner there and sooner, our area was overwhelmed wif darkness. cos we are nowhere near any lamp posts. our place is like u noe... ulu ulu. haha. so we shifted. no not shifting to an area with light. we are shifting to east coast. bedok jetty. haha!
COOL. we are going to stay overnight at the jetty. unexpected ahh. so we got to the jetty and settle down again. wow. i have never ever gone fishing in two places in one day. cos this time my uncle got car. easy transportation. thats why can. yaa. lines in the water then my line went tight. the tip of the rod vibrated. not that much. i thought its just another fish. so i felt the vibration, then i jerked up hard. the vibration was strong so i thought okay now its gonna be quite a big one. i threw the line wuite a distance and reeling it back was tiring. arm pain. halfway trhu the reeling, the vibration stopped. i thought i lost the fish. sian. but well actually no. when my line is in my sight, i saw what i believed to be a bunch of seaweeds floating above the water. sailing towards me. i was reeling in fast. when it got near, i saw the face of the catfish. it is splashing the water on the surface. suddenly it becomes so hard to reel in. heavy. when i manged to pull it up, i brought it down to the floor of the jetty. well.. arnd 30.. 35cm long. quite a catch. im feeling so euphoric. haha. finally a fish worthy for my half a year patience. when i got the picture, i will upload it here. awesome.
so right into sunday morning 0330 hrs we were fishing. somewhere in near that point of time, it rained real heavy. waa so freaking damn cold. haha. but it was a great experience. okay cut short. anyway caught an eel. small one. and the others caught too. random odd fishes. we then stopped. we decided to call it.. a day. haha. packed up and went for EARLY BREAKFAST! can u believe that. my uncle brought us to a 24/7 coffeeshop near tampines and ya. we had breakfast. pratas and teh tariks. lol. early in the morning at 0430 hrs. so chilling and we have warm tea is sooo damn nice. yeahh. well after that my uncle sent my cousins off ferst before sending me & family home. yeahh.
well i guess thats all for now. still tired. haha. dunnno why. alright then. takecare.
inBlack&Red,
` samarra .
he said i can come over to his house for a stay over. no point declining that offer. know why? he got an xbox360 ELITE VERSION! plus HALO3 and NEED FOR SPEED PRO STREET! yeahh! so i called my mum for permission. anyway the next day my cousin and his dad plus my family minus my dad will go fishing. i cant wait to get to my cousin's house. this will the first time i will come to his house looking at the 360. wooohooo. waa sounds like i own it like that.
so i quickly got home, changed, eat lunch before setting off for Bukit Timah. oh yaa he live like so opposite of me. so im in the mrt to bukit batok from tampines. one end of s'pore to another. very long trip. very boring. very fatigue. at bukit batok, he came down with his dad in the car and fetch me to his home. first thing go there, played HALO 3! haha. and i was so amazed. with NEW TV. wow. PLASMA. i couldnt say more. played co-op campaign. and then live. WOW. the experience of playing live with other players in the world is soo damn cool. of course we dont win all the time. im not that pro. but i do KILL! haha. BEAT DOWN, ASSASSINATION, ENDED KILL JOY. waa. i wished i can have 360 and halo3. so we played like from the evening until 4-30am of saturday! LOL. oh btw there's an hour dinner outside in betwen. yeahh. i really enjoyed it.
morning wake up..................................WE PLAYED AGAIN! LIVE!
hahaha.
oh by the way we wake up at arnd 12pm.
play play then my uncle came in to say pack up and get going cos we're goin fishing with my family. so we bathed, changed and waited for my uncle to finish doing his stuff. oh btw we haven had breakfast. we are just going to have lunch at my house. my uncle is going to pick up my family before goin off for fishing.
at my house, we had quite a heavy lunch. then we all bring the fishing gears to my uncle's car. all set, we headed for tampines to pick up my other cousin who also wanted to fish with us. when we want to pick him up, we were all surprised that his younger bro also want to follow. so inside the car, it will be abit packed. MPV. 8 people of varying sizes. just squeeze in. haha. can laa. so we then headed to changi village to get some fishing stuffs plus the baits. the wormys. haha.
we shot off to a place near changi cargo. we scanned the place before fishing. RECCE! the place nice, peaceful, we settled down. minutes later, many lines already in the water. there are high chances of getting fishes there. but the thing is the fishes are like eating abit then swim off. hit and run. get the scenario? yaa. educated fishes. but we do caught some random fishes. smallies but still okay. later we explored the rocks area and found out alot of oysters. my cousin was the pro. he good at searching and ripping it off from the rocks. haha. night falls, we had dinner there and sooner, our area was overwhelmed wif darkness. cos we are nowhere near any lamp posts. our place is like u noe... ulu ulu. haha. so we shifted. no not shifting to an area with light. we are shifting to east coast. bedok jetty. haha!
