silence, kills.

this is just becoming dreadful.
the nights getting colder.
warmth of your presence, gone.
where are you?
where'd you go?
i miss you so.

i`d be damned.
God, i`m pathetic.
who in the friggin` world am i?
sheesh.
i`m on my way to the core of my heart.
to find the meaning to my life.

we talked about it before.
about the true meaning to life.
do you remember?
well i`m going for it.
to discover what my heart truly seek.
the definition to my existence.

i just want you to know.
that i`ll be striving to fortify my heart.
to make it stronger.
you also have to, right?
i hope you`re doing good.
i know you are.

well just in case.
i`d be there to fend you.
because i know.
you need more help than i do.
my eyes had seen past your smiles.
there lies sadness behind.

i will henceforth isolate my heart.
lock it down from melancholic emotions.
erase all the unnecessaries.
gather all the happiness in me.
and strengthen the core of the heart.
after which, i`ll seek my definition.



and if i should fail...,






NO!






FAILURE DOES NOT EXIST IN MY DAMN DICTIONARY !!!





black will paint over white,
& red will stain it.

` samarra .