too much to say .

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i`ll let memories of 2009 flash past in my mind.
some of which i would embrace.
some of which i wish i could forget.
some of which i wish could repeat.
some of which i hope could stop.

its been a great year.
despite hurt, anger, frustration.
sad to say, but honestly, its really significant. :(
i`m glad somehow i can still live life as it is.
one life.

time to lay back.

btw, in advance, Happy New Year!
Happy 2010! :)
Hope this new year, will be a better year ahead.
for everyone.
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one .

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Pray to your god, open your heart
Whatever you do, don't be afraid of the dark

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a birth of a song, a death of a dream

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Its the moment of truth and the moment to lie
The moment to live and the moment to die
The moment to fight, the moment to fight
To fight, to fight, to fight

No I'm not saying I'm sorry
One day, maybe we'll meet again


30 Seconds To Mars -This Is War|Closer To The Edge
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the sick cycle carousel .

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hey hey,
i stepped down from the carousel already.

so whats next?
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mess of me .

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There ain´t no drug
No drug to make me well
It´s not enough
I´m breaking up
The sickness is myself


wicked song by SWITCHFOOT - Mess Of Me :)
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Mai`s 20th BBQ :)

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had a great evening celebrating.
more pictures up on fb.
finally got to meet the long-time-no-see faces.
awesome =D

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joy.

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Mai`s 20th.
had a great evening.
met up with long-time-no-see faces.
will update soon.
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hold your breath half to death .

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the best defense, is a good offense.
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for fun laughter peace & joy .

the disgusted & hated :)

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guess what i found in my phone? =D
that someone who _______ _______ __ ___.
& so is his _______, _____ __.

would you like to buy a vowel? XD

true ?

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"I rather spend time with people that gives a damn..." - Wilson Poh.

and i always thought its not the way.
now, i`m beginning to realise... actually it is.

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can i just laugh about it ?

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thanks, you, you and you.
i`m better.
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don`t care ?

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the closer you get to something, the harder it is to see it.

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save you .

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i didn`t tell you of my intention.
didn`t manage to.
sometimes, doing the right thing can be painful.
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if not for the 3 limits .

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how does it feel ?

oh by the way, i wish i could kill you :)

o starlight

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far away from the memories
of the people who care if i live or die

i don`t know if its worth it anymore.

the insignificance .

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stalemate.
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could i, would i ?

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its not that i did not learn my lesson.
its because i still have faith in and do believe...
but yet...
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fir`s coming back soon, & it can only mean one thing. =D

sleepy day .

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slept at the beach in the morn.
whole body feels soggy...
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Flow - Sign

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English Translation:

I realize the screaming pain
Hearing loud in my brain
But I'm going straight ahead, with this scar

Go ahead and forget, go ahead and stop feeling
(I) covered up (my) wounded heart

It's fine if (I) get hurt, cause (I) don't feel pain anymore
Even while dragging those feet along

(I) lost sight
of myself
the sound rose
and fell

Before (I) knew it, it was just the sound of the wind...

*Chorus
That comes to tell (me), follow the scar(s)
Before (you're) crushed by the world
Do you remember? The sky of tears

That pain protected you
That pain is always protecting you
*End Chorus

More than a strength that doesn't cause wounds, a kindness that can't wound
Some part of that voice seems sad

Like undoing buttons, heart and body seperated
take grasp of (your) heart one more time

*Repeat Chorus

(I've) found it, that crying voice
No doubt, that's right, it was my own
All of it was for this moment...

(I'm) sure from the beginning, (you/I) always knew
(That I) wouldn't ever let go of myself again
You noticed, a SIGN (signal) to you
That pain protected you

(I've) come to tell you, follow the scar(s)
If (you) do, there's nothing more to fear...
Don't forget okay? The reason for smiling

That pain protected you
That pain protected you
That pain is always protecting you

:(

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~sigh~
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interim .

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its over, not.
i need to return on tuesday with an improved idea 3D model.
nevertheless, still can relax.
and i very much enjoy hugging my bolster again.

there`s gotta be more to life, yeah?
:)
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all the same .