COOL. we are going to stay overnight at the jetty. unexpected ahh. so we got to the jetty and settle down again. wow. i have never ever gone fishing in two places in one day. cos this time my uncle got car. easy transportation. thats why can. yaa. lines in the water then my line went tight. the tip of the rod vibrated. not that much. i thought its just another fish. so i felt the vibration, then i jerked up hard. the vibration was strong so i thought okay now its gonna be quite a big one. i threw the line wuite a distance and reeling it back was tiring. arm pain. halfway trhu the reeling, the vibration stopped. i thought i lost the fish. sian. but well actually no. when my line is in my sight, i saw what i believed to be a bunch of seaweeds floating above the water. sailing towards me. i was reeling in fast. when it got near, i saw the face of the catfish. it is splashing the water on the surface. suddenly it becomes so hard to reel in. heavy. when i manged to pull it up, i brought it down to the floor of the jetty. well.. arnd 30.. 35cm long. quite a catch. im feeling so euphoric. haha. finally a fish worthy for my half a year patience. when i got the picture, i will upload it here. awesome.
so right into sunday morning 0330 hrs we were fishing. somewhere in near that point of time, it rained real heavy. waa so freaking damn cold. haha. but it was a great experience. okay cut short. anyway caught an eel. small one. and the others caught too. random odd fishes. we then stopped. we decided to call it.. a day. haha. packed up and went for EARLY BREAKFAST! can u believe that. my uncle brought us to a 24/7 coffeeshop near tampines and ya. we had breakfast. pratas and teh tariks. lol. early in the morning at 0430 hrs. so chilling and we have warm tea is sooo damn nice. yeahh. well after that my uncle sent my cousins off ferst before sending me & family home. yeahh.
well i guess thats all for now. still tired. haha. dunnno why. alright then. takecare.
inBlack&Red,
` samarra .
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
nothing to say.
so basically i got not much of a thing to say about today.
my family minus my dad, came over to my aunt's house.
my mum wanted to do some thinggy there.
its stuffs using beads.
you know.. the beads turn into necklace and bracelets and stuffs?
yaa thats the thing. i duno wads the process called.
or is there a name to the process?
oh nevermind. that is under the 'whatever' category.
alright. so we got there and my cousin turned on Heroes DVD.
oh i have to admit im hooked to that show.
oh. series. yaa.
im a newbie. ^^
so im still stuck in season 1 just like Mediacorp Channel 5 except for the fact that i've watched til episode 9 just now.
was so cool.
esp that Japanese guy.
wherever he go: "Hello! My name is Hiro Nakamura".
haha. he's so freaking funny.
well i guess one thing that makes him stand out in Heroes is that he is Asian.
oh and particularly, he spoke in japs language.
so when theres a scene on him, its so different from the other heroes.
haha. yaa. well thats my opinion. :)
so afta a few episodes, we paused and get some food to eat.
i got myself a plate of spicy noodle.
MEE SIAM.
yaa and then i just chill one corner and eat.
later my sis and my cousin went out for awhile and came back with some mac food.
woohoo.
its been a while since i had nuggets.
yum!
hahaa.
oh and we spammed all kind of food with that delicious curry sauce.
ate nuggets with curry sauce. oh tts normal.
then my aunt prepared a meal with a few slices of that long bread.
wad issit called?
i dunno. so theres shaker fries seaweed thing.
i poured them on the bread and then poured the curry sauce over.
okay i know it sounds sick.
well im a sicko believe me but i bet there are other ppl out there more sick than me.
haha. yea believe that part too.
oh and somehow i didnt burp just now.
sadness. lol.
then after that.
MUCH after that, we resumed the playing Heroes til 9 plus.
cos my mum and aunt had finished mingling with their beads.
oh and no that dun sounds wrong unless its males doing that.
:X !!!
okok.
then my unk sent my family back home.
yeaa. right. i guess thats all that i did today.
tmrw i goin johor for some shopping!
HAHA!
okok. nothing special.
need to get new shoe and mayb some shirts.
yeaa.. just take a look arnd.
oh mayb some games!
haha. yepp.
well i guess thats all for today.
seeya!
inBlack&Red,
` samarra .
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
strong winds.
just came back from fishing with my family and cousins. changi beach. near the cargo there where the airplanes take off so near to the ground yaa. well the winds was so damn strong when we came and indeed til we left. its the monsoon season i guess. strong winds, rough seas. lucky no storm. and i just caught a medium sized fish like in half a year. okay la. but i stil want to have more fishing outings. i NEED to fish! hahaha.
Monday, December 03, 2007
cold apathy.
i was sad yesterday
miserable the day before.
*
i could have made everything clear
could have made everything better.
*
im not hardcore emotional
but i do cry in harsh moments.
*
there are many mistakes
none of which can be undone.
*
yesterday was hate
today is love.
*
darkness plays in the day
light of hope in the night.
*
a rose was left to die that night
it cried of crimson blood.
*
my heart grew cold by that
like a soul tormented on ice.
*
i whispered of tragedy finally
to end this bond of pain.
*
i sworn not to commit
no point that i can see.
*
what is to be
will be.
*
black will paint over white
and red will stain it.
*
goodbye
love.
*
*
*
inBlack&Red,
` samarra .
Sunday, December 02, 2007
The Sweetest Moment
below is a composition i did about a year back. when i was in sec 5 (2006). English assignment yaa of cos. the title was 'The Sweetest Moment'. i just put it here so everyone can read. just a made-up story not real. and i just do this for fun cos im so freaking damn bored at home. alright? and, okay if you're the type who hates people's essay with bad grammars or spellings OR EVEN PUNCTUATIONS, then i'd suggest you just go somewhere else. okay? :) because my English not superior. and i editted someparts of the essay. anyway you dont even know if its edited because the original is not here. haha. wth.
