overwhelming.

too much in my head.
staring at the ceiling thinking about you.
the things we did together.
and things we did not.

how painful it is to remember these.
i was desperately hoping it was just a phase.
but it did not happen to be.
you tore my heart to pieces.

i was helpless knowing it.
its sadness beyond measure.
its pain like never before.
all i am was nothing.

almost half a year passed.
and my heart is still lost.
if there is any hope left in this world.
i hope it does not find me.