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"...and i`ll take you for who you are
if you take me for everything..."

read me .

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i don`t know why i`m even worried for.
but its not like i can`t care less.

pain, its subtle.
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altruism .

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and of course,
many more.

in this modern world, its good to know,
there are still people who care for others.

:)
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lets work to the grave !

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weekends no longer have to be called weekends if we have to do work that day.
and holidays... should they even be called holidays still?

i still remember primary school.
November and December.
the 2 best months of the year,
aside from June.

good old days.
ouhh yeahh.
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nothing more that i can deliver .

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as long as you don`t 'kill' yourself.

i`m hoping for a realisation, not for me.
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the break of dawn .

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starting to get really nocturnal these days.
i wish i could be at the beach right now, to see the sunrise.
sometimes we`re so occupied with work,
we missed out the beautiful things in life.

i want to talk. just talk.
under the blue sky.
under the starry sky.

be better than me.
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oh well ...

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i know. i knew.
~hush~
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MMI

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journey to the west tomorrow.
early. in. the. morning.
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straight through my heart .

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so whats the meaning of this ?

i may never know the answer to this endless mystery.
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a peep back .

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read some random posts in the past.
my way of writing changed.
okay wait.
its my way of TYPING changed.
ouh yeah.
hell wait.
its my way of THINKING.
=.="

and so... well well...
some post totally kiddish.
some post freakin hilarious.
some post full of anger.
some post for friends.
some post no link to life.

its kinda interesting to read back your damn past entries.
i could say i did laughed through.
some intense ones still did leave some silence. O.O

imagine if our lives were to be recorded in video form,
and when you`re old, play it back.
aww...
its gonna be damn intense... damn emotional... ><

alright fullstop.
shall go bathe.
mum`s siren @.@
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the sun rises in the east .

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stories may get twisted along the way :)

i see where i`m heading to.

hooked on bad romance, its the damn tune!
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the weather is sad .

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sketches at 12%. and im just like forcing out ideas?

by the way, missed the meteor showers that day. (there were 14!)

ack.

UIA UIA UIA:

the studio is empty now.
Cheng is blasting his music from his iphone.
i am finding the name of a Norwegian designer to do the designer review.
Chee Koon just came back to find if there's any doughnut left.
("eh where`s my doughnut!?")
Lin Wei brought his son in! No wonder can hear some kid's voice.
I`m lazy to go over and take a look at him.
Mei Sin is preaching on something to a bunch of people.
i just realised its quite cold and the air con isnt even on. (i thought i could off it =.=")
& my stomach is grumbling. ><
and oh! Lin Wei carried his child over here, to check on us.
told me he gonna return my R&A tmrw.
Fat just sat down to check out the songs in Cheng's ipod.
O.O my media player is playing that song.
Ken is looking over us from above... (the 6th floor corridor, not heaven yea.)
omg. while i just finish typing the previous sentence, he was already in the studio!
the 3 year old boy was happy.
Chee Koon patted his head. LOL!

~

alright back to hunting of Norwegian Designer's names!
ahh... nature`s call.
gotta answer it first.

to end it off,
THE BIRTHDAY MAN IS PLAYING WITH THE LITTLE BOY!
HAHAHAHA!

what a sight...
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thread a new path .

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because everyone is afraid to step out of their comfort zone.
i wish i COULD.
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SHUT! UP !

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and people can still complain about their lives...
i shall not go on further.
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rendezvous .

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the GODS meeting.

i can`t wait. :)
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feeling it .

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-paying the price...

thanks, yet again.

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just how grateful.
just how forgiving.

just as it is,
the stars are hidden on a rainy night.

i should stop opening up stitched wounds.
i should let them heal.
and never tear it open again.

the only way to prove this...
time will tell. (:

this night i took a step to define myself.

recall ...

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there is alot...
to ask.
to say.
to remember.
to forget.
to rejoice.
to regret.

SAAAMMMMMIIIIIIIIIIIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

& i know you`ve gotten sick of me, Adik.
i`ve been terrible to youuu...
i hurt myself for hurting you...
yet the pain you suffer is greater than mine.
i need to fix myself...
fast.
real fast.

help.

outside the green zone .

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"When people get hurt, they learn to hate. When people hurt others they become hated.

But knowing that pain allows people to be kind, pain allows them to grow, and how you grow is up to you.

You know pain, you think about it, you learn to live with it,
but when pain becomes attach with revenge and anger, pain becomes aweful and strong,

it makes you blind."

Pain (Nagato) from the series Naruto Shippuden.

Pain is proof you are living, it means you are not dead yet.
It means there is hope.

i have washed it away :)

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for those who didnt realise,
my blog's past background were black for a reason.

now you can see what you might have missed.

i realise the screaming pain .

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maybe i shouldnt even bother talking about it.

suppressing what should not be .

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the stars are hidden on a rainy night.
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disgusted .

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what happened to me?

i only kept hurting. :(
epecially you, Adik.
i didnt knew those 3 months of SIP would leave a grudge this deep in me.
never have i felt so much hatred.

and for being selfish, i cause pain to others.
Adik, i deeply regret if i hurt you in any way.
need to get rid of this black stain on my heart.

its the end of the line aint it ?

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I failed, I lost it.

and i thought i can understand. but i just dont. all that i have brought... is just pain pain pain... i dont know what im doing. my purpose in life? gone. i wish i can go far away now. i dont wish to remember nor remembered. i need some time.

my heart is dying.
i need a transplant.

the darkness burns ; the sunlight stings

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You make me high.
You make me real.
You make me cry.
Now you know the way i feel.

Right me when i`m wrong.
I`ll never let you down even if i could.

But for that one reason,
I don't understand.
Why? Why this path?

Adiikkkkkkk! (:

just why ... ?

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departure

TO

the

FRONTLINES

my hatred for you grows. i tried to stop it. it failed. you`re just too much.
and you... what happen to you...? :(

no matter what it takes ; whatever the cost

rotten core, you are much more despised now than ever before.

there is something else.

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to be understood as to understand .

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45 Scotts Road

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one of the SIP Project.
not gonna post up all pictures of the house here.
these are just the living/dining area.
quite finished but not just yet.

i used to write like this for fun last time.

having emotions means that we are still human .

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i got the sudden urge to write a book.
titled: the truth about Marcus and Faith.
it is interesting to learn about their character, attitude, doings, and way of life.
i know im just crapping.
im just saying how nice could it be if we could learn the truth about these kind of people.
to understand what had happened that caused them the way they are now.

is there really an incident that change their course of life?
change their character, attitude, actions, way of life?
`cause when we are born into this world, we are pure and innocent.
we ALL are.
NO ONE IS BORN EVIL OR BAD.
as we grow up, its the people and the surrounding that shapes us, and taint us.
if not influenced, we are the one who chose the way we want to be.
for the good or the bad, i guess its fate.

i desire to understand people.
as it could prevent conflicts and misunderstanding between parties.
i never really like fights and arguments.
`cause it just shows how immature one can be.
or how stubborn
or how damn egoistic one can be.
tsk.

in this 3 months of SIP, i honestly can say i opened more than before the door of my dark side.
what was that about?
anger, frustration, oppressed.
feelings for myself, for my friends.
you can hurt me real bad, i`ll get angry.
but you hurt my friends, i`ll go on a rage.

sometimes i feel like im losing control,
losing myself.
and there`s one point... i dont feel like myself.

i`ve never learn to hate.
i`ve only learn that as human beings, we ought to forgive each other.
even if the other party doesnt accept our forgiveness,
at least we`ve done it... & the rest is between him/her & God.

"the day when everyone can understand each other."

just when?

Reality: "Its just too much to ask for."

a condemned act .

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i am thinking about it.
thinking about it.
thinking about it.

THINKING ABOUT IT!