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We discovered a building at the end of the path we were taking. It was a small building with half of itself gone down into rubbles. I was about to take a step forward when the team sniper pulls me back. Without even having to ask him the question why, I soon realised what is happening. Through my binoculars, i saw a couple of guys talking to each other in a room. And by the side I saw a soldier in a different uniform from them. He was clad in OUR uniform and blindfolded. That guy is our subject to be rescued and extracted to safety. The team sniper then take out his sniper rifle and take his aim through the scope. Just a few seconds and then came a loud thundering sound. The sniper's bullet found its way right into the heart of the first target. He dropped to the floor. The second was sent into a state of shock and panic. He tried to reach for a phone on the table when the second shot was made. The bullet hit his neck hard and parts of its flesh can be seen splattered onto the wall. He too then dropped. My whole team charged in.
The subject to be rescued was so happy to see us. He almost cried talking about the bad treatment he received from his kidnappers. The brusies and cuts on his body and face explained it all. Without wasting time, we exited quickly and rushed out to the extraction zone whereby a Black Hawk helicopter will be waiting for us. We were lucky that there was no resistance in our process of evacuating. When the last soldier come aboard, the helicopter took off. We flew out of the urban zone and into the plains.
"RPG!"
I glanced over the door just in time to see a Rocket Propelled Grenade (RPG) launching at us from a distance.
Wham. It hit the helicopter on the tail. We begun to spun around madly.
"MAYDAY! MAYDAY!"
"HOLD ON TIGHT!"
"HOLD ON!!!"
The pain in my back was unbearable. I shifted just to come to my senses that I am on a bed. I was heavily bandaged. I am on a hospital bed, and I guessed it right. There were nurses walking by. One of them spotted me waking up and came quickly to ask me to rest. I looked around and saw only a few soldiers on the beds down the corridor. The pilots were nowhere to be seen. Later I learnt from the nurse that The two pilots did not survive the helicopter crash and so does a few soldiers. I felt sorry for them, and in a way, I felt lucky to have survived. I thanked God for letting me a chance to live. The nurse added on that a group of United Nations peacekeepers found our crash site and sent us to this hospital in Palestine. The Russian embassy already received the news of his fallen countrymen. We were lucky to be discovered by UN peacekeepers and not terrorist groups or guerillas.
As I was checking on my hands, I noticed my marriage ring. Then the images of Akasha struck my mind like a bullet. And then Viktor's. I suddenly remembered them. I asked for a phone and made a call back home. At first there was no answer and then, a sweet lady's voice answered. Its Akasha! I really missed her so much. She told me the Russian Embassy had just let her know a while ago and then she was very worried with my condition. I calmed her down and told her that I am fine. Her panicky tone suddenly changed to what it seems to be a tone of huge relief. She also report to me what was going on at home and how was Viktor and so on. We talked on the phone for hours till night.
It has been three days now in the hospital and I am beginning to feel energy surging back into me - the energy to go back home. As i was deep in thoughts one evening, staring at the ceiling, a voice called out my name. I thought it was just my imagination and so I did not really take it seriously. But then the voice called out my name again and again. I started to realise that someone was really calling out to me. I spun my head to the door and saw what I have not expected to see. Clad in a pink dress with eyes gleaming by the side, Akasha was there. I quickly got up and she rushed to me. She hugged me with tears in the eyes. I forgot all about the pain I am experiencing now. Her presence was like an immediate cure to a prolong disease. I was on the verge of tears. It was the sweetest moment in my life. Akasha told me that she had come to fetch me home. She had left Viktor under the care of her parents. I was so touched that evening. The whole scene was overwhelming.
A week later i found myself back at home, after going through a military funeral for my fallen comrades. I will always remember them in my heart. And so does the other two souls I love - Akasha and Viktor. The moment I stepped into my house, I felt great as I had kept my promise of coming back home no matter what. Now, I would never leave my family alone again. Never at all cost. I do not want to lose them, and I, do not want them to lose me.
//
okae guys so thats my narration. how? okay? of cos there is FOREVER a room for improvement. haha. so bear in mind again. its my secondary school essay. not some big thing. :) til then, cya!!
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The Sweetest Moment
The sun is already beginning to start it's sleep. Drowning itself into the horizon, colouring the skies with streaks of bright orange. The clouds floated high above like candyfloss, drifting with the wind. From the window of my two-storey apartment, I watch that evening 'scene' as they take place. Much later, the moon rose at the opposite horizon and smiled brightly down on the city with it's ever beaming glow.
It was a long and rough day at work. Watching this evening 'scene' calms my mind from the hectic training back at camp. Working as a combat engineer in the army is a tough job. Most of our tasks are outdoors under the blaring hot sun: repairing vehicles, disarming bombs, setting up mines, and many other tasks that drain out all those energy in a person. However no matter how hard or harsh it is, I love my career. It is the passion i have for it.
I glanced at the wall clock. It is eight o'clock. Its time for dinner. So i went downstairs to the kitchen with my grumbling stomach to have a nice and scrumptious dinner. From the entrance of the kitchen, the aroma of the food is already there, lingering in the air and lifting my appetite. A woman stood there preparing the food. She was clad in a cooking apron, dirty and simply messy, but her beautiful smile just seems to drown all those messiness. Her long black curly hair was tied neatly in a bun above the head. She saw me coming down. The eyes of which seems to be scanning my entire self. They gleamed under the bright lights of the kitchen lamp. In a glance, they look like they belong to a cat. But no, they belong to my beloved wife, Akasha. She is a responsible and caring wife. I am so lucky to have a life-partner like her. At the other end of the kitchen, a little boy was messing around with his food. He is our son, Viktor. Just like any other ordinary child, playful and cheerful. A sweetheart to me and my wife. The one who bonds Akasha and me closer together.
