indispensable to my emotional life

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school.
today was kind of a lonely day for me.
'lonely'.
not that i was alone but the atmosphere was silent.
the air was still.
not much soul was around.
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i did my work.
somehow the silence was good for concentration.
but still, the absence of laughter was a distraction.
glancing around every few minutes in the hope some familiar face showed up.
none.
and then, i got sick.
i mean, 'sick'.
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zZzZzZ.
i was spinning on my chair.
my work abandoned on the table.
damn, what was i thinking.
=.=
then ken came.
finally, someone to talk to.
chit chat.
continued work.
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later on siong called in for lunch.
together with jason.
so we went to eat.
ta pao up to lab.
bryan came. issit? or did he came later?
=.=
lunch done, i left for prayers.
and came back an hour later.
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it was raining.
it was chilly.
the wind swept by.
felt like ice biting into bones.
ooh really! , was that too exaggerating? (did i spell it right?)
i got drenched abit.
ran at the bustop full o water.
the wave rippled and swept by a girl's shoe.
ooops. "im sorry!"
ohh actually, i AM sorry.
i didnt apologize.
partly because the whole bustop, full of students, was being shrouded by rainwater.
and i ran past her fast.
she must have not seen me.
well im not saying i love to do bad things and escape.
thats not me. :D
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ermm.
i came back to lab, shivering a lil bit.
it was so cold.
i cant take the silence anymore... .. .
ohh pls. i did not shout or scream out okay.
i just got high. yess.
i did stupid movements and disturb my friends.
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those who know me well should know.
not to say im immature.
but the silent situation calls for it.
yaa! joke and crap around.
however in actual fact, i must admit, i have not yet reach full maturity.
i mean as in behaviour! not those hormones thinggy.
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i just dont want to see people sad.
especially my friends.
smile smile! :)
sometimes, covering up somebody's sadness with a cheap joke is something (good),
rather than not doing anything.
right?
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i dont know why but past few entries in my blog,
my words are of deep thoughts and critically emotional.
*gulp* 0.o
am i thinking too much?
life is too short.
not that i just know,
but i am starting to feel it happening to me.
arrrrrrrrgggghhhh! *running around frantically, hand waving wildly in the air*.
nolaa. im on my chair, peacefully.
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hmm.
anyway valentine's day coming.
o wait chinese new year first!
ya ya. im goin camping next week!
did i mentioned before here?
i think i did.
nevermind i say again.
overnight camping at east coast, bbq pit.
friday and saturday!
woohooo.
damn im feeling so high.
cant waiiiit.... cant waiiiit....
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back to february fourteen.
ahh. nothing is happening.
but i just wanna get that small cute voodoo doll for myself.
and if possible, a black rose.
=.=
heck. i dont know.
black rose... black rose...
i want ahh! keep keep. nice nice!
("alamak! get red rose laa then spray black! design student leii. be creative!")
what spray black? siao ahh.
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well anyway, i think thats it laa.
end for the entry.
long liao.
yaa. soo..
goodnight people!
sleep sleep :)
but i aint sleeping yet.
haha.
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inBlack&Red
` samarra .