ALL THE TIME!

I DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT THE HELL YOU ARE TRYING TO DO.
USING UNDERHAND MEANS.
ITS AS EQUAL AS BACKSTAB.
EVIL PERSUASION.

forgive me.
i know, i`m selfish.

PIDians meet up.

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today knocked off from work early.
which is soooo daaaaamn gooooood! XD

because we`re all meeting up for FYP briefing meeting.
back in school.

its been some time.
some nice feeling when see back the familiar faces,
after near 3 months.

new lecturers and new FYP system.
i cant put it high up nor low down.
i just hope we all end this nicely.

mass dinner at prata shop!
loooooong table ^^
& its not the kind of every day thing. (:

great day, hands down.

check check .

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... as long as our intentions are good .

my body is aching real bad.
maybe i shouldnt have gone all out so suddenly.

mum chucked in panadol and some med oil.
im knockin off.

nights, world.

gravity ties us to reality .

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of serenity & chaos.

2 more weeks .

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my mum went on a rampage.
and so do i.
and i just realised i am working on Saturday evening when she scold me.
was like sudden wake up.
saying why your company throw you anyhow.
and youre working for them, letting them earn money, while you earn nothing!
(honestly i dont learn much in my SIP)

like now! 6-10pm.
im with Chloe & Syarul at Jurong West right now!
promoting our company`s services to a bridal organisation.

if i had sound my boss back that i cant make it for today, i bet someone else will have to replace me.
that just sucks right?

seriously, they make money by USING us.
damn pissed now.
at both of them!
should tell the whole damn world about how this "SUCCESSFUL" kind of people make money.

they fucking corrupt our minds with their fucking adult novelties,
throw their shitty attitude at us,
teach us to lies to clients and people we`re working with,
expect alot from us when we`re just learning!
AND WE GET NOTHING!
no salary also!

go and hire some workers laa shitholes.
dont bother us.
WE GIVE THEM FACE! THATS WHY!

i wanna see you both struggle without us.
yes i am feeling evil now.
very indeed.
control me.

i`ve been spouting more vulgarities.
not good.
very not good.

what 3 years of inactiveness do .

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i went with Shamir this morn to train for NAPFA.
i managed to dig out my Sec 5 NAPFA results.
then i get the passing grades for 20-24 years old male from the net.

i put the 5 points mark for all. haha.
target.

and i did everythin except shuttle run today.
the only thing that is still okay for me is my standing broad jump.
the rest... CMI!
my 2.4 run timing from 10:18 to 13:03!!!
my body like adding a minute to each inactive year like that!
bad bad bad! :(
need to train again.
hopefully on weekday nights after work.
see how.

i`ll put up my Sec 5 and current results later on.
gotta go work and my body is kinda aching.
and i had afternoon nap like for the first time since SIP start.
haha.
okok i better get going.
Boon Lay. T.T

time to reset, & start .

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3 days ago was Adik`s 20th.
apparently she didnt knew we sneaked in birthday cake since lunch time WITH her.
haha!
anyway Happy Birthday again! best wishes! :)

i am getting sleepy lately.
bus ride!
i mean i dont usually sleep when im going somewhere.
usually only when coming back then MAYBE i would.

just now was my 2nd time i missed my stop!
and i stopped further up to Upp Bukit Timah Rd.
maybe next time it`ll be the interchange. =.="
ahh well.

and 2 weeks left of SIP!
cannot wait.
i can no longer keep up with the situation at work.
or rather, i desire not.

true its the end of SIP and the start of FYP.
but whats to come, will come.
whats to end, will end.
denying that fact wont get us anywhere.

anyway went to meet the rest for Rathi's birthay celebration.
walked away after work with Shumin and Cihui. :x
if i wait, dont think can meet them.
so i knocked off.
the rest were still doing the wedding decor for the Bentley.
wonder what time they went off. hmm.