Dinner was served and all the three of us sat together at the dining table. Of course, Viktor is in the baby seat. All that was important is that he is happy and does not make noise. As we ate, Akasha and I talked about how our day goes by. Every now and then, Akasha would spoon feed Viktor, who usually makes a mess with the food. After dinner, Akasha washed the dishes while I headed to the bathroom to take a shower. Before that, I would put Viktor in his playing area so he would not get bored while both of his parents were busy. I headed upstairs and had a nice cold shower. As i was showering, I heard my cell phone rang. Thinking it might be some important call, I quickly end my wonderful bath and went for the phone. I answered it. My commander-in-chief's voice spoke.
I was both surprised and shocked. My commander-in-chief told me that a rescue mission briefing will take place in the next morning. All that he could describe to me is that the mission could rather be dangerous and will take place somewhere off the border of Israel. This mission will be my first and I felt anticipation in it. I hung up the phone and saw Akasha by the door, carrying Viktor. She must have overheard the whole conversation. From her facial expression, the word 'WORRIED' spells across it. The trouble with having a caring wife like her is that sometimes, she is just TOO caring. She talked about people dying in those areas, how they kidnap soldiers and decapitate them, and how bullets fly free there. I could not help it but calm her down. She is just scaring herself. I took Viktor from her and lay him on the bed. He was fast asleep. I looked back at Akasha.
"Akasha listen to me."
I held her hands in mine, bringing myself close to her.
"A life out there is in need of help. Waiting to be rescued. They need me for that mission. Please understand me Akasha. You will. Will you?"
She barely nodded her head. I kissed her in the forehead and when i withdraw, i could see sparkling tears caught up in the eyelashes. She was afraid that I might get caught up or killed. I felt the same way too because this is the first time I will be entering foreign's soil on a real mission. That night after packing my clothes, gears and equipments, I lay down in bed trying to get some sleep. Somehow tonight was so hard to get my eyes close. The adrenaline in my blood was ready to pump into my veins the next day. Somehow, in someway, i felt afraid.
It was five in the morning and I am already dressing up, ready to report to camp. Akasha was up too. From her facial expression, I knew she was still reluctant to let me go on this mission but I had no choice. I need to fulfil my duty as a soldier. I need to release a soul out of torment. I hung my haversack across my shoulders, went over to Viktor who is still sleeping and kissed him by the cheek. He is so lovely when he cuddled up in his cot. Then I came down to bade my wife farewell. She was at the door.
"I love you, Akasha."
"I love you too, Ramirez", she replied weakly.
"Take care", she added.
I hugged her and give her a kiss. I promised to her that I will come back. I promised that I will return to her and Viktor, at any cost.
The following day, I found myself battling side by side with a group of specialised soldiers on the fields of Israel. We were trying to enter a camp and we need to wipe out a group of infantries in order to do that. There was heavy fire and loud explosives. I never liked the idea of killing. But it seems that that is what is required of every soldier in his duty to defend and protect. A couple of minutes later, the camp sentries fall back. We advanced only to find a steel door before us. This is when my speciality comes in as a combat engineer. I planted explosive charges on the steel door and blasted it open. The explosion was tremendous, sending dusts flying up into the air. There was a path, in fact the only path, behind that wreckage. I led the way in, scanning any possible signs of threat or danger lurking behind every wall and corners. The soldiers followed close behind me with their rifles, held tight infront of their chests on high alert.
The sun is already beginning to start it's sleep. Drowning itself into the horizon, colouring the skies with streaks of bright orange. The clouds floated high above like candyfloss, drifting with the wind. From the window of my two-storey apartment, I watch that evening 'scene' as they take place. Much later, the moon rose at the opposite horizon and smiled brightly down on the city with it's ever beaming glow.
It was a long and rough day at work. Watching this evening 'scene' calms my mind from the hectic training back at camp. Working as a combat engineer in the army is a tough job. Most of our tasks are outdoors under the blaring hot sun: repairing vehicles, disarming bombs, setting up mines, and many other tasks that drain out all those energy in a person. However no matter how hard or harsh it is, I love my career. It is the passion i have for it.
I glanced at the wall clock. It is eight o'clock. Its time for dinner. So i went downstairs to the kitchen with my grumbling stomach to have a nice and scrumptious dinner. From the entrance of the kitchen, the aroma of the food is already there, lingering in the air and lifting my appetite. A woman stood there preparing the food. She was clad in a cooking apron, dirty and simply messy, but her beautiful smile just seems to drown all those messiness. Her long black curly hair was tied neatly in a bun above the head. She saw me coming down. The eyes of which seems to be scanning my entire self. They gleamed under the bright lights of the kitchen lamp. In a glance, they look like they belong to a cat. But no, they belong to my beloved wife, Akasha. She is a responsible and caring wife. I am so lucky to have a life-partner like her. At the other end of the kitchen, a little boy was messing around with his food. He is our son, Viktor. Just like any other ordinary child, playful and cheerful. A sweetheart to me and my wife. The one who bonds Akasha and me closer together.
Dinner was served and all the three of us sat together at the dining table. Of course, Viktor is in the baby seat. All that was important is that he is happy and does not make noise. As we ate, Akasha and I talked about how our day goes by. Every now and then, Akasha would spoon feed Viktor, who usually makes a mess with the food. After dinner, Akasha washed the dishes while I headed to the bathroom to take a shower. Before that, I would put Viktor in his playing area so he would not get bored while both of his parents were busy. I headed upstairs and had a nice cold shower. As i was showering, I heard my cell phone rang. Thinking it might be some important call, I quickly end my wonderful bath and went for the phone. I answered it. My commander-in-chief's voice spoke.
I was both surprised and shocked. My commander-in-chief told me that a rescue mission briefing will take place in the next morning. All that he could describe to me is that the mission could rather be dangerous and will take place somewhere off the border of Israel. This mission will be my first and I felt anticipation in it. I hung up the phone and saw Akasha by the door, carrying Viktor. She must have overheard the whole conversation. From her facial expression, the word 'WORRIED' spells across it. The trouble with having a caring wife like her is that sometimes, she is just TOO caring. She talked about people dying in those areas, how they kidnap soldiers and decapitate them, and how bullets fly free there. I could not help it but calm her down. She is just scaring herself. I took Viktor from her and lay him on the bed. He was fast asleep. I looked back at Akasha.
"Akasha listen to me."
I held her hands in mine, bringing myself close to her.
"A life out there is in need of help. Waiting to be rescued. They need me for that mission. Please understand me Akasha. You will. Will you?"
She barely nodded her head. I kissed her in the forehead and when i withdraw, i could see sparkling tears caught up in the eyelashes. She was afraid that I might get caught up or killed. I felt the same way too because this is the first time I will be entering foreign's soil on a real mission. That night after packing my clothes, gears and equipments, I lay down in bed trying to get some sleep. Somehow tonight was so hard to get my eyes close. The adrenaline in my blood was ready to pump into my veins the next day. Somehow, in someway, i felt afraid.
It was five in the morning and I am already dressing up, ready to report to camp. Akasha was up too. From her facial expression, I knew she was still reluctant to let me go on this mission but I had no choice. I need to fulfil my duty as a soldier. I need to release a soul out of torment. I hung my haversack across my shoulders, went over to Viktor who is still sleeping and kissed him by the cheek. He is so lovely when he cuddled up in his cot. Then I came down to bade my wife farewell. She was at the door.
"I love you, Akasha."
"I love you too, Ramirez", she replied weakly.
"Take care", she added.
I hugged her and give her a kiss. I promised to her that I will come back. I promised that I will return to her and Viktor, at any cost.
The following day, I found myself battling side by side with a group of specialised soldiers on the fields of Israel. We were trying to enter a camp and we need to wipe out a group of infantries in order to do that. There was heavy fire and loud explosives. I never liked the idea of killing. But it seems that that is what is required of every soldier in his duty to defend and protect. A couple of minutes later, the camp sentries fall back. We advanced only to find a steel door before us. This is when my speciality comes in as a combat engineer. I planted explosive charges on the steel door and blasted it open. The explosion was tremendous, sending dusts flying up into the air. There was a path, in fact the only path, behind that wreckage. I led the way in, scanning any possible signs of threat or danger lurking behind every wall and corners. The soldiers followed close behind me with their rifles, held tight infront of their chests on high alert.
We discovered a building at the end of the path we were taking. It was a small building with half of itself gone down into rubbles. I was about to take a step forward when the team sniper pulls me back. Without even having to ask him the question why, I soon realised what is happening. Through my binoculars, i saw a couple of guys talking to each other in a room. And by the side I saw a soldier in a different uniform from them. He was clad in OUR uniform and blindfolded. That guy is our subject to be rescued and extracted to safety. The team sniper then take out his sniper rifle and take his aim through the scope. Just a few seconds and then came a loud thundering sound. The sniper's bullet found its way right into the heart of the first target. He dropped to the floor. The second was sent into a state of shock and panic. He tried to reach for a phone on the table when the second shot was made. The bullet hit his neck hard and parts of its flesh can be seen splattered onto the wall. He too then dropped. My whole team charged in.
The subject to be rescued was so happy to see us. He almost cried talking about the bad treatment he received from his kidnappers. The brusies and cuts on his body and face explained it all. Without wasting time, we exited quickly and rushed out to the extraction zone whereby a Black Hawk helicopter will be waiting for us. We were lucky that there was no resistance in our process of evacuating. When the last soldier come aboard, the helicopter took off. We flew out of the urban zone and into the plains.
"RPG!"
I glanced over the door just in time to see a Rocket Propelled Grenade (RPG) launching at us from a distance.
Wham. It hit the helicopter on the tail. We begun to spun around madly.
"MAYDAY! MAYDAY!"
"HOLD ON TIGHT!"
"HOLD ON!!!"
The pain in my back was unbearable. I shifted just to come to my senses that I am on a bed. I was heavily bandaged. I am on a hospital bed, and I guessed it right. There were nurses walking by. One of them spotted me waking up and came quickly to ask me to rest. I looked around and saw only a few soldiers on the beds down the corridor. The pilots were nowhere to be seen. Later I learnt from the nurse that The two pilots did not survive the helicopter crash and so does a few soldiers. I felt sorry for them, and in a way, I felt lucky to have survived. I thanked God for letting me a chance to live. The nurse added on that a group of United Nations peacekeepers found our crash site and sent us to this hospital in Palestine. The Russian embassy already received the news of his fallen countrymen. We were lucky to be discovered by UN peacekeepers and not terrorist groups or guerillas.