Downtown East Platinum Lounge.
Sharmine, Nordiana, Ivy, Shamir, Regu, Rathi, Ridhwan, Me and Maishirin.
it was their last stop for the day and i made it in time. haha.
played some hilarious mental games.
so L O L.

went off at 11 plus.
and i guess now im hungry.
i crave for prata and coke float!
^^

tmrw starts my training for NAPFA.
awesome.
i wanna see how far back i am.
3 years of not much active training.
3 weeks to NAPFA.
dont know if i can be back on form on time.
good luck Samir.

Requiem For A Soldier

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We are all one great band of brothers
And one day you'll see we can live together
When all the world is free

whats the world coming to ?

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my company should just aim to be a sicksexfreak organisation.

fucking dirty.

next time why not just fucking start prostitution in there also?

cant believe we`re working WITH such situation.

papercut.
i gonna have my dinner, now.

"wait! what were you saying? freelance?"

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feeling the sickness right now.
cannot wait for this mess to be over.
freelance? forget it.
anythin under that company, I AINT WORKING!

the more time spent there,

the more curses spouted...
the more sins commited...
the more degraded our minds are...

we almost witnessed everyone's dark side.

and so,
karma gonna knock on their door soon.
open up, dont be a coward.

16th October, we`re coming.

the fishes miss me!

or should i say... my hooks miss them.
(:

TELETUBBIES IN L4D !

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see the innocent looking childhood Teletubbies as subs for zombies in L4D.
damn cute!

LALAA! LALAA!

hahaha.

:(

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and my heart cant rest.
i am truly sorry, Adik.

the last day of Ramadhan .

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glory!
tomorrow is Hari Raya !

house spring cleaning is quite there.
the food... mum cooking now.

i guess everythin should be settled by night.
HAAAAAAPPPPPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
(:

~

its raining.
like from early morning.
nice day. cooling.
hope it stretches till night.
but not tmrw pls!
haha.

i have not showered. great.
mum gonna siren if she knows.
ack.
going out later.

~

1 more month till no more looking at my bosses face.
sick of them.

i still dont like the fact, 2 of my friends cannot have their portfolio on the project
which they have been doing for quite some time.

because the damn project wont finish even when the end of our internship!
in other words, they must still do work after end of internship if they want the portfolio.
if not, then they can't have any!

whatthehellisthat?!?!

just like scam.

i hate that.
Samir truly hates that.

and im assigned a task yesterday.
together with a friend.
and we`re suppose to do finish by next week.
tuesday we`re suppose to show something.

thing is, its no easy task!

ftw.
HARI RAYA you DUMBASS!
public holiday!
get that in your brain!

ouhh!
forgive me.
you dont have any. XD
heh.

well obviously, they realised internship is ending.
means no more workers.
BECAUSE we are the only ONES assisting with their job.
tsk tsk.
pathetic, ya? ^^
thats why they rushing us with all their projects.

they are so afraid they cannot complete it. oooo wwweeeee~

haii~
I guess i have sinned in this fasting month.
like seriously.

oh why why why why why why why why ... ... ... ... ...

:(

~

okay i shall get going now.

What About Now ?

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before its too late...

clearing up .

-
i admit i was just emotional.

but who would not worry for their friends?

thoughts, after some really long time .

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humans have eyes to see.
but we fail to see the truth.
we close one eye on the wrongdoings.
we desire to see only the nicest of things.
we only wish to see what is pleasant to us,
or what we believe is true.

why can`t we open our eyes to the real world?
why can`t we see the real struggle of life?
some people just think highly of themselves.
they only wish to see good things in themselves.
selfish, and ignorant.

why not see through eyes of other people?
people in pain, poverty, struggle...
or simply, your own classmate whom you regard as a weirdo.
have you ever seen through his eyes and see what he has gone through, or is going through?
just assuming he is weird and neglecting his existence.
what is that?
that, is human nature for some of us who just fail to see things as a whole. - its a painful reality.

what are our hearts for?

is it so that hard to learn to love?

is it so that hard to accept another who is different from you?

when i was a little kid.
i watched rather alot of documentary shows on TV. (but im not deprived of cartoons mind you.)
at such tender age, as i watch those people in need, my heart aches, honestly.
the filming of children in near-dying conditions caught the most of my attention.

i even remembered one of my super marvellous kid`s dream of building a long water pipe into the country experiencing drought.
it was a really ridiculous thought though.

i wanted to join MercyRelief or such organisation which offers humanitarian aid.
but i dont seem to have time to engage in such activities.
quite sad actually.
its like one of my dream.
perhaps one day i would be able to fulfill it.
God`s will.

of course, start small.
being caring to the people around you is a start.
it is always better to give than to receive.
understanding people, listening to their hearts.
lending a helping hand, sharing bittersweet.

im not really a wonderful person.
im not really that great.
im just another human being.
i have negative feelings too.
always learning to supress them.

im just someone who doesnt want to see others in pain.
`cause it would hurt me, if i know & dont do anything about it.

sometimes when i care for a person too much,
and it just hurts me more,
i had thoughts of "why do i have feelings & emotions? it hurts."
i feel like numbing my feelings.
but to think again.
that would make me heartless since i wish not to feel.
humans, HAVE hearts, and DO care. (thats what i wish, and hope is true.)
some are just too proud to let it show.
love exists, in many different ways.
we just have to open our heart and feel its existence. (:



"you can close your eyes from the things you don`t want to see,
but you can`t close your heart from the things you don`t want to feel."


***

honestly, this is what happens when i sit down and stare blank.
didnt know i can scratch out this long post `cause i`m tired and sleepy.
oh well.
(:

LOVELY !

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its a pretty long video.
but its really nice!
worth the watch. (:

when you cannot bring your enemy down, make things hard for him .

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i am definitely, experiencing weight loss.
not that drastic though.
it wasnt like this last Ramadhan.

thanks to my freaking foss.

break fast barely eat anythin.
got home, just some side dish or snacks or whatsoever.
i know im skinny in the first place.
its not that i wanted it.

just high metabolism.
crap.

work is okay considering i. dont. have. to. do. last. minute. work . again.
yesterday`s the worst. left at 10 plus.
THANKS TO YOUR NICE EDITING HERE THERE EVERYWHERE
and you go off.
go drink, get drunk, go dead.

that whole damn place should just go down.
freaking sinful place.

one sicko.

one naggo.

okay. im fasting.
haii.

we took cab home ystd.
zzz.

free labour USED for generating their money.
if you atleast care about our welfare, than its okay.
this, isnt.
eff off.
whats wrong with these people.

Samir wants to leave this 'world' behind.

it was that feeling again.
that contemplation.
that hesitation.
get away, please.

rotten core attitude .

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just because you are stress or angry,
doesnt mean you can vent your anger on people who are not involved!

i don`t like the way you treat my friends.

if you want a job done right, you do it yourself.

and i think i know.
time to start.

hmm .

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first day of fasting.
a little restless in the day.
expected.
went over to granny's for break fast.

came at noon.
aunt and her family there too.
we had quite alot of food for breakfast.
bought some kuehs from this shop.

love the place cos when i was young used to go there.
when i was living there that time, usually go there to get the green baked kueh.
dont know whats the name though.
and kueh lapis (the colourful layered kueh).

^^ reminiscence.

ahh well.
hmm.
work got better, a LITTLE better.
i guess you cant really change someone's attitude and character eh?

"a stone is sittin in yer head"

honestly, i feel that some stuffs they're working on are disgusting & disgraceful.
really, what are they thinking?
tsk.

who am i to judge anyway?

blah.

karma karma. (:

sometimes i feel happy.
sometimes, i just dont know.

photos updates .

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a small Sec Sch mates gathering.
140809.
more up on fb.
thanks to Charlene for organising this event, & the photos too! (:

nearly lost it .

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i am afraid i can no longer control myself soon if this keeps up.

i feel angry at you.
i feel bad towards my friends.
i feel sad that i`m losing myself.

patience, how long more?

yet again .

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i don`t feel like myself.

great days .