As I was checking on my hands, I noticed my marriage ring. Then the images of Akasha struck my mind like a bullet. And then Viktor's. I suddenly remembered them. I asked for a phone and made a call back home. At first there was no answer and then, a sweet lady's voice answered. Its Akasha! I really missed her so much. She told me the Russian Embassy had just let her know a while ago and then she was very worried with my condition. I calmed her down and told her that I am fine. Her panicky tone suddenly changed to what it seems to be a tone of huge relief. She also report to me what was going on at home and how was Viktor and so on. We talked on the phone for hours till night.
It has been three days now in the hospital and I am beginning to feel energy surging back into me - the energy to go back home. As i was deep in thoughts one evening, staring at the ceiling, a voice called out my name. I thought it was just my imagination and so I did not really take it seriously. But then the voice called out my name again and again. I started to realise that someone was really calling out to me. I spun my head to the door and saw what I have not expected to see. Clad in a pink dress with eyes gleaming by the side, Akasha was there. I quickly got up and she rushed to me. She hugged me with tears in the eyes. I forgot all about the pain I am experiencing now. Her presence was like an immediate cure to a prolong disease. I was on the verge of tears. It was the sweetest moment in my life. Akasha told me that she had come to fetch me home. She had left Viktor under the care of her parents. I was so touched that evening. The whole scene was overwhelming.
A week later i found myself back at home, after going through a military funeral for my fallen comrades. I will always remember them in my heart. And so does the other two souls I love - Akasha and Viktor. The moment I stepped into my house, I felt great as I had kept my promise of coming back home no matter what. Now, I would never leave my family alone again. Never at all cost. I do not want to lose them, and I, do not want them to lose me.
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okae guys so thats my narration. how? okay? of cos there is FOREVER a room for improvement. haha. so bear in mind again. its my secondary school essay. not some big thing. :) til then, cya!!
inBlack&Red,
` samarra .
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
FINDING JOB DAY WITH SIONG
today i woke up like arnd 10 plus near 1100. siong called saying the job his friend had offered wants us in for an interview. so i agreed and get going. i was actually kinda tired dunno why. maybe becos i slept quite late yesterday. dun even remember what i was doing.
so anyway i took a long mrt ride to ang mo kio. becos the workplace is near there. the ride near an hour but its okay. i pass time listening music. a PSP would be better. haha. anyway when i reach amk station, i met up with siong. and wow. amk hub is so cool. cos i never been there before. yea. so cool the interchange. air con. all air con. zai! we took a feeder bus and head to a warehouse. met the manager of the company. its an old lady. oops :X what i mean is that she's a lady of age. yea.
wait, let me take in a contextual knowledge of mine into this matter. i learnt about LEADERSHIP & CHARACTER in school as an extra thing. so from what i've learnt managers are not leaders. hahaha! so she is just some person who takes charge of a monotonous work. not someone who takes lead in a situation. hmm. not to criticize la. im just using my knowledge for some purposes. haha. no point to learn & keep it inside right? yeah.
back back. so after that intervierw thing we went for lunch. i msg-ed cheryl to join for lunch. she lives near amk hub. but she have already eaten & is going out. so okae then. me & siong went for mac. haizz. $$$ fly. i think this is the ferst time in my entire life i eaten so much of fast food. but my weight is forever like that. sian-ed. yaa so after that we disperse. i wanna try taking the bus ride home. waa the heavy rain just make it more fun. i dunno y. it feels so shiok. i sat at the top of a double-decker bus. saw a few lightnings struck by in a distance. the trembling sounds of thunder. it feels so cool and again, i dunno y. oh btw im one of those people who just loves the rain. haha. feeling so emo just now in the bus. eeergh. cos i feel so alone. HAHA! ok. pls. im not those kind of emotional freaks. right.
so back at home. nthg much. played xbox again. and then. dinner. and then now. blogging. i just hope i get that job. so i can atleast spend some quality time making money. hehe. yeah. and i badly want to go fishing. i NEED to go fish. the fishes miss me! yahh! =.= so well. guess thats all. til next entry. haha.
inBlack&Red,
` samarra .
so anyway i took a long mrt ride to ang mo kio. becos the workplace is near there. the ride near an hour but its okay. i pass time listening music. a PSP would be better. haha. anyway when i reach amk station, i met up with siong. and wow. amk hub is so cool. cos i never been there before. yea. so cool the interchange. air con. all air con. zai! we took a feeder bus and head to a warehouse. met the manager of the company. its an old lady. oops :X what i mean is that she's a lady of age. yea.
wait, let me take in a contextual knowledge of mine into this matter. i learnt about LEADERSHIP & CHARACTER in school as an extra thing. so from what i've learnt managers are not leaders. hahaha! so she is just some person who takes charge of a monotonous work. not someone who takes lead in a situation. hmm. not to criticize la. im just using my knowledge for some purposes. haha. no point to learn & keep it inside right? yeah.
back back. so after that intervierw thing we went for lunch. i msg-ed cheryl to join for lunch. she lives near amk hub. but she have already eaten & is going out. so okae then. me & siong went for mac. haizz. $$$ fly. i think this is the ferst time in my entire life i eaten so much of fast food. but my weight is forever like that. sian-ed. yaa so after that we disperse. i wanna try taking the bus ride home. waa the heavy rain just make it more fun. i dunno y. it feels so shiok. i sat at the top of a double-decker bus. saw a few lightnings struck by in a distance. the trembling sounds of thunder. it feels so cool and again, i dunno y. oh btw im one of those people who just loves the rain. haha. feeling so emo just now in the bus. eeergh. cos i feel so alone. HAHA! ok. pls. im not those kind of emotional freaks. right.
so back at home. nthg much. played xbox again. and then. dinner. and then now. blogging. i just hope i get that job. so i can atleast spend some quality time making money. hehe. yeah. and i badly want to go fishing. i NEED to go fish. the fishes miss me! yahh! =.= so well. guess thats all. til next entry. haha.
inBlack&Red,
` samarra .
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
the immense stress over. the immense freedom comes.
so yesterday was like the ending of the 2nd block. the feeling of having it over was so shiok. for weeks i have been in a state of restless nights and increasing stress. now i feel so light. it feels just like the ending of O levels. damn holidays are here!!! a month. so im making sure i used the WHOLE of it for fun. im not sure if i can get any work.
okae anyway lets talk about the period of utter nightmares. its not that i want to but i just wanna say what i felt. so those were the days in the past week whereby me & my friends rushing to finish of our 3d model sculpture. me & kenneth started of late becos we slacked (not that much). but we came up with a number of designs for approval. last 2 nights i think, my friends came over to finish off their sculptures. for your info im one of the nearest who stay near school. so bryan, kai siong and kenneth come over to do. as usual, ken is the regular stay-over person so my parents like already know him so well as the guy who practises 'dead sleeping'. he's funny at times but when he is in a bad mood, he IS really one farker. haha. no offense but thats the truth. my sis says he is funny.
so that faithful night, we cheong-ed like hell. later into the night, bryan & siong left cos they cant stay over. ken stayed and brooded over his design. he barely started the night before the deadline. i tried to help him but he continuosly say that its okae and nevermind and that he dont give a shit. i was like a single light bulb in an enormous cave. a hope dampened. so i said nothing. the following morning (day of deadline), i woke up to find siong sitting at my house dining table. lol. he had told me he will come back in the morning with bryan to take his stuffs. i was sleeping on the couch and i bet this is the ferst time my friends see me sleep. ken was sleeping on another couch. bryan came later. and my living room floor was a mess. i was just too tired to wake up. however the presence of my friends that morning gave me the 'aura' (haha) to get going.
i finished bathing and ken is still drooling. nobody can get him up. surprisingly he woke up after our many attempts. and ONE thing. he had not had a single part of his model done. so i thought that after i finish mine in school. and so that WAS what i thought. afta he washed up (barely) and after abit of cleaning up (my mum says she will settle the mess), we went out with all our stuffs and hailed a cab to school. to say, our school is less than a couple o km from my house but well... with so many stuffs to carry, boarding a bus will just be a bonus to blockage. in school again we cheong-ed. later we had lunch and it rained. ken gave up on his model and went off somewhere. i called him, he said he's in the library. i dunno wad to say. i said earlier that i will help him when i finish wif my model but it seems that my model is not also done. i actually assembled it in the display room itself. i just hoped that mine can get a decent grade. the initial design is so different from the outcome. but well, you know, things change.
after that, we had our peer marking and some stupid sucky survey. honestly i think that this module is the most fun & interesting. the ONLY thing that it sucks in is the limited time. that make the whole thing sucks in a way. well. i really felt bad for ken cos i cant help him. he didnt blame me either cos he really dont want to do any shit. so after all those, i came down to the workshop back with ivy and siyi to clear up our left-over stuffs. on the last day of every block, things are everywhere, borrowed, lent. so our stuffs some are gone but we found new stuffs. haha. standard. later i went to DoTA with the rest of the guys and bade farewell to the 2 girls. its time to have some serious DoTA!!! haha. FUN FUN FUN. oh and i had a fast dinner with sam at mac. sad siong cant join. he was home right after the peer marking.
all of us felt so good that another block has ended. a nightmare is gone, for the time being. im here now a happy person, i think. life is still long (but if God speaks short, and short it will be). so while we live, love the ones we love. care for them while they are still breathing. for all the mistakes that i had made in life, i just cant forgave myself in doing them though certainly they are forgiven. i will miss you my friends. i shall now say goodbye. til then, see you.
i never want to fall again, to fall in love.
a life in Black&Red.
` samarra .
okae anyway lets talk about the period of utter nightmares. its not that i want to but i just wanna say what i felt. so those were the days in the past week whereby me & my friends rushing to finish of our 3d model sculpture. me & kenneth started of late becos we slacked (not that much). but we came up with a number of designs for approval. last 2 nights i think, my friends came over to finish off their sculptures. for your info im one of the nearest who stay near school. so bryan, kai siong and kenneth come over to do. as usual, ken is the regular stay-over person so my parents like already know him so well as the guy who practises 'dead sleeping'. he's funny at times but when he is in a bad mood, he IS really one farker. haha. no offense but thats the truth. my sis says he is funny.