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Friday

Friday night after work, met up with the bunch at Timbre.
sec sch mates gathering.
Shamir, Ivy, Alan, Charlene, Wanyun, Sharmine & Wilson.
great to see them again.
its really been some time.

live band there is awesome.
the atmosphere pretty nice.
yeah.
had some great time.

(pics will be up as soon as i get them)


Saturday

went to school morning.
gamed & lunched with Teo & Yuki.

later on met Shamir, Regu, Fifi, & Ridhwan.
head to town to fetch Jib after his work.
got donuts from Dunkin and bought tickets for movie.
"The Hangover".

we went to LAN shop to meet Marisher.
movie still late so we ended up playing CS first.
haha.
my first time playing in LAN shop.
had some fun.

that cranky old lady that got some issue with Jib.
"super fast machine"
damn! haha.

watched movie.
honestly the cinema kinda sucks.
esp the seats.
haha. well atleast the movie is a pay-off.
damn funny.
kinda laughing all the way.
never laughed that hard since some time.

"The Hangover" is a must watch!

got home kinda late. 2 days consecutively coming home late.
mum on-ed her siren.
i didnt argue much. let it off.


Sunday

today i guess i not going to go out.
haha.
kinda bored now...

a situation like this should never exist .

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patience is slowly leaving me.

Briyaaaaaniiiii

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had kenduri (gathering+feast) today at my aunt`s.
cousins there too.
we ate before the feast started.
& we ate again during the feast.

its briyani rice with all the beef, chicken, etc served on a banana leaf on a big round tray.
4 people per tray. its damn great to eat like this once in a while. ^^

i didnt know i could manage 2 heavy meals within less than 2 hour gap.
aunt da bao for my family for dinner. XD
not with the banana leaf of course! haha!
speaking of which i gonna go eat now.

and i AM going to take care of my health.
last week laying down on fever was dreadful enough.
tomorrow work again.
to think again, i only had done a week of SIP so far.

O.O

tmrw, yet an hour plus bus ride to work.
with new songs on my mp4. XD

and i`m still adapting to my phone`s qwerty keypad. @.@

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pretty sick mix of

Brand New`s The Quiet Thing That No One Ever Knows
&
Dashboard Confessional`s Screaming Infidelities

i liiiike !

the 2 songs were mixed by Legion of Doom and named Quiet Screaming.

Saturday Morning Out

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planned with Ivy to meet Siyi for breakfast today.
Teo tagged along.
Mac Breakfast.
after that Siyi go to work.

we went to Ehub! arcade.
and well the video below show the magnificent para para dancer.
HAHA!
Sam came later and we went to play pool.

Saturday morning, well spent. XD

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the espadas .

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Despair : Old Age : Destruction : Greed : Sacrifice
Rage : Loneliness : Nihilism : Madness : Intoxication

CURSE you CURSE you CURSE

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never in my life i feel so much hatred.

HATRED!

you earned it, ARSEHOLE!



I. FUCKING. DESPISE. YOU!



MAY EVERYTHING YOU DO, WILL BE AS FUCKED UP AS YOU. OKAY?

oooOOOooo

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Source A

Source B



What can you infer from both Source A and Source B ?

thirtyNINE.three

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fever on a weekend .

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temperature`s a little high.
burning.
wasted, its a Sunday.
not going anywhere today also.

raw chrysanthemum tea is bitter to the max!
i drank it down though, a little >.<

its pretty hot .

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my head is clearing up.
i guess.

sadly my cooling pad is dead.
and im just using it as a raised platform so ventilation is possible.

i NEED to get a new one asap.
HP laptops without cooling pads gonna be goners.

it blue-screened on me again just now (obviously not b`cos of heat).
please hang on!

what the fcuk you think you are doing ?

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i`ve never liked to make such a fuss.
i don`t like to make matters big.

but your existence is really not well liked if you want to know.
honestly i could say your actions are rather despised by me.

care to be a better person, scumbag?
you ought to see how you`re going by.