so that faithful night, we cheong-ed like hell. later into the night, bryan & siong left cos they cant stay over. ken stayed and brooded over his design. he barely started the night before the deadline. i tried to help him but he continuosly say that its okae and nevermind and that he dont give a shit. i was like a single light bulb in an enormous cave. a hope dampened. so i said nothing. the following morning (day of deadline), i woke up to find siong sitting at my house dining table. lol. he had told me he will come back in the morning with bryan to take his stuffs. i was sleeping on the couch and i bet this is the ferst time my friends see me sleep. ken was sleeping on another couch. bryan came later. and my living room floor was a mess. i was just too tired to wake up. however the presence of my friends that morning gave me the 'aura' (haha) to get going.
i finished bathing and ken is still drooling. nobody can get him up. surprisingly he woke up after our many attempts. and ONE thing. he had not had a single part of his model done. so i thought that after i finish mine in school. and so that WAS what i thought. afta he washed up (barely) and after abit of cleaning up (my mum says she will settle the mess), we went out with all our stuffs and hailed a cab to school. to say, our school is less than a couple o km from my house but well... with so many stuffs to carry, boarding a bus will just be a bonus to blockage. in school again we cheong-ed. later we had lunch and it rained. ken gave up on his model and went off somewhere. i called him, he said he's in the library. i dunno wad to say. i said earlier that i will help him when i finish wif my model but it seems that my model is not also done. i actually assembled it in the display room itself. i just hoped that mine can get a decent grade. the initial design is so different from the outcome. but well, you know, things change.
after that, we had our peer marking and some stupid sucky survey. honestly i think that this module is the most fun & interesting. the ONLY thing that it sucks in is the limited time. that make the whole thing sucks in a way. well. i really felt bad for ken cos i cant help him. he didnt blame me either cos he really dont want to do any shit. so after all those, i came down to the workshop back with ivy and siyi to clear up our left-over stuffs. on the last day of every block, things are everywhere, borrowed, lent. so our stuffs some are gone but we found new stuffs. haha. standard. later i went to DoTA with the rest of the guys and bade farewell to the 2 girls. its time to have some serious DoTA!!! haha. FUN FUN FUN. oh and i had a fast dinner with sam at mac. sad siong cant join. he was home right after the peer marking.
all of us felt so good that another block has ended. a nightmare is gone, for the time being. im here now a happy person, i think. life is still long (but if God speaks short, and short it will be). so while we live, love the ones we love. care for them while they are still breathing. for all the mistakes that i had made in life, i just cant forgave myself in doing them though certainly they are forgiven. i will miss you my friends. i shall now say goodbye. til then, see you.
i never want to fall again, to fall in love.
a life in Black&Red.
` samarra .
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
CORRECTION FOR PREVIOUS ENTRY
o there was a mistake in the previous entry. about the coffee thing that i said i spammed all the way to burn the midnight oil. actually it increases my metabolism rate even higher and thats why eating large amounts of food makes no difference in my physical size. o damn. nvm. im just greatful that im alive and that i am capable of surviving on my own. praise to God i am alive.
Back After A Month
its been a month since i entered an entry. i was busy with schoolworks. its getting me stressed up and i think i start to lack in looking after my health. there was once an assignment is needed to be handed in in a short period of time. i had no choice but to burn the midnight oil to complete it. i spammed coffee all the way. and i tink becos of the coffee, it lowers down my metabolism rate even lower since my secondary school friends saw me the other day and noticed that i had became more skinnier. it was an insult. yes. but its true. i dont mind.
i tink after this freaking module ends that is next week, i tink i gona go to the beach and relax and just have fun while the holidays last. becos wenever school is on, suffering is inevitable. but of cos there are many ways to release the stress abit while in school. for me i usually just disturb my friends and annoy them to the extend that they wont even bother about you later on. yea i know thats screwed. haha. i had the pleasure doing that. another de-stressing method for me is to listen to music. well actually, it just help to soothes my mind for awhile when i got stuck up with some particular thing in my assignment. the last one is DOTA. well the addictive game. me n my friends usually called on the game when we are stress. but sometimes we are just playing on not to de-stress but jut for fun! and a week ago, friday, was the most fun day. that is we played dota for like 6 hours. my eyes burn, really. it was hell of a night. just sit there in front of the comp and click click click. to think of it, i tink i regretted playing that long cos now i gotta submit a digital rendering assignment by friday. and i barely traced out the product out on the illustrator. well thats life. regret is always in our lives.
so well now i am blogging. waiting for the trial download of the adobe illustrator CS3 to load finish. and omg it take about 1h 40min for my comp to download it. that is totally screwed up alredy. gotta wait long long. furthermore tmrw still need to submit a 3d model of planes. planes as in paper strips not that flying vehicle thinggy. i bought the colored papers but haven do yet becos i dont haf satay sticks or wire to make the planes stand later on the mounting board. tts damn fcked up. i should have brought back some wires from the studio. so that at least i can do the thing at home and not waste time like now waiting for the illustrator to atleast download finish so that i can continue abit with my work on the digital rendering. damn. i damn stressed. everyday is a terrible one. i tink im missing a motivation in life. last time i have the motivation which boost my energy thruout difficult times. of cos that past motivation is a person and that though she does not care much about me, i made her as a motivation in my life. many things i accomplished is thanks to her though she did nothing to assist or help me in any way. now that the motivation is gone. in search of a new one is never desperate. that is why i have to find a motivation that stays and particularly materialistic. so that losing it is totally impossible. okae til this point, i dun really understand what im trying to say cos my heart has taken over. if u understand then its good laa k. words from the heart are sometimes messy. okae crap. FULL STOP!
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` samarra